Hi guys,

Sorry about the lack of updates. I have been busy outside of my apartment for the last few weeks. I have several papers I need to write as I get closer to the end of the semester and exams to study for and friends and family I have been neglacting in my busy schedule.

This is my attempt to make you all understand where I'm coming from, but it may read a bit like a rant, because a lot of it is a rant.

I understand your need for a happy leyton fix, but I just haven't been able to bring myself to write about these two characters that suck in every way possible. After last night's episode, which I could barely finish watching, I've decided I'm no longer watching that show at all. I'm beyond annoyed at Mark Schwan and just thinking about it pisses me off to a degree that makes me know I need to take a few big steps back.

Mark Schwan is indeed Lucas Scott. He makes us Leyton fans think we are the one and then suddenly he dumps us like a bad habit and scribbles away a love story he barely gave a fair shot in one lame scene. Seriously? Maybe it's just the idea of being in love with him? Fuck you Haley and fuck you Marck Schwan. Haley has become a character I greatly dislike. She is clearly a shitty friend and a selfish person. Shitty to Peyton. Shitty to Lindsey. Shitty to Lucas for telling him he shouldn't marry someone when she seems to believe they actually love eachother, but then a few episodes later questions Peyton's feelings for Lucas?

And Brooke. Her reasons for wanting to be a mother, if she is honest with herself are purely selfish, because she obviously has no clue about taking care of a child and seemed to think having a baby would be the easiest thing ever and "Look how cute I look with this baby. Hey Lucas you wanna help me take care of her?" She is so Angelina Jolie, because I'm pretty sure Brad bonding with Maddox helped woo him over to Angelina's clutches. Plus, who watches their best friend fall apart over a guy and then goes over to said guy's house in the middle of the night? I don't care that the baby was crying. That child was a responsibility she claimed you could handle along with her work. So handle it.

I'm just confused by the first few episodes of the season we were led to believe Lucas was not completely over Peyton. That Lucas and Peyton were "true love." That Lucas and Peyton belong together and that's how it's supposed to be-Brooke's words. Yet now, we see Mark Schwann doing hwat he does best and erasing history so he can rewrite a new one. It was Haley and Peyton's conversation that pissed me off and made me wipe my hands of this show.

Like Lucas, Mark's words mean nothing. I just feel like I've been strung along for years and my time has been totally wasted and I really fucking hate that. It seems like Mark has finally chosen a side and from what I've seen and the way he has written Peyton's character this season, that side is not team leyton. Fuck that. I hope I'm wrong, but I'm not wasting anymore of my time this season or next season to see if I am. I am 26 years old and although writing is my career and favorite pasttime I cannot live out the rest of my twenties behind a computer screen and living out a romance vicariously through a made up character.

I am so over One Tree Hill, but this is not to say I won't continue writing Bliss and Journey at some point. Because once I tell myself they are just characters and writing them in a different way is just the same as watching it on screen I may continue onward. But for now, OTH and I are on a break. It has taken up too much of my life already and I am way too mad to give it anymore time at this point. I thank everyone who has encouraged me throughout my writing process and I understand how bummed some of you may be. I hope to be back to fix Mark's mess some time soon.

Best Wishes,

Lexlady