Author's note: Edward'sBella21 helped me realise I accidently posted the same chapter twice yesterday. I am so sorry about this! Here is the real chapter 30 and a big thanks to Edward'sBella21!

Disclaimer: I do not own Twlight

Somehow I made it through my last week at UW, barely. I felt dead inside, zombie like. I knew Alice and Rose were hurt by my ant- social behaviour, but I just wasn't myself anymore.

I spent all of my time holed up in my room now days, studying furiously as a form of distraction. If only one good thing came out of this fuck awful situation it would be that I would have excellent grades.

This thought didn't make me feel any better.

My first few exams went well, due to the fact that I had spent every waking hour lately revising. Now I faced the terrifying prospect of figuring out what I would do when I finally graduated. Results would come out about 5 weeks after my last exam when I would find out if I was able to graduate. And then….?

I didn't know what would happen next, I didn't want to think about it.

Rosalie's Point of View

"I'm really worried about Bella" I said one afternoon sitting in the boy's living room with Alice, Emmett and Jasper.

It had been four weeks now since that awful afternoon when they had broken up and it was plain to see that Bella wasn't coping; at all.

She barely ate, rarely spoke and I knew she wasn't sleeping. She looked so broken it made me want to cry when I saw her.

Alice exhaled loudly, "I know" she replied her eyes filling with tears, "I thought she would start to deal with things a little better as time went on, but she's not. If anything she seems to be getting worse" she added.

Emmett looked forlorn, "What can we do though babe?" he asked me, "She won't even talk to any of us anymore."

"I'm not sure" I sighed, "But we have to do something."

Just then I heard footsteps on the stairs; Edward.

I had hardly seen Edward over the past few weeks, so I was shocked when he entered the living room.

He looked awful too.

"Hey Edward" I said softly, as the others greeted him too.

He nodded in my direction, "Off to my exam" he said bluntly picking up his keys and heading out the door.

Once he was out of earshot I spoke up, "He looks like he's dealing with things just as badly as Bella."

Jasper nodded, "You'd be right" he told me. "He's devastated; I've never seen him like this, ever."

"Has he talked to you two at all about what happened?" Alice asked, "Told you why and what they were fighting about?"

"Nope" Emmett replied.

"I think we all have a fair idea though" Jasper added.

I nodded.

"We need to get him talking, find out the nitty gritty of what happened, see if it's repairable" Alice spoke up reading my mind.

"Exactly" I chimed in, "We won't meddle though, that wouldn't be right, but perhaps if we get him to open up" I told them all, "Just maybe he'll get the motivation to win her back."

Edward's Point of View

The past four weeks had been the most difficult of my entire life. I spent the majority of them holed up in my room, running that day over and over in my head.

After I had dissected every little detail I moved on to the weeks leading up to that day, trying to find where things had gone wrong.

Fuck.

I headed downstairs; I had another exam to get to. I would head home straight after and finish my dissection.

They were all downstairs, I could hear them.

They were talking about Bella, hearing her name caused stabbing pains in my chest.

I walked into the living room pretending I hadn't heard a thing.

"Hey Edward" they all said greeting me with concerned eyes.

I nodded at them, "Off to my exam" I said to no one in particular, snatching up my keys and heading out the door.

Somehow I finished my exam, and felt like I had done okay. I avoided all of my classmates and headed straight out to the parking lot.

"Edward" I heard a voice call across the lot.

I didn't turn around, I knew I was being rude, but right now I didn't give a fuck. I just wanted to go home and wallow.

"Edward!" the voice called again sounded much closer this time. I could hear the person running to catch up.

I pulled my keys from my pocket, getting ready to unlock the Volvo's door.

"Hey" the voice said, having caught up with me.

I finally turned around, coming face to face with Victoria.

I just stared at her.

"I heard about you and Bella" she said a small smile playing on her lips, "I'm really sorry" she offered.

"Yep" I replied tersely.

She was still standing there, what the fuck did she want?

"But you know" she said reaching out and touching my arm, running her hand up and down, "You can do so much better than her Edward" she simpered. "You know, I could help you there" she continued smiling at me.

And suddenly it all became clear to me.

Fuck.

Bella was right, of course she was right. I had just thought she was being paranoid, that she didn't trust me. But it wasn't that at all.

I was such an idiot.

All this time I was resenting her for not trusting me, for her even entertaining the idea that I would ever cheat on her; I was wrong, so fucking wrong.

"Get your fucking hands off me" I spat, wrenching my arm away from her.

"What's wrong?" she asked, visibly confused.

I was angry, furious. It kind of took me by surprise; it had been weeks since I'd felt any kind of emotion that wasn't total despair and self-loathing.

"You are a home wrecking bitch" I accused, "I can't believe I didn't see it before. You caused this" I continued angrily.

She looked smug.

"You made me lose the single most important thing in my life, my reason for living" I yelled not caring if anyone heard me.

"I helped you" she insisted, "You deserve better than her."

"You're wrong, she deserves better than me" and with that I jumped into my Volvo and sped out of the parking lot.