Disclaimer: I do not own Sons of Anarchy, it's owned my the amazing Kurt Sutter, FX and everyone else who has the money to kick my ass in court if I don't have this up here. I do however own Taru, her horse and just about every other random that pops up in the story. This has come from the depths of my sick, insane, twisted, depraved mind and my madness fuel's it to keep going as do all my lovely fans that keep reading and reviewing.

vilis91: I know, thew next few I'll try and make longer, as long as people are reading I will endeavor keep writing.

HaylsValo: A few more chapters and I'm sure she'll be up XP Just remember that not all her memories are bad, some are pretty good.

Hurt – Adelitas Way

In a story that seems so sad
Am I distant memory
Like a stranger you never even met
I need you every time that I'm alone
I feel you please don't go

Finally Home... Well Sort Of

=Gemma's P.O.V=

I glanced sideways at the federal babysitter that was accompanying me everywhere I went outside of my hospital room. I rubbed at the pain in my chest and stopped in front of Taru's room before sighing softly, I hadn't had a chance to see the Finn yet since returning from being on the run. It had been a hard blow to find out that she'd been almost killed in that accident and I hadn't found out about it until Tig had come to keep me company, he'd wanted to tell me in person instead of having Bobby tell me when he'd rung and told me about the Prospect.

I glanced through the glass panel on the door; it was almost scary to see the Finn, who was usually so full of life, laying in a bed unmoving and hooked up to about a dozen or so machines that were monitoring her condition. I pushed open the door and turned glaring lightly at my babysitter. "Mind waiting out here, I'd prefer to be alone with her"

He gave the room a once over before nodding lightly. "Alright"

I shut the door in his face and moved over to take a seat in the chair beside the Finn, back to the door so I didn't have to be reminded I had a federal babysitter watching my every move. "Hey baby," I murmured placing my hand over hers. "How're you doing?" I sighed softly curling my fingers around her hand. "Looks like we've both been through hell recently huh?" I frowned lightly uncurling my fingers from her hand to touch the dying Irises in the vase beside the bed. "Damn nurses can't even keep the flowers alive around here; I'll have to get one of the boys to bring some new ones in when they come in next"

I let the limp petal drop as I pulled my fingers away and looked back to the Finn, the bruising had mostly gone only leaving a few light shadows on her face; her knee was bandaged tightly, from my understanding it was from having to have the shattered kneecap replaced. I smiled lightly at her watching her, Chibs had explained that she had normal to high amounts of brain activity for being in a coma; it was just like she was in a deep state of sleep instead.

"Saw your niece the other day, she's a pretty little thing, don't suppose Chibs has seen her yet, don't know what to make of her Taru, she's just..." I struggled to think of the right words. "Well she's a gorgeous little girl, so smart and bright," I smiled softly. "Reminds me of you," I smiled lightly again rubbing the back of her hand. "Angel's worried about you, thinks you might not want to wake up from this coma," I squeezed her hand lightly. "Don't know why, you've got everything to live for" I stated looking up to her face as I felt a light tremble in her hand, Chibs had explain she would probably have permanent nerve damage to some extent and that the tremors in her hand weren't anything to do with her finally regaining her consciousness.

"Bet Chibs told you about Abel already," I chuckled softly. "Probably found out before I did," I furrowed my brow lightly. "The boys all agree with Chibs that it was Jimmy that put you in here, that he did it to get back at Chibs for going to Stahl," I sighed softly. "There was nothing any of us could do to protect you from that shit storm, he must have found out somehow"

I sighed heavily. "I've got a federal babysitter sitting outside the door, didn't do anything it was that god damn bitch Stahl, framed me for everything," I stated to her silent body. "You gotta wake up soon baby, everyone misses you, I miss you," I stated softly. "It's difficult not having anyone worth talking to around but Clay's keeping me company as much as he can"

I placed her hand back on the bed lightly. "I hear Elliot's been coming in to see you too," I chuckled weakly. "Probably worried he's going to lose his best trainer," I patted the back of her hand lightly. "Don't worry about your horses, Harry and Elliot have been taking care of them and the stud while you're sleeping this off, apparently your gorgeous little money maker has been acting up, refusing to be caught, refusing to do anything Harry wants him to do," I folded my hands in my lap and watched her for a second thinking of something else to tell her. "Jess has swollen up like a balloon, you gotta wake up to see her foal, the foal you've been waiting nearly eleven months for, she looks like she's going to burst soon"

I sighed softly playing with one of the dying Irises. "You've got to wake up Taru, all the boys are worried about you," I smiled weakly. "Even Tig is, he'd never admit it but he misses shooting shit with you, same with Happy, it's almost scary how well you and those two get along some days," I picked at one of the dead petals and watched it float onto the side table. "The club misses you, this shit with Sack and Abel hit them hard and then to find out that you'd been in an accident, it nearly killed them," I stated picking at another petal. "The boys need you Taru, I need you, Chibs needs you," I murmured softly brushing the dead petals off the top of the side table. "The boys need the support you offer them, you offer it without question and without judgement, something they all need even when it's the most heinous shit that they've done, you simply understand what they've done and help them through it"

I sighed softly and picked out one of the better Irises. "Chibs needs you Taru, it might look like he's holding it together on the outside but inside I can tell he's been crying every chance he gets," I looked to the Finn on the bed. "I don't think I've ever seen him this miserable or angry since he patched in to SAMCRO, from what I understand from Tig and Clay he hasn't even looked at a sweetbutt since this shit happened to you," I looked to the monitor and watched the line keeping track of her heart. "He's taken it harder than what anyone expected Taru, he truly does love you more than any of us expected he would," I smiled sadly. "He needs you to wake up, it'll kill him if you don't, he already lost one family to that Irish prick, I don't think he could go through losing another," I chuckled softly looking at my own wedding ring. "I wouldn't be at all surprised if he asked you to marry him when you finally decide to wake up, I'm pretty surprised he hasn't asked you already," I shrugged lightly. "Probably wants to wait until the slates clean with Fiona and Jimmy" I fell silent and sighed softly watching the Finn for a few minutes.

I glanced over my shoulder and smiled at Chibs as he shut the door softly. "Hey baby, she's still fast asleep" I said softly nodding towards Taru.

"Aye, she was when I was in 'ere this morning," He nodded towards the door. "Ya babysitter looks bored out there"

"Well let him be bored, I wanted to come see Taru," He nodded lightly as I stood slowly and drew him into a hug which he gladly accepted. "She'll be fine Chibs, she's a tough woman," I chuckled softly. "Stronger than me"

"Aye," He murmured softly letting his eyes rest on Taru. "The doc reckons talkin' with 'er 'elps, that she can still 'ear us, just can't respond ta us"

"Well if it helps bring her out of this I'll sit in here all night and talk to her"

"Aye," He cracked a broken grin. "Ya would probably bore 'er into comin' out of it"

I smiled lightly slapping his shoulder. "Just watch it you"

"I 'eard what ya told 'er Gem," He looked to Taru then back at me. "It's true, I need 'er more than I ever thought I would, need 'er ta take care of me, can't seem ta do it without 'er"

"Well that's what us women are for, to make sure all our man's needs are taken care of"

He nodded lightly and pulled away to take the seat on the opposite side of the door. "I think Clay and Jackie boy are lookin' for ya"

"Probably, supposed I'd better get back to my room before Stahl comes looking for me"

"Aye, I'll probably be in 'ere if anyone needs me"

=Chibs' P.O.V=

I watched Taru for a moment after Gemma had left and sighed softly hanging my head slightly. "Gem was right love, I do need ya," I cracked a broken smile and chuckled weakly. "Can't take care of myself and Buster without ya," I reached out placing a hand lightly over hers and curled my fingers around her hand gripping it lightly. "'eard from Tara that Oswald's been in 'ere lots," I gave a light broken smile. "Got a thing for ya I reckon," I chuckled weakly. "Nay, probably just worried about ya well being, surprised 'e didn't try and warn ya away from the club the first time we met," I chuckled lightly. "Ya probably wouldn't 'ave listen ta 'im anyway would ya love? Ya listen ta people but don't always take their advice, don't blame ya it's not always the best"

I traced a light pattern over the back of Taru's hand and sighed softly as I memorized every curve, scar and line on her body, I didn't want forget a single detail about her, I didn't want to forget her.

Next one will be up tomorrow or the day after, slowly writing at the moment as well as learning to use photoshop, pic of Taru and Duke will be posted in a few days on DA.