Chapter 17
*Alyce's point of view
There was hurt and anger seen in his eyes. I didn't mean to do that yet that's what I did. I lied and caused someone pain. I have a reason yet that is not enough. I'm his older sister, I should have helped him yet I only brought him pain.
All of this is my fault, I should just accept it. No one is to blame but myself. I've done things I shouldn't have.
Tears started slowly streaming down my face. I could no longer stop the feeling of pain, sadness and guilt. I didn't want to cry yet I did.
My chest hurts, it feels so heavy. I didn't want to feel the pain yet it's there.
My wounds from before made the pain worsen until I felt numb. I want it to go away yet it stayed.
I don't want to wake up anymore yet I can't even sleep.
Why do things have to be this way?
I asked even if I knew the answer. Things became this way because of what I did.
"Alyce?" said Lilia with a worried look on her face. I was so engulfed in my thoughts that I forgot that she was here.
"Who are you?" I asked with the same confused look in my eyes.
I didn't want to lie to her but I did.
"I'm Lilia; you took me in years before."
"I did?"
"Yeah, you did but that's not important. You're hurt and crying. Why is that? Can I do anything for you?" she was worried for me and eager as to what she can do to help.
"Do you know a song that can put me to sleep?"
"My mother used to sing me one. It was a nice song but I can't remember the lyrics, just the tune. Will that do?"
"Yes and thank you."
"No problem. Anything for you, Alyce."
She then started humming a tune. It was gentle and comforting. My mind wandered off until I drifted off into sleep. I thought it would have taken awhile but it didn't and I'm grateful for that.
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*Lavi's point of view
Alyce can't remember five years of her life; I don't have a chance to ask her anymore what I wanted to ask. It is a sad occurrence that should not affect me. I should really stop doing and feeling things I shouldn't. I should just view them as ink on paper and focus more on my duties as a bookman apprentice.
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*Lilia's point of view
Poor Alyce, she's suffering from all the lies she has to tell. I know she does not want to yet she has to. She blames it on herself when none of it is really her fault. I want to help Alyce but I know I can only do so little.
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*At the infirmary
"It seems you are awake now, Alyce," said Komui as he entered the room. "Can you leave us alone for now, Lilia?"
"Okay," said Lilia as she got up then left the room.
"Who are you?"
"I'm Komui Lee, supervisor of this branch, Miss Alsworth."
"So you're something like my boss."
"You could put it that way."
"When can I leave?"
"I'm afraid you can't go unless it's for a mission."
"What are you keeping me here for?"
"We are not keeping you here. This is your home. You called it that yourself."
"That's a load of crap."
"I'm afraid it's true."
"I don't believe you."
"That doesn't matter. I'm here to explain to you what you seem to have forgotten."
"I don't care about remembering, just let me go home."
"Just listen to me."
"Why should I?"
"It's for your best interests."
"How can that be?"
"It will help you and those important to you."
"I don't have anyone left important to me. You said I've been here for five years and that I left home out of my own volition. My father would have severed all ties if I indeed left home."
"Then you've got nothing to lose by staying here."
"I still don't seem to like this place."
"That does not matter since you already work here."
"I'd stop."
"You're not allowed to."
"What are you going to tell me then?"
"The part of your life that you've forgotten."
"I'll try to listen then and try to avoid falling asleep."
"Do your best then to try."
Komui then started telling her about innocence, the exorcists, the order, the akuma, the Noah and things she generally has to know.
"You'll be allowed to get out of bed at the end of the week. You can start retraining when you're out."
"Yeah, I will."