Disclaimer: I do not own Sons of Anarchy, it's owned my the amazing Kurt Sutter, FX and everyone else who has the money to kick my ass in court if I don't have this up here. I do however own Taru, her horse and just about every other random that pops up in the story. This has come from the depths of my sick, insane, twisted, depraved mind and my madness fuel's it to keep going as do all my lovely fans that keep reading and reviewing.

HaylsValo: Probably won't see Chibs for a few chapters after this short bit with him but the one after that I am aiming to make people cry, not that I would ever intentionally do it but it'll take place during the episode Turas.

vilis91: Yes, Zombie killing was fun, it usually is when I'm down. Not much of a reaction in this one but it'll be better in a later Chapter once they actually get to talk.

Bullet – Hollywood Undead

My legs are dangling off the edge
The bottom of a bottle is my only friend
I think I'll slit my wrists again
And I'm gone, gone, gone, gone

My legs are dangling off the edge
A stomach full of pills didn't work again
I'll put a bullet in my head
And I'm gone, gone, gone, gone

Wrong End of a Bad Mood

=Tig's P.O.V=

I played with the cell in my hands for a moment before hitting dial; it was a few minutes before a thick Scottish 'hello' finally answered.

"It's Tig"

"What's 'appened now brother?"

"Where do you want me to begin? With the fact that your old lady woke up nearly three days ago or the fact that she's up hopping about on crutches already"

The line when silent after he took in a sharp breath. "Ya pullin' my fuckin' leg ain't ya?"

"I'm serious Chibs, Finland's up, she's awake," I grinned lightly. "Brain's firing on all pistons and she's getting antsy sitting around in a bed all day"

He exhaled softly down the phone muttering a soft 'thank god' "'ow is she?"

"Getting stronger by the day, the Tacoma blonde and I are goin' to see her when visiting hours open" I bit back a yawn, I hadn't slept much at all recently, I hadn't really slept much at all since Taru's accident, the prospect of losing someone close had sent me spiraling through the phases again, it had sent me spiraling through the drink and drugs, through the sleepless and restless nights with nameless and faceless partners warming my bed, it had slowly been tearing me apart not that I would ever admit it to anyone.

"Sounds like ya need some sleep brother"

"Yeah," I racked my brain for a quick excuse to hide the truth. "Well not having you assholes around means I gotta pick up your slack"

Chibs chuckled; the party in the background was loud. I glanced around the clubhouse; a few sweetbutt's were passed out on the couches and there were a few empty shot glasses across the counter top. "Promise me ya will take care of 'er until I get back brother"

"With my life brother," I bit back another yawn. "You know I wouldn't let anything happen to Finland, love her too much"

"Aye brother," He yawned over the phone. "It's gettin' late 'ere, when ya see Taru give me a call, I want ta talk ta 'er"

"Alright," I paused thinking for a moment, the image of Taru and her niece curled up on the bed together floating through my mind. "Hey, have you ever seen Taru's niece?"

"Nay, why?"

"Just wonderin'," I remembered what Taru had threatened to do to my bike if I told Chibs and sighed softly. "I haven't seen her yet, just thought you might have"

"Nay Tig, get some rest brother and tell Taru I love 'er"

I rolled my eyes slightly. "Tell her yourself, I'm not your errand bitch"

He chuckled lightly. "Aye, alrigh' brother, talk ta ya later" He said before hanging up.

I snapped the phone shut and took a long drink from my bottle of vodka before looking around the clubhouse. Tacoma blonde should be up soon, we can head out and see Taru when he's finally up.

I glared daggers into the back of Kozik's head and pushed past him roughly before weaving my way through the patients and staff to the desk. "I'm here to see Taru Mäki" I managed to catch myself before spilling her nickname to the nurse.

The brunette behind the desk ran her eyes over the chart and nodded. "Ms. Mäki isn't in her room right now; she should be in the garden"

I gave a nod glancing back to Kozik. "Hurry up Blondie, she's outside" I called before heading towards the two doors that led towards the outdoor garden. I glanced through the glass panels and looked around a moment before I found her sitting on a bench hunched over with her head in her hands looking relatively uneasy, she looked pale, like she wanted to throw up.

"Is she alright?"

I glanced to Kozik and shrugged lightly. "Dunno, it's probably the meds" I stated before stepping out and heading towards the Finn. "Finland?"

The black haired Finn looked up with a wince and blinked slowly before a weary smile crept to her lips. "Tigger" She sounded weary, tired.

"How're you feeling?" I asked sitting next to her, Kozik hovering in my hindsight.

"Shitty, the new meds I'm on have had me up for the last two and a half days," She winced touching her temple gingerly before stretching. "Suppose I should be grateful the reapers a friendly guy otherwise you would have been planning another funeral"

"Don't think Chibs would have let you go without a fight Finland"

A small genuine smile slipped to her lips. "Don't suppose he would have" She murmured rubbing her silvery grey eyes.

"Tired?"

She nodded and brushed back a few strands of hair. "Every time I shut my eyes I can see my accident but every time I need to put it into words I can't, my mind draws a thick fucking blank" She spat, mood souring easily.

"That's understandable," I whipped my head towards Kozik as he spoke. "It was a pretty serious accident"

I looked back to Taru who was looking at the Tacoma blonde.

"And you are?"

"Kozik," He straightened slightly. "Tacoma charter on the Sons"

"Right..." She looked wearily at him and then at me. "Is he...?"

I nodded lightly before she sighed and rubbed at the back of her neck. "I'm Myrsky Taru Mäki, Chibs' old lady," She stated. "But for the love of god just call me Taru like everyone else does," She broke a broken grin towards me. "Well except Tigger," She nodded towards me. "He's the exception to the rule"

Kozik looked towards me. "What does he call you?" He asked looking back to Taru.

"Finland," She played with the edge of her flannel dressing gown, eyes stopping to rest on the ground as if she was thinking deeply or reliving something. She looked up after a few minutes and blinked several times gathering her thoughts. "So what's been going on in the big wide world that I'm not allowed to go into outside the hospital walls?"

"Not a lot, your old man wants to talk to you"

She smiled lightly. "Soon," She massaged her temple wincing as she caught her stitches. "I need to take my meds soon and with any luck they'll put me to fucking sleep" She stood slowly and leant heavily into her crutches taking the weight from her healing replacement.

"So how long until you're up to full power again?"

She glanced down her knee and shrugged. "A year? Maybe a bit more," She sighed softly. "I have physio every week for the next six months to make sure I build up the muscles again"

"How long until you get out of this place?"

She glanced past me to Kozik. "If I continue to improve at a good rate I could be looking at next week, maybe the week after" She leant into her crutches again as we made our way towards the entrance doors, I kept one eye on her and sighed softly, she was more damaged than she would ever let anyone know but it was only small subtle signs that gave it away. She'll hate me if I press it and I'll hate myself if I don't and something happens.

Taru's grandfather will be in the next one. I'm still trying to get over the shit in my life, so Xmas was pretty shitty for me this year, my problems are mostly to do with my body doing things it shouldn't be doing and it can't seem to do to the things it was made to do. I also started writing a SGU fic for the lovely Doctor Nicholas Rush played by the awesome Robert Carlyle (I definitely have a thing for Scots) so I'm going to start posting that soon as well as working on this one, so do not fear I will not abandon this story, I have the story line written out of where I would like it to go but alas it doesn't always turn out like that and I still have a good deal to write still.