Disclaimer: I do not own Sons of Anarchy, it's owned my the amazing Kurt Sutter, FX and everyone else who has the money to kick my ass in court if I don't have this up here. I do however own Taru, her horse and just about every other random that pops up in the story. This has come from the depths of my sick, insane, twisted, depraved mind and my madness fuel's it to keep going as do all my lovely fans that keep reading and reviewing.

vilis91: Her grandfather will be coming into it soon.

DragonBby: Next chap is here, the one after this however may take some time.

Nemo – Nightwish

My flower, withered between
The pages 2 and 3
The once and forever bloom gone with my sins
Walk the dark path
Sleep with angels
Call the past for help
Touch me with your love
And reveal to me my true name

Setting Measures in Place

=Taru's P.O.V=

I looked up to the door and clicked off the TV as Lowen came in; she pushed the door shut and came to stand beside the bed.

"You wanted my help with something?"

I nodded lightly. "I want to set a will in place"

"A will?"

I nodded motioning for her to sit in the chair. "After everything that's happen I need to put measure in place to make sure if the inevitable does happen that all my horses, my stud, Buster and everything else is taken care of"

She nodded lightly pulling papers out of her briefcase. "How are you?"

"Fine, they put me on new meds when I woke and I haven't slept since," I nodded to the TV. "It's getting very fucking boring" I grinned lightly and shifted sitting up properly.

"So explain to me what you want"

I played with a frayed edge on the blanket and sighed softly. "My stud and my horses, I want them to go to Elliot Oswald, I know he'd look after them the best he could, he would keep them going to the best of his abilities," I watched Lowen start to write. "The horses that have to stay with him are Devlin, Jess, Duke and Rocky; I wouldn't trust anyone else with them, the others he can keep or sell"

She nodded as she continued to write and glanced up. "Alright, what else?"

I blinked slightly and leant back head back against my pillows thinking. "I want Buster to stay with Filip, if Filip can't take him then Tig," I smiled lightly. "Tig would take care of him"

"Filip's full name is Filip Telford right?"

I nodded lightly watching her note things down. "I want my house sold and the money split fifty/fifty between Filip and Angel, the money in my bank accounts is to be split evenly between Filip, Angel and a college fund for Jade"

"What's Jade and Angel's full names?"

"Angel Winifred Harrington and Jade Jane Hamilton"

"Alright," She nodded and looked up. "Anything else?"

I drummed my fingers lightly on my thigh thinking. "When my Charger's fixed it goes to Angel, she'll take care of the old girl," I sighed softly, it was a damning thought that I was doing this but it all needed to be done. "My pick up can be sold on, money from the sale split between Tig and my pappa"

Lowen looked up, the look in her eyes saying she needed clarification. "Who?"

"Esa Mäki, my grandfather," She nodded noting it down. "Anything that's of value can be sold, the money split between going into Jade's college fund and her personally," I racked my brains for a second trying to think of anything else. "Oh right," I grinned lightly. "My horse truck can go to Elliot too"

"Is that it?"

I thought for a minute before shaking my head lightly. "There's a ring in my jewellery box, it's got four skulls surround a cross," My hands shook slightly. "If my pappa's not alive after I go I want Filip to have it"

"Is it something important?"

I looked up to Lowen and nodded twisting the skin around my ring finger idly. "It's a family heirloom, something that's been in my family for generations," I laughed weakly. "It's beyond ancient now but it was passed down through each generation of my family"

She nodded lightly. "Alright," She noted it down. "Is that everything?"

"It's everything I can think of right now"

"Alright," She packed the papers away. "I'll write everything up and bring it back for you to sign"

I gave a light nod still twisting at the skin on my finger. "Thanks for all this"

She nodded. "It's what I'm here for"

I nodded lightly and sighed softly as she stepped out the door.

"You look depressed"

I looked up to Elliot and smiled weakly. "Writing a will usually is depressing" I stated hugging him back as he leant over the bed to hug me.

"A will?"

I nodded and motioned to the chair Lowen had been occupying moments before. "I needed to get it done and out of the way before something else hit the fan to add the mess I got myself into"

He frowned lightly. "Well now that you're awake you're out of the woods right?"

"Yeah and what about the next time some Irish fuck up tries to take me out?" I exhaled slowly. "Next time I might not be so lucky"

"You know who it was?" He asked pulling the chair closer.

"Let's just say I have a gut feeling about who it was, I don't know for sure but there's only one other person in the world that would smile upon seeing me laid out in a morgue," I looked to the flowers he had sitting in his lap. "Are those for me or did you just feel like carrying them around all day?"

He looked to the flowers like he'd forgotten he was holding them and smiled weakly holding them out. "Little bird slipped me a word or two and said they were your favourites"

I grinned lightly running a finger lightly over the velvet like petal of the black Iris. "Well I'm assuming that little bird has a scar down her chest and that little bird would be correct"

He gave a light nod. "So how's things been?"

I shrugged lightly. "Been up for a day and a half because of new meds which in all honesty is boring me shitless," I threw him a lopsided grin before brushing back some strands of hair from my eyes. "Before I forget, I want you to know I'm leaving my stud to you if anything should happen, truck and horses included"

"You don't have to"

"I know I don't have to but I want to, you'll look after them and keep them from sinking," I looked at him and took his hand. "Just promise me that you won't sell Dev, Jess, Rocky or Duke, I don't want them to end up in the slaughter house, if you can't keep Duke then give him to Angel or Jade, they'll take care of him"

He nodded. "Alright," His brow creased for a second. "This is really worrying you isn't it?"

I chuckled lightly. "Yeah," I confessed. "I've held the hand of the reaper one too many times in my life; the next time I do it I don't think I'll have the strength to release his grip," I sighed softly before looking to Elliot and grinning softly. "So how's my stud? How's my gorgeous equine family doing?" I smiled remembering Jess would be dropping her foal soon. "How's Jess?"

"She'll drop her foal soon, Duke and Dev have been out of sorts, same with Rocky," He shook his head slightly. "Dev and Rocky have turned feral towards almost everyone, Rocky won't let anyone near him and Dev's temper is running on thin, it takes the smallest thing to set him off, rearing, bucking, biting and into a generally bad mood"

I frowned lightly. "What about Duke?"

"I won't lie Taru, he's not looking good, he's depressed," He sighed. "He's lost weight and spends most of his time under the tree in the centre of the paddock with a limp tail and his head down"

I twisted my lips slightly and sighed. "Wonder if I could get out of here? Even if it's just for a day, it would be better than nothing"

"You need to rest"

"I need to see my horses; I'm not letting Duke wither away and I sure as shit ain't letting Dev turn into a feral little asshole, I put too much work into that stallion to let it all go backwards now"

Elliot sighed. "You'll do more harm than good" He warned.

"I don't give a shit, my horses are more important, plus," I shrugged lightly. "I'll probably be in physio for the next year anyway to restrengthen my leg and knee"

"Call me if you do manage to talk your way out of this bed for the day and I'll see if Harry can get the boys into the stalls for you"

I grinned brightly. "Thank you"

He nodded lightly. "Now try and get some rest"

I threw Elliot an impish grin. "When can I come back to work?"

"When you're good and healed, give it a month or two and you'll be stuck with desk work and grooming work no arguments"

I rolled my eyes giving him a mocking salute. "Aye, aye captain" I threw him a grin as he stood.

"I'll stop in on the way back to the stables and tell Harry and Jenna you're awake"

"Thanks lovely"

He nodded before turning and leaving, once again leaving me alone with my boredom and thoughts.

Encase you're wondering or don't remember Lowen is the clubs female Lawyer.

Right now I'm going through some personal... shit, so the next chap may take longer to get up, I'm self loathing really bad right now and that will transfer through my writing and into the story which I really don't want to do right now so I'm ditching the writing for now in favour of the mass slaying of zombies through Dead Rising 2 and the mass destruction of cars through Burnout Paradise.