Disclaimer: I do not own Sons of Anarchy, it's owned my the amazing Kurt Sutter, FX and everyone else who has the money to kick my ass in court if I don't have this up here. I do however own Taru, her horse and just about every other random that pops up in the story. This has come from the depths of my sick, insane, twisted, depraved mind and my madness fuel's it to keep going as do all my lovely fans that keep reading and reviewing.

tigger64: I don't think you're the only one who did a happy dance when Jimmy died and not long now until Chibs and Taru get back together.

vilis91: I know, I liked him too. You don't have to wait too long for Chibs and Fiona to talk, this chap in fact is all about that, enjoy.

I Love the Way You Do That – Lonestar

If you doubt my love and affection
Girl I'm gonna show you
I ain't holdin' anything back
You can have it all
You're wrapping me around you finger
And I don't want you to stop

Never an Easy Thing to Do

=Chibs' P.O.V=

I wrung my hands again as I climbed the stairs to the house above the Ashby corner store, Fiona and Kerrianne were both up here waiting for Father Ashby to send the van to pick them up and take them back to the rectory.

I exhaled slowly and pushed the door open heading down the short hallway to find Fiona washing some pots. "We need ta talk Fi"

She glanced over her shoulder before putting the plate in her hands into the dish rack. "Aye, I suppose so"

I had no idea of how to tell her everything, I had no idea just how this was going to go down which scared me more than anything. "It's about us love," I swallowed roughly before looking to her eyes. "There's nothin' left between us Fi, I can't take ya back not after everything that's 'appened"

"I'm still ya wife Filip, I still love ya" She murmured stepping closer.

I knew almost all her tricks and this was one she'd used plenty of times before, she'd look down, almost rejected and act like she loved me, she'd always used to do it right before we ended up in a fight with each other which she knew damn well often led us doing the horizontal tango. I'm not falling for this shit again, I'm already keeping that goddamn bathroom incident a secret from Taru and I'm not going to fall for this again. I shook my head lightly stepping back away from her leaving her hand to fall back to her side uselessly. "It's not goin' ta work Fi, I know that trick, ya used it plenty of times on me before," I stated, I wanted her at arm's length at the least. "I still love ya Fi but not like I used ta," I sighed heavily. "Too much time has passed between us Fi, I can't just drop everythin' I 'ave now, I've got a life in Charmin' and then there's Taru, she doesn't deserve ta be 'The Mistress' as she puts it and I agree, she doesn't damn well deserve it," I shifted slightly, her gaze was hard, a storm brewing behind her eyes, she was beyond angry. "I love Taru now and I want a life with 'er, a proper life"

Fiona folded her arm across her chest staying silent for a moment before turning away. "Ya goin' ta hell for this Filip, ya know that right?"

I chuckled lightly. "I'm goin' ta 'ell for a lot of things love, I might as well just add one more nail ta my coffin and go ta 'ell with the woman I'm truly in love with," I stepped forward a step reaching out to place a hand on her shoulders as they slumped slightly. "I love ya Fi, believe me I do and I'll always love Kerrianne no matter what but I want ta be with Taru, I need ta be with 'er, every minute I've been 'ere, 'ere in Ireland, my thought's 'ave been with 'er"

Fiona ripped her shoulder away leaving my hand to fall back by my side. "For fuck sake lovie, ya got a god damn family, me and Kerrianne; ya don't need 'er"

"I do Fi, I do need 'er"

"And what're ya goin' ta do when Jimmy goes after 'er? When Jimmy tries ta kill 'er ta get ta ya?"

I hesitated slightly. She doesn't know? How the hell can she not know? She's never left Jimmy's side since he took them away from me. "Fi?"

She turned her head glancing over her shoulder. "What?"

"Ya don't know do ya? Jimmy kept ya out of the fuckin' loop didn't 'e?"

"What? What the hell are ya on about?"

"Jimmy, 'e staged an accident, SUV rammed Taru's Charger," I felt my throat tighten as the words formed. "When I left ta come 'ere with the boys she was in a coma"

Fiona turned collapsing back against the edge of the counter. "What? I thought he were fuckin' jokin' about doin' that, he never sounded serious about it," Her eyes widened in disbelief. "I can't believe he actually did it"

"Ya knew?" My anger sky rocketed quickly. "Why the 'ell didn't ya say somethin' about it?" I snarled lowly.

"Like I said, I thought he were fuckin' jokin'"

"Ya told 'im about Taru didn't ya? 'ow ya ran into 'er at the 'ospital, 'ow ya got into a pissin' match with 'er"

"Aye but he didn't seem ta care about 'er that much, he just waved it off callin' her one of the clubs whores"

I felt another bite of anger and shook my head clenching my fists trying to keep it under control. "It doesn't matter now Fi, what's done is done and Taru's safe and alive, she came out of the coma a few days ago"

"I'm sorry Filip; if I'd known he was serious I would have told ya"

"Aye Fi, I know, I know"

She swallowed roughly nodding lightly. "How long was she in a coma?"

"A month," I felt my heart ache slightly. "Fi, I'm beggin ya, do this, I can't keep stringin' both of ya along, it's not fair on either you or Taru and it's sure as shit ain't fair on Kerrianne"

"Don't ya love us anymore Da?"

I jumped slightly and spun on my heel to find Kerrianne behind me in the doorway, iPod in her hands as she patiently waited for an answer. "Of course I still love ya Kerrianne, ya ma as well but I just don't love 'er the same way I used ta, I don't love 'er that same way I did before I 'ad ta leave ya both"

She looked between Fiona and I for a moment. "Ya want ta marry that Finnish woman don't ya?"

I couldn't help but stare at her for a moment, I hadn't told her about Taru and I highly doubted Fiona or even Jimmy would have told her about the Finn.

"I'm not stupid Da, I've heard the boys talking about her, I've heard Ma and Jimmy talking about her"

I glanced out the corner of my eye at Fiona before looking back to Kerrianne and sighing softly. "Aye love, ya right," I grinned lightly. "Ya too smart for ya own good sometimes Kerrianne"

She smiled softly. "I learnt from the best Da, you," She stated prodding my chest lightly before looking to Fiona. "Why don't ya let Da follow his heart Ma? It's what you've always told me ta do"

I glanced to Fiona; her brain was busy ticking away behind her eyes trying to process everything going on around her and what Kerrianne was saying before looking from me to Kerrianne. "This has nothin' to do with ya Kerrianne, go back ta watchin' movies; this is between me and ya Da"

"But it is Ma, it is ta do with me, he's still my Da and I don't want ta be selfish and hold him back from someone he loves, he loves her Ma and she's waitin' for him ta come home," Kerrianne moved to my side wrapping an arm around my waist, she looked expectantly at her mother waiting for an answer. "Do the right thing Ma and let Da be happy with this other woman," She looked up to me. "She's not a bad person is she Da?"

"Nay love, Taru's just cut from a different cloth"

Kerrianne nodded lightly before looking to Fiona. "All the SAMCRO boys seem ta like her, Juice said she's a really nice lady," She paused briefly. "And Gemma seems ta like her and if she was someone who was going ta hurt Da Gemma wouldn't let her near him," I slipped my arm around Kerrianne's shoulders and squeezed them lightly, she was making a damn convincing argument so far. "Let Da go so we can all move on Ma, it's not like he'll forget about us right?" She looked up to me.

"Of course not love, I'll come back 'ere ta see ya whenever I can and I'll be sendin' money for ya school as well"

She nodded and looked to Fiona. "Ma do the right thing"

I watched the pain, anger and finally realization hit Fiona's eyes before she looked to me and nodded. "Alright, "She sighed heavily leaning back against the sink. "I'll sign the papers for you but you know Kellan will come round trying to talk you out of this if he hears about it"

"Aye I know but I'll deal with that if it comes"

She nodded before looking to Kerrianne. "Go on, go back ta watchin' ya movies"

Kerrianne smiled up at me before turning back heading back into the small living room.

I watched her walk away before turning back to Fiona who scowled softly.

"I don't have ta like this and I don't, I don't like that woman but ya always did have a way of pickin' the worst ones," She stated as she finished drying her hands on the tea towel. "You give me the paper work before ya go back ta Charmin' and I'll sign it all for ya"

I nodded lightly glancing over as Mo came in, she looked up in surprised before looking to Fiona. "I'll come back"

"Nay, we're done Mo"

The blonde nodded placing her mug on the table as I turned and started outside, everything was beginning to look up and with any luck it would continue and as soon as Jimmy was dead I would have my brand new start, my brand new start with Taru.

Ok so I'm going through even more shit now that I was before, apparently I've been an aunt for close to a year now, would have been nice if my brother actually informed me he'd had a kid but anyway, little girl called Hailey, cute little thing too and the next piece of shit is that my father might have cancer, he needs more tests done first, I'm hoping it's not cancer, I might not get along with him at the best of times but he's still my father and I still love him.