Chapter 26
Eu te amo, Tyki.
These were my last words or rather supposedly my last words before I died. It didn't happen though because I'm very much alive but hardly moving.
I'm lying down on a soft bed with bandages all over me. When I first opened my eyes, I even wondered why I was able to wake back up in this world.
Why am I alive? I was already at death's door and barely clinging on to life. I already accepted that fate yet I didn't face it. I'm alive even if I could hardly move.
I didn't know where I was since the only thing that I could see is the ceiling. I tried getting up but my bones hurt so much. I tried looking at my side and saw a bedside table on the right while there was just a window and another small table on my left.
The curtain was closed but I could see that it was probably around noon. Had I been gone that long? I suddenly felt hungry and thirsty. I tried getting up from the bed but suddenly fell down and it sure as hell hurts. Some of my wounds reopened. I really shouldn't have done that.
The door suddenly opened and my deep black eyes saw straight into the eyes of gold. Expressions of surprise were both on our faces. He hurriedly went to my side and helped me on the bed.
"Tyki …"
"You shouldn't try to get out of bed yet."
"Why am I alive?"
"I don't know myself."
"Answer my question. Why didn't you just kill me or left me there to die?"
"I couldn't …"
"Couldn't what?"
"Just stay there. I'll get you something to eat and drink. You're probably hungry."
"Tyki! Answer my question. Why didn't you just kill me?"
I shouted at him with those words. Why did I want to know the answer so badly? Was I expecting something?
"Let's just say I became fond of you just like Lilia. And there might still be a use for you. There is nothing at all besides those reasons."
"Did you …"
"I did and I rather have it that we won't talk about it anymore."
He left the room after saying that.
Tears suddenly went down my face. He's a Noah so he of course let me live because there might be use for me. Was I expecting too much when I learned he let me live?
I hate Tyki. I was already prepared to die. I accepted my fate but he stopped it. He let me live only to suffer. I'm just going to be used like a tool.
I don't want this at all. I hate him. I hate him so much. I hate him like hell. I hate him yet … I don't. It's myself that I hate for foolishly believing in things I know that is impossible. I don't want to live anymore. Everything should just end.
I activated my innocence then held the dagger firmly to stab myself in the chest. I don't need to live. I should stop foolishly believing those lies. The lies uttered and done by the man whom I foolishly believed in. The man who deceived me with his sweet and kind lies. I should end things quickly so that I don't need to suffer.
...
'Don't worry, Lilia. Things will turn out fine.'
'You won't leave me like the others did, right? You'll always be by my side.'
'Of course, Lilia. I'll always be by your side. I won't ever leave you. I'll always be there to protect you.'
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'You have such a cute little brother, Alyce. He is our little angel. I don't think your father will like him though. I think he'll try to take him away like he did with your sister. Promise me that you'll look for him. Please. I know he will so promise me that you'll find him,' said mother as she was in tears while holding my little baby brother.
'Yes, mother. I promise that I'll find him. I don't want him to end up like my sister. I'll find him. He'll be safe. I'll look for him and bring him home to you.'
…
Why am I remembering those memories? Why at a time like this? I was already going to kill myself yet why? Why did I have to suddenly remember those things?
I'm a real coward for running away. I'm running away through death while breaking my promises to the ones I love. Mother didn't even live to see him again. The least I could do is to protect him even if I can't tell him the truth yet.
The least I could do for Lilia is find a way to let the spirit possessing her rest in peace. The least I could do for my younger sister is to let her spirit be at rest.
I'm sorry mother. I'm sorry, Lilia. I'm sorry, Allen. I'm sorry, Cordelia. I disappointed you by trying to run away. I'm sorry. I promise that I'll try to escape and find a way out. I'll find a way to complete my promises. I won't run away anymore. I'll live and do something. I promise that.
I let go of the dagger while I placed my hands on my face as tears continued to fall. I'm not going to die, not now until I fulfill my promise.
It doesn't matter if things aren't the ways as I pleased. It doesn't matter anymore. I need to stop foolishly believing in things that I should not.
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(^.^) Kylie: Yay! Alyce is alive and she is with Tyki. I hope you liked this chapter. Please tell me your opinions about it and thanks if you did.
And I apologize for saying such words as not continuing it. I'm never going to do that. I will finish it until the end. I promise that and I keep my promises.
And the thing that Tyki won't talk about was Alyce's supposedly last words.
Eu te amo - I love you