Possessionless

Alice's fingers danced across the piano keyboard skillfully, humming all the while as I closed my eyes, waiting for the lyrics to be delivered. If I didn't know better, then I would think that Edward was the only one that was a musician. Oh, how I was wrong of that. Then I heard her voice, the angelic voice that I have been waiting to hear; beautiful, soft and melodic.

"All the things that I've collected; stones and shells,

Every word and every book upon my shelves,

Only form a brief description of myself,

But they don't define who I am,

I don't think anything can..no.."

That certainly wasn't true. To me, everything defined her. The way she walked, the way she talked, laughed and lit up the room with her presence. Even her voice right now defined who she was. It was uniquely hers, and it played perfectly with the soft piano tunes. Yes, by now, I've realized that I've fallen for her more than I should be.

"If I strip away the non-necessities,

All the damage, all the mess surrounding me,"

Mess, damage, of course she didn't create them I was sure. The mess around her was most likely be the Volturi and perhaps the family. The damage would likely be her and Jasper, and it looked like she was throwing them all away. She wanted to start over, without any pain. I understood that, because I wanted to start over as well, yet I was too afraid to.

"I don't crave what I have not,

I don't need more than I've got,

It's just me that I offer up."

I could feel the small sting settling in my eyes. She'd take me as who I was, even though I had become a vampire. She'd take me in even though I had done so many stupid things that may have hurt her without me knowing so. I just didn't know how a perfect being like her would fall for me. I just didn't deserve her love, not now, and possibly not ever unless I could forgive myself from hurting her. The tunes picked up, and I didn't have to guess that she was hitting the chorus. I've already loved this song, even though I haven't heard the end of it. This was Alice, and I just loved everything that she had done, or hadn't done yet.

"All I got is my body,

And it's naked for you,

All I got is this heart,

That I'm willing to lose,

I know in this life,

I give it everything,"

She had given up so much. I just didn't know what else she could have given up now. Was it me? Because after this song she would be gone from my sight. How long was I going to wait for her to come and save me? Now, as I thought of it, I didn't want her to go. Without her here, I didn't know how I would cope. What if I was going to succumb into Aro's ways, and be exactly like the rest of the Volturi guards? I didn't want that. What if Aro refused to let me out to hunt, and only feed me human blood? I wouldn't forgive myself if that was to happen.

"All I got is this soul,

And it shedding its clothes,

Do you see who I am,

Now you're standing this close,

You know, in these arms, you're feeling everything."

If I was still a human, my face would be coated in fresh tears. The lyrics were beautiful, and it spoke in a volume that I couldn't describe. I definitely know that if I was to be in her arms now, I would be feeling everything that she was feeling. Her facial expression as of right now had told me so, and even though she was enjoying herself while playing this song, I know that she was being strong to not crumble down and sob. I was losing the battle anyway, I could feel my shoulders shook as the lyrics gotten into me.

"I'm learning what to give,

What to protect,

To look into the mirror,

Though I'm not perfect,"

I begged to differ.

"It's still a work in progress,

Hasn't finished yet,

Wanna be transparent,

See through,

Not gonna hide me from you,"

I couldn't really think of any moment that she had tried to hide anything from me. She did say that she would always tell me the truth, and she would not hide anything from me unless it was necessary to. Well, so far she hadn't done so. So far, I trusted her with everything that I had. I trusted her more than I'd trust Edward, when it should be the opposite.

She hit into the chorus once more, and I couldn't bear to listen to her anymore. It wasn't because the song was bad. It wasn't because the song was emotionally hurting me, but it was because the song had so much meaning behind it that I was deciphering. I wanted so much to just hold her right now, but I needed to keep up my façade because I didn't want her to change her mind, and actually stay here. The longer she would to stay here, the more advantage that Aro would have over the both of us. If she had a plan, it would be wise to consult with the family first. If she had a plan, it would be wise to not stay around Aro since he would see through her plan. I would miss her terribly, I know I would.

"I'm completely undressed,

But I couldn't care less,

I'm standing here possessionless,

It's the only true test,

When the only thing left,

Is a love that's possessionless,"

Love had never been anyone's possession. I know that from the moment that I've known of love, and the meaning behind it. No one could ever possess anyone, unless you didn't really have the heart to actually understand what the other person was going through. All of this thought led me back to Edward, and in a way it looked like I was his possession. He did say that he wouldn't fight Jacob if I was to choose my best friend over him. Now that I thought back of his words, I know that he would definitely fight Jacob. And knowing Jacob, he would rip Edward in shreds if he needed to. No, if he wanted to and I know that he would definitely do it.

"I don't crave what I have not,

I don't need more than I've got,"

Alice…

"It's just me that I offer up"

She was giving up so much for me, and here I was, sitting here listening to the song that she had written for me, while knowing that after this song I wouldn't be able to see her for long. So when she hit the chorus again, I tried to maintain the sob that was building up in my throat. When she was about to finish the song, I couldn't control the sob anymore. It escaped from my lips, no matter how hard I was pressing them together to mute the sob.

"You know, in these arms,

You're feeling everything"

The song stopped, while her fingers faltered above the piano keys. Vampires shouldn't be shaking, but I guess I was wrong in that sense. Alice's fingers were shaking, and I know why. I wanted to hold her right now, to tell her that everything would be okay and I felt the same way. If I did, she would stay. Everything came back to that; her staying. I didn't want her to stay because of Aro. I know that she would stay because of me, but I just wanted her to be safe, and away from Aro's mastermind. Her fingers hovered above the keys for a while, before she pulled them away and laid her hands on her lap. I wanted to reach over, and grab her hands in mine and tell her how much I loved her. It wasn't going to be a mistake, but her staying here would be.

"Alice…" I began but she didn't look at me then. I sighed, and this time I did reach over and grab one of her small hands in mine. She did turn around this time, but really she refused to look at me. "Thank you for the song," I could feel the pain coming on, the unbearable pain that was stabbing rapidly and strangling at my frozen heart, "I really appreciated it." And the pain continued to spread.

Alice couldn't stop shaking then, no matter how many time I was stroking the back of her hand with my thumb. Then I heard a dry sob coming from her, and I know that I had hurt her deeply. I couldn't even forgive myself now, and I deserved to stay here with the Volturi as my punishment. I deserved Jane to continue to prod through my mental wall, and giving me the pain that I've never received before. She pulled her hand away from me, and stood up. There went the pain again, the enormous pain that seemed to forever spreading until, somehow, I die.

"I'll go and get ready for my leave."

No, please stay. "I'll escort you to the airport." I stood up as well, and I saw she bit down at her bottom lip. Surely enough, she must had heard my dry sob from before. Why didn't she question about it?

"No, that's fine, I can go alone." She murmured, still refusing to look up into my eyes. If she could look at them at the moment, she would see everything behind them. She would see the love that I was feeling for her, because I couldn't hide it no matter how strong I would be.

"Please, it's the less that I can do." I persisted, and hopefully she would just falter and agree.

It was silent for a moment, then she let out a sigh and gave a nod. "Alright, I'll see you at the entrance." She left before I could even say anything else.

I sighed. It was going to be really hard from now on, and I know I've just dug up my own grave. I didn't really need it, but somehow the thought of it soothed me. At least my ashes would have a place to go down to, and stay there without hurting anyone further.

A/N:

Ah, this isn't the best song-fic that I've written. I like my previous song-fics more. Woman and....Umm....Speak Up! Woman is Edward x Bella though, and I think I enjoyed writing that one. And Speak Up too, and that's Alice x Bella. Ehehe. Ahhh, the song, look it up. Possessionless by Delta Goodrem. Woman by Delta Goodrem and Speak Up by Kristina DeBarge.

Thanks for all of you that read and review. =]