Disclaimer: I do not own Sons of Anarchy, it's owned my the amazing Kurt Sutter, FX and everyone else who has the money to kick my ass in court if I don't have this up here. I do however own Taru, her horse and just about every other random that pops up in the story. This has come from the depths of my sick, insane, twisted, depraved mind and my madness fuel's it to keep going as do all my lovely fans that keep reading and reviewing.

vilis91: Offended probably isn't the right word, hurt is more likely, she's hurt he wasn't there when she woke up and knows Ireland is where Fiona is so can you really blame her for being hurt about it? Avoiding him is a good bet, his association with the club and Jimmy is what got her into this mess as for her and Kozik she met him briefly before the accident when she was at the clubhouse under lock down with everyone else but never really met him and said hello since he wasn't a part of SAMCRO.

DragonBby: Things are looking up a bit now what with my problems taking a back seat to the elderly cat's stroke but thank you still. The will, unless I so decide to be a right bitch and kill her, shouldn't be needed. I know what you mean, I would be the same when it came to physical therapy.

Beautiful – H.I.M

Just one touch and I'm on fire
One touch and I'm crying
'Cause you're so beautiful

Just one smile and I'm wild
One smile and I'm ready to die
'Cause you're so beautiful

I Know Your Secret

=Taru's P.O.V=

I stretched slightly and sighed softly as I watched the physiotherapist pack up the last of her things to leave.

"You're a very determined woman Taru; it may only take a few months before you're back to your old self"

I gave a light nod. "I know I'm determined, I've got an entire stud to run," I grinned lightly flexing my wrist slightly and testing my grip again. "My horses need me as do Buster and Filip"

She nodded and smiled softly. "Just keep up those exercises I showed you and we'll meet again at the same time next week"

I gave a nod and watched her leave before exhaling heavily and rubbing my aching knee joint. I glanced up as Tara walked in, a smile slipped to her lips. "Hey"

"Hey, how was it?"

I shrugged lightly. "Alright I guess, my knee aches like a bitch now"

She sat down before me on the chair, hands folded in her lap, eyes drifting around the room as she thought.

"So what's running through your mind?"

Tara's eyes snapped back to mind, a sheepish smile winding its way to her lips. "How'd Niko take it when you told him you were pregnant with Kai?"

I raised my eyebrow slightly before shrugging lightly. "Fine, he was over the moon really, why?"

She shook her head lightly, hands twitching towards her own belly. "Just wondering, you don't seem to talk much about them"

"I remember every detail about what happened to them Tara," I sighed heavily. "And remembering them brings all that to light," I shook my head lightly. "I lived through it once; I don't want to live through it again"

She nodded lightly playing with her thumbs. "If you'd met Chibs while you were still with Niko would you have left him?"

I furrowed my brow lightly thinking about it. "I don't know," I looked to the flowers in the vase. "I mean I loved Niko with all my heart but Filip is something different," I looked to Tara and gave her a smile. "He's my present and future"

She nodded lightly relaxing slightly in the chair. "I'm pregnant" She blurted out.

I grinned lightly. "I gathered as much, how far?"

"Six weeks"

"I don't suppose I need to ask the 'who's the father question'" I said shifting of the edge of the mattress.

"It's Jax's," Tears welled in her eyes. "I don't know what to do; I mean do I tell him? Do I get an abortion? What?" She burst into tears and put her head into her hands crying softly.

"Secret babies are a no-no, it'll only eat you alive from the inside and plus Jax is bound to notice something sooner or later"

She sighed wiping her eyes. "I know, I just don't know what to do, he's got enough to deal with, I mean there's Abel and then the club's always going through something," She sighed. "I need someone who's been there before; I've never had a baby before..." She trailed off looking up to me.

I rubbed the back of my neck and smiled sheepishly. "I'm not exactly a role model in the mother department, I mean hell my niece has taken after me, that is never a good sign"

She smiled weakly. "You're not that bad, you protect what's yours until the end"

I nodded lightly. "I know," I shrugged lightly. "I grew up protecting myself and my friends"

"That still doesn't answer what I'm going to do"

I sighed softly. "I can help you but I can't tell you what to do Tara, this baby is yours and his," I stated putting some weight behind my words. "Wait until Jax gets back from Ireland because if you do something drastic it'll come back to bite you in the ass later"

She sighed softly. "I know but this is my decision isn't it?"

I nodded. "It'll always be your decision"

She nodded lightly before smiled lightly. "Thank you"

I gave a nod. "It's what I'm here for"

She gave a nod and stood. "You should get some sleep"

I shrugged lightly. "Later, Angel's bringing Jade round soon," I grinned lightly. "Jade wants to read to me"

"How old's your niece?"

"Eight, nearly nine," I smiled lightly. "She's a good kid, smart and bright"

Tara nodded. "I'll come check on you later, just don't try and overdo it"

"Been told that several times already, when do I not overdo it?"

She laughed softly. "Suppose your right, did Tig give you a phone?"

I nodded reaching under my pillow and pulled it out grinning. "I was going to call Filip after the physio left"

"It'll be late there won't it?"

I shrugged lightly. "Early wake up call for him" I grinned before slipping the phone back under my pillow.

"Why're you hiding it?"

"I don't want the ATF bitch to come circling while I'm sleeping, she'd probably go through my phone to find some numbers to call"

She nodded lightly before turning and leaving.

I watched the door swung shut behind her and sighed softly. Wonder what time it is in Ireland? I slipped the phone back under my pillow before looking up, a wide smile breaking out over my lips at the person stood in the doorway. "That's a face I'm so grateful to see" I stated standing and opening my arms to my grandfather who hugged me tightly in return.

"I thought I'd lost you my little tammavarsa, sorry it took so long for me to get over here"

I shrugged lightly. "Its fine, you didn't have to come, it must be playing hell with Mika and Mitch," I grinned lightly at the thought of the two dogs. "How are they anyway?"

"They're fine, I left them with Juliana"

"Juliana?" I smirked lightly raising an eyebrow. "Good on you pappa"

He rolled his eyes chuckling softly. "It's nothing like that, she's a good friend"

"Uh huh and I'm Mary queen of Scots," I stated before settling on the edge of the bed carefully. "How long are you staying for?"

"I don't know, long enough," He glanced around the room. "Where's Chibs?"

I looked up to him and smiled lightly. "He's in Ireland" I smiled bitterly and bit back a bitter laugh at the irony of it, I couldn't deny that it hurt because it did, it hurt he was in Ireland with her, it hurt that he hadn't been here when I woke up, it hurt that all this had happened because of whatever the hell he had done to tick Jimmy off all those years ago.

"Something wrong between you two?"

I looked up. "Ireland's where his wife is"

"You don't trust him?"

I mulled it over for a second as I played with the edge of the sheet before shrugging lightly. "I don't know," I swallowed roughly and looked back up. "I mean I know what I was getting myself into but this," I motioned to the room. "I'm here because of him"

"Do I even want to know?" He asked, the anger seeping into his eyes.

"It's a long story, very, very long story"

"We've got time Myrsky, I'm not going anywhere and neither are you"

I sighed and let my shoulder slump. "It really doesn't matter, done is done and there's no changing the past"

He gave a light nod and settled in the chair before me. "I still think it would be a good idea if we talked about this Myrsky"

I shook my head lightly. "I still love him pappa, nothing is ever going to change that"

"I know, I know, I would never dream of trying to change your mind, you're much too stubborn for that"

I grinned lightly and nodded. "You've seen how stubborn I can be"

"I have but I almost lost you Myrsky, I was scared that you might not wake up this time"

"I'm alive and kicking aren't I?" I grinned looking to my injured leg. "Well alive anyway"

He nodded lightly and sighed softly dropping the subject. "We'll discuss everything at a later date, when you're actually up to fighting me over things"

I grinned softly and nodded before glancing at the time on the wall clock. "Angel and Jade are staying at my place at the moment, there's a spare room there if you need it"

He gave a light nod and stood slowly. "I'll come back once I've dropped off all my things and settled in" He stated before hugging me tightly and leaving.

tammavarsa - Filly

Alright so encase you didn't know I've started two other story, of yes, two other, one for Stargate Universe which is a Rush/OC and one for Once Upon a Time which is a Rumpelstiltskin/OC/Mr. Gold/OC. Both are being updated directly after this one so have fun, I know I will, and I really don't care the Robert Carlyle is old enough to be my father, he's one fucking sexy Scot as is our dear Mr. Flanagan, anywho, it's actually taken me since this morning to post this because the sight apparently didn't want me to update or log into my account.