John and Mickie were finding it hard to remain happy and stay as normal as possible as Ben asked them to, Ben walked into the room smiling "ok" he waved a piece of paper at them "i finished it"

"Finished what baby?" mickie asked softly sitting up

"My bucket list"

"What's that?" John asked rubbing his head

"All the things I want to do before I die" Ben sighed when John and mickie looked sad once again "please, try for me, I don't want to spend my last few weeks sitting around mopping"

John stood up and went towards the man "let's see what you've got on here" John took it and scanned over it "dude, you have nothing sexual on here" he said

"done it all" Ben smiled winking at mickie who broke a soft smile

"nice" John smiled nodding handing Ben the list back

Mickie stood up rubbing her hands on her thighs, her hands were sweaty from being so nervous "Anyone want a drink?" she said going to the kitchenette trying to control her tears.

John nodded at Ben, he took a breathe and walked over to mickie cuddling into her from behind "What you thinking about?" he whispered in her ear

"My life without you" mickie spoke softly closing her eyes as he nuzzled his nose in her neck "Doesn't seem worth it"

"Mickie, please don't do this" he asked in a whisper

"I just" mickie moved away from the man "i love you, I just I need time to get my head around this" she spoke softly before grabbing her phone and leaving out the door.

"Dude" John said grabbing Ben "leave her, she needs time on her own"

"I cant just leave her she needs me"

"She also needs time to get her head around this" John said looking at his friend who sighed and sat on the couch taking his phone out his pocket and staring at it hoping mickie would text or call.

John sipped his beer, he'd taken Ben to a local quite bar to take his mind off mickie "She really loves you" John said softly knowing no matter what he did Ben was worrying he had lost mickie "She'll be back" there eyes connected "She just needs time"

"Time is something I don't have" Ben sighed turning his head away looking at everyone going about there business with not a care in the world, he knew mickie was out there somewhere he just hoped she would come back, it would be a lot harder these next few weeks without her.

Ben and John walked back into Ben's hotel room to find mickie "I um, I ran you a bath" she seemed nervous, she folded her arms over her stomach and smiled slightly at the pair

"I'll go and leave you two to it" he patted Ben's back and went to leave

"wait" mickie rushed out after John as Ben looked over his shoulder going into the bathroom

"yeah?" John turned to her when he got into the hall, he didn't like her, but, he could pretend for a few weeks, make Ben think he did like her for once and make him happy.

"Um" mickie glanced at Ben "I know you have like your own life and anything"

"Not really" he shrugged "all work to be honest"

Mickie scratched her head "but I'd appreciate it if you could try to be around more, I can't do this alone, and, I just" mickie began to cry softly "i can't do it"

John stood awkwardly not really knowing what to do "i um, I would have been here as often as I could of, I know this is hard but just think how hard this is for Ben mickie, we need to be strong for him"

"im trying" she cried softly rubbing her tears away "i just I know it's going to get really tough"

"Us three will just have to stick together" John nodded and smiled slightly "for a change"

"Thanks john"

"hey, it's Benny boy, do anything for him" he nodded and walked away, mickie shut the door behind her as she walked in. She began to undress down to nothing and walked into the bathroom.

"wow" Ben gazed over her body

"You gonna let me in" she said sweetly

"oh, most defiantly" he smiled, mickie got into the bath, Ben leaned forward and kissed her.

"I love you"

"I love you to baby" Ben put his hand on her cheek

"I guess you can tick this off that bucket list"

"i guess I can" he smiled at her