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Declaimer: iown nothing but Luke, Taylor, Christian and Austin, also Kate.

Song: Remember when - Avril Lavigne

Remember when I cried to you a thousand times

I told you everything

You know my feelings

It never crossed my mind

That there would be a time

For us to say goodbye

What a big surprise

But I'm not lost

I'm not gone

I haven't forgot

Chapter 5

Arriving to Phoenix

I miss them. I miss him. Hell, I want them here. I want him here. I need them here. I need him here. I wish he was here. And I wish the pain went away.

"Angela!" A boy – no man waved his hands in the air like a crazy manic, but he was anything but that. He was probably six foot one or two and probably a few years older than me, but under twenty though. His hair was blonde and messy - like he just woke up - kind of messy. His eyes were blue-grey, that held a mischief in them. He had a tanned rounded baby face with a dimple on his left cheek. He has wearing a blue polo shirt and blue ripped faded shorts, with blue vans. Well, I guess he likes the colour blue. His figure screamed surfer. He was cute in a way, maybe even hot but comparing him to Embry, there was a huge difference. No! You will stop thinking of Embry! I chanted in my head.

"Luke!" Angela yelled and ran to the man – Luke. She jumped on him as he swung her around. People looked at them and smiled, like they were a couple. Well, maybe they are, but Angela never told me she had a boyfriend.

I slowly walked over to them.

"I missed you!" Angela all but shouted. I smiled at her happiness; she deserved it from her past anyway.

"You to hon." Luke said, giving her a boy smile. "Who's this?" He asked, staring at me.

Angela jumped off him. "This," She pointed at me, "Is Isabella, but she likes to be called Bella. She's my friend from La Push, the Quileute reservation near Forks. She's in need."

I raised my brow at her.

"Ah, so you've been dumped as well." Luke stated, like he was dumped a few days ago, or maybe my problem was the same as Angela's, who knows?

"Something like that." I answered, looking down at the floor.

"And I'm here to help. And you to Luke." Angela said. "Oh, Bella this is Luke, my cousin. Luke, this is Bella, as I said."

"Cousin?" I asked. They acted more like a love sick couple.

"Yeah, but he's more like a big brother." Angela informed me. Oh, so they're related, but they're so close. But I was close with Embry, Quil and Jake and we weren't related.

"Hi." He said, hand out. I said hi back and took his hand. He smiled and took my hand to his lips. He kissed the back of hand and I blushed. "Pleasure to meet you, beautiful."

"Beautiful?" I questioned, still beat red.

"Isabella is beautiful in Italian."

My mouth slightly widened. He thought I was beautiful? Or maybe it was just my name? "Well, you learn something new every day, don't you?"

Angela giggled and took my hand from Luke's. "Come on, let's go home."

~~~Only In The Past~~~

"Wow, you live here?" I asked Angela as we entered her house. The house was three story, two gardens, front and back, a balcony and a garage. It was like my dream house.

"Yeah, my step dad is a lawyer and my mum is a designer." She told me. "They have a lot of money, as you can see."

"Wow." I repeated as she and Luke lead me into the kitchen. It was so clean,, like crystal clean, so well designed and so homey.

Angela laughed, "You want juice?"

"Sure."

"What about you Luke?"

"Same." She nodded.

She handled me my drink. "So, what do you wanna do first?" She asked.

"Um –"

I got interrupted when a woman who looked the same as Angela but older stepped into the room and attacked Angela with kisses and hugs. I noticed that it was her mom, instead of it being her sister. Angela told me on the plane that her mom and dad got married young and divorced after a year or two.

"Mum!" Angela exclaimed, "You're embarrassing me." She jerked her head to me.

"Hello Angela's mum." What else should I say? Angela's last name is Webber, but that's her dad's real name, and her mum's remarried.

Angela and her mum laughed, both sounding the same. Scary.

"Kate Clark, but please call me Kate." She said, handing me her hand.

"Bella." I shook her hand.

"I didn't know you had friends coming over Angela." Angela's mum – I mean Kate said, but in an angry way, like a confused way. "I wish you would have told me earlier. I would have the guest room ready and prepared for Bella to sleep in."

"No that you already have it ready." Luke mumbled.

Kate smacked Luke's head jokingly, while he rubbed his head.

"Sorry mum, but it looked to me like Bella could use some girl time." Angela said.

"Well, it's nice you bringing home your friend. Now get changed, we're going to the beach. I think you're in need of a tan."

"I do not mum!" Angela yelped.

"Yes you do cousin." Luke retorted.

And that's when the argument between Angela and Luke started. It felt really nice to be here. For once, I felt happy here.

~~~Only In The Past~~~

"I think you should wear this Bella." Angela said. I looked up from the magazine I was reading and saw Angela holding up a royal blue two piece bikini.

"Why is it blue?" I asked.

"Because Luke likes blue." She jokingly said.

I threw the closest thing I could reach at her - which was a pillow. She dodged, laughing at me as well.

"Joke. Okay, not a joke, but still."

"I am not going to wear that." I said to her.

"Fine, than you can just wear this." She held up a black bikini which looked much worse than the other one.

She saw my eyes widened and smirked at me.

"I think I'll wear the blue one."

"Good choice." She said and tossed me the bikini, a tank top and shorts. Again, they were blue. I glared at her and changed in the bathroom.

The shorts were ripped and faded; also they were over my knees. The tank, well, it was a tank. This isn't what I'd usually wear. Not shorts, but jeans, and hoodies over tanks. But I'm in Phoenix. It's blazing hot outside. This isn't La Push.

"Yo, Bella?" Angela's voice ran out. "Did the toilet flush you down or something?"

"Ha ha, so funny." I said as I opened the bathroom door.

"I know right. She's such a comedian." Luke commented. "Wow." He said as he saw me. It was obvious that he was checking me out, by the way his eyes travelled down my body and back up to my face. I blushed again and looked away to the floor.

"Doesn't she look nice?" Angela asked, grinning like a fool.

"Yep." He said, still looking at me. I lifted my gaze to him and he gave me a small smile, his dimple showing. I averted my eyes back to the floor.

"Well, I'm gonna go get some sun cream." I randomly said, but only get away from Luke and his eyes.

"Yeah, sun cream." Angela repeated, almost mocking me. I glared at her and went into her room, getting the damn sun cream.

~~~Only In The Past~~~

"I miss La Push beach." I muttered to Angela, who was sunbathing. She had her Ray bans on, and was lying down on a towel. I playing with the sand, letting it pass through my open fingers, while I looked at the open sea.

"You live on a beach?" Kate asked me, lifting her head from her magazine to look at me.

Images and memories passed through my brain and eyes. One with dad, mum, Seth and Leah laughing and playing around, others with Embry, Quil and Jake, messing around like fools, those were the happy ones, but I remembered the one where I was trying to make the stones skidded on the sea, but it didn't work. I remembered the tears following, the pain when Embry left with Sam's cult. I remembered the cliffs, where Sam, Paul, Jared, Embry, Quil and Jake were jumping from, like they've been best friends since birth. No, the best friends since birth were me, Embry, Jake and Quil. Sam, Paul and Jared just ruined what we had, what we will never have again.

"Yeah." I whispered, wanting to block out the memories, but those memories were the only thing that kept me going, that kept me moving, that kept me thinking that all of it actually happened, that they left me, that they'll never come back, that I was left alone with the pain. The pain was my only reminder of them being re, of them leaving, of them being my best friends and who were once my everything.

"Whoop!" I heard someone holler. I turned my head to see Luke surfing the waves, another blond boy was racing him.

"Go Luke!" Angela yelled, calling on her cousin.

When Luke got off his board, he fisted bumped his blond friend, with two others joining him. They patted Luke's back. I saw him grin at them; they proceeded to walk to Angela, Kate and Me.

"Hey miss Clark." One of them said a brunette. He was five foot nine, with shoulder length brown hair and brown eyes. He had a slight British accent which made him sound cuter.

"Miss Clark, what's up" A black haired boy with blue eyes said. He was probably six foot two. He has two tattoos on each of his arm, writings I didn't understand.

"Miss C! Good surfin' right?" The blond who was surfing with Luke said. He had green eyes, and a boyish smile, like those one where you've been caught with your hand down the cookie jar.

"I honestly wish you boys would talk normal." Kate said, laughing. I smiled at her happy self. Her phone rang and she got up, excusing herself and walked away.

"So, dudes, you remember Angela, my cousin? She came here last summer?" Luke asked.

"Yes, I remember. Hello Angela." Brunette boy said.

"Hey Tyler." Angela said back. Ohh, his name is Taylor.

"Hey Angela." Black haired boy said.

"Hey Christian."

"Hi Angie."

"Don't call me that, and hi Austin." Angela said, slightly glaring at Austin.

"So, this is -"

The blond boy - Austin interrupted Luke by saying, "She's defiantly not your cousin dude, she too tanned and hot to be." He winked at me, while I blushed. He barked out a laugh at how easily I could blush and smiled his boyish smile at me.

Luke laughed, "Yeah, your right." He smiled at me, I smile back. "She's Angela's friend, Bella."

"Hello Bella. As Angela already said, I'm Austin." He held his hand out and I took. He kissed it and winked at me again.

"I see you're a flirt." I said to him.

"The biggest baby." He wiggled his brows at me and I knew there was another meaning to his words."

"I'm Tyler, and you look really beautiful Bella." Taylor said, making me blush again. What is it with boys making me blush?

"Thanks." I mumbled. He smiled at me and started to kick the sand. Ah, he's the shy one when it comes to girls and in their group.

"I'm Christian." He said, nodded towards me.

I nodded back and smiled at him. Well, he's a toughie.

Then I noticed how they resembled the closeted boys in my life. Embry. Quil. Jake. And Seth.

Luke was like Embry with the way he acts towards me, like his attitude is more than friendly.

Taylor was like Seth, shy as always with the ladies.

Christian was like Jake, tough to talk to and hard to be with, but has a heart big enough for two.

Austin was like Quil with the silly flirting. They were the same, a ladies' man.

When I thought about that, my heart swelled. Deep inside me, it actually hurt so much to leave them behind, but I needed to, does that make to selfish?

I tried to swallow the guilt and regret back down my throat, and blinked away the tears. I shook my head and stood up.

"Bella?" Angela asked.

"I'll be back." I croaked out.

I ran and ran to anywhere. I want to hide; I want the ground to open up and swallow me whole. But the thing I want most, was to be back in La Push. I collapsed onto the sand, not caring anymore. I sobbed out everything I had, but the pain never went away. I hugged my legs so close to my chest, wanting to get away. I wanted to be back in La Push. I wanted to be back with my family. I wanted to be in my mother and father's arms, to tell them how it hurt so much, I wanted them to hold me and tell me that they love me and that they'll never let anyone hurt me again. I wanted to be back with Seth, wanted him to tell me everything was going to be fine, that I was going to be okay. I wanted to be with Leah and her bitchiness. I wanted her to tell me off and hug me, saying I was crazy and she loves me like a sister should. I wanted Jake to slap me some sense, to tell how stupid I was for leaving. I wanted to be with Quil, for him to say that his body will make me feel better. But what I wanted most of all was to be in Embry's arms, to feel his warmth, to have him hold me tell him that he loves me. I want him to tell me that he loves me like a boy should love a girl and I what to feel his lips on my lips. I wanted Embry back. I want him back.

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