short, and not too good...but here's a bit more for now :)
I smiled gently at him. There's my good old Alec. I just hope he's right. Sebastian can't be aloud to live. Not now, not ever. And especially not when he's already tried to go after my kids. That bastard will die and I'll fight anyone who tried to take my right to kill him away
My decision was made for me the moment that I found out that Sebastian was back.
It ripped me up inside, but it had to be done.
My kids would have even more protection and maybe...No. Forget it.
I had to let Jace meet the kids.
Alec's been the only one to come over so far. Isabelle and Si had came over, but just stayed long enough to hear
what happened. They both had tried to convince me to take everyone to the Instatute, but I refused. Not until
Jace and I things straightened out.
So, the evening that Alec first met the kids, I thought about everything I should do. I battled with myself. Then,
finally, I did what I've been doing for years. Make a list. On the top of the paper, I wrote,
Pro's and Con's of Letting Jace Meet the Kids.
Pro's
The kids would have more protection.
Jace would never hurt them: he's not suicidal enough to try.
We'd be able to talk about everything.
We...we might be the family I always dreamed about finally.
Con's
I'd be breaking my promise, my vow.
He might want to be in mine and the kids' lives.
I could let him back into my heart...and he breaks it again.
He might not want to deal with us.
I started at my lists. They were short, but I couldn't help it...my brain had too much on it to completely think. But I
did the best I could.
So I stared at them for at least an hour before deciding that I had to let Jace back into my life. My biggest
fear...had to be that he'd break me again. My heart just couldn't take that again. So I can't let the chance come.
I'll just let him...Dammit! Why can't this just...be easy? Why couldn't I just have the life I dreamed about? I want to
know who hates me enough to keep torching me!
I sighed and rubbed between my eyes. My head was pounding and I knew for a fact that I was having a
migraine. Thanks angel it was relatively dark in here.
As I tried to distract myself from the pain, my eyes wondered to my kids. They all were playing with some toys
Magnus had made. The boys were playing with their sisters. Luckily, after everything that's happened, they've
started to calm down some. Before, they all would cry and freakout if I left, but we'd calmed them down enough
so that I could leave them in a room with the others and everything would be fine for a while. An hour tops.
It use to be one of my all time favorite things to just...watch them. Eat, play, sleep, anything. Every time they
smiled, I knew I had done the right thing so long ago. But if they got sick, or even shed one tear...I hated myself.
It was my fault that those tears were shed...My fault that they had gotten sick.
And then I'd think, This wouldn't have happened if you hadn't ran. You're a horrible mother that can't protect your
children...Look! You made them cry! Those moments make me feel like shit. But, usually someone-most of the time
Lucas-would smile at me and tell me I'm a great mom.
But, back to my main point. If Jace was here, then the kids would have more protection. And, well...as much as I
hated to say it...Jace is their father. He has to at least help me protect them...Right?
Right before I went to bed-around 9-I gave myself a pep-talk and fire messaged Jace.
If you ever cared about me in the slightest, meet me outside of Magnus' at 6am tomorrow.
Five minutes later, he replied back. Three little words.
I'll be there.
ok, it's short and crappy...but, unfortunalty, that's all I've been abe to get. the next chapter will be longer, i promise...please don't give up on this story! i'm just at a point where i need some ideas
i deleted all the AN chaps too
btw, to who ever reviewed titled, "PISSED" on the lasted chap-the AN-, when i titled it, i said it wasn't a chapter! you didn't have to read it, so yeah!