Chapter 38

Fix You

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
when you're too in love to let it go
but If you never try you'll never know
Just what your worth

Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears streaming down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears streaming down your face and I

Tears streaming down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Coldplay

"Mr. Scott?" Nathan's head popped up and looked at the nurse standing before him.

"We'll take you back to see your wife now" the woman responded.

Nathan glanced over to Julian and Brooke. As he stood a sense of fear filled him. He forced his feet to follow the nurse that had spoken but it was a reluctant walk.

As Nathan followed the nurse down the hall way back through the ER doors, he put his hand on her elbow. "Is my wife ok?"

"Mr. Scott I'm not a Doctor. You know I can't make that type of statement. Is she alive? Yes she is. That's about all I know but Dr. Henderson is with her and I'm sure he can answer your questions" she said as she held the curtain back and motioned for Nathan to go in.

Nathan's eyes fell to Haley. She was uncontrollably sobbing. He rushed to her side "Hey Hey Hey…. What's wrong Hales? I'm here baby. I'm right here" he said as he wrapped his arm around her head and pulled it to his chest. He looked to the ER physician searching for answers and the Doctor met his gaze and shook his head.

"I'll be right back Mr. Scott. The lab is phoning in some results of the tests we have ran."

Nathan nodded his head as he then turned to Haley and began to whisper to her "I love you Haley. I'm here baby. You're not alone. You're safe. Ok? You're safe now baby"

As the Doctor entered back into the curtained enclosure he returned to his seat and looked at the couple before him. "Mr and Mrs. Scott I have some test results back that I'd like to go over with you."

Nathan tried to swallow down the lump in his throat as he continued to lightly rock Haley's upper body against him in a lulling motion which was meant to soothe her. He looked back down to the top of her head and closed his eyes and the Doctor spoke.

"First of all the baby is fine Mrs. Scott. You have not had a miscarriage." Haley's sobs began to ease down slowly. "You are however in severe shock, malnourished and terribly dehydrated."

Nathan looked at the Doctor "What does that mean?"

"It means she is in danger Mr. Scott of going into a Traumatic induced trance. She was nearly there when she arrived. She is suffering from Post Traumatic Shock. PTS patients tend to shut almost completely down. It's their escape from reality and the after affects can be possibly severe. She can go into a hypnotic based state that resembles a coma patient but her eyes are open."

Nathan again looked down at Haley. "Just before you came in Mr. Scott I was fearing that she was transitioning into just that until she informed me she was pregnant and had experienced some cramping and bleeding. I think a lot of that is where she was in a sitting position for so long. The cramping was caused by the inability to move the muscles. When she sat still for so long while the baby was still growing it could have prevented the baby from complete movement. That in addition to her not eating and basically not drinking has all worked into a cause for concern. I want to keep her here for at least a few days. She needs IV fluids and rest on top of all else."

"Hales, you were sitting in that chair the whole time?" Nathan questioned. He sat there waiting for her to respond. She never did. Nathan moved her back away from him just a little and looked into her eyes. "HALEY? Can you hear me?" Nothing…. "HALEY? BABY?" Nathan looked over to the doctor.

Dr Henderson called the orderlies over. " We need to get her up to a room stat. I want her monitored. Place her in ICU tonight. I'll go write the complete orders right now."

Once the orderlies were in motion, the Doctor turned back around to Nathan. "Mr. Scott, we need to sedate her tonight. I want all stress and thought processes idle. She has suffered something terribly traumatic. I think it's more than just the kidnapping."

Nathan continued to hold Haley as he nodded his head. "When will the sedation wear off?"

"Probably tomorrow morning. I just want her to rest tonight. I think it would be a good idea for you to be here with her just incase she wakes up. She shouldn't but if she does, she needs to be able to see a familiar face"

Dan saw Lucas as the door opened. He smiled. "Wow! Who died?"

Lucas chuckled. "Not you! You're still here Dan Scott."

"How's Haley?" Dan asked as the smile left his face.

"We really haven't heard anything. Just before I came in, they came and got Nathan and carried him to the back of the ER. He hasn't come out yet." Lucas said with a grave expression.

"She's ok though right?"

"I don't know Dan. Nathan said she was out of it pretty bad on the ride to the hospital. That's about all I have for you."

Dan shook his head. "She's strong Lucas. She'll pull through this."

"I just hope she hasn't lost the baby" Lucas said with a heavy sigh.

"Why would you say that Lucas? What are you not telling me?"

"Dan….."

"No Lucas. Explain to me why you're worried that Haley has lost my grandchild." Dan said as he tried to sit up and winced in pain.

"Calm down. Take it easy Dan." Lucas said placing his hand on his father's shoulder. "Haley had a miscarriage the night that Nathan was thrown through the window of that bar. When she was pregnant with Cammie, they found scar tissue that had been a result of the accident in high school. They had to do surgery to remove it or she would have lost Cammie too. The mass of scar tissue caused the first miscarriage. She's delicate Dan. Haley is more fragile than you know" Lucas said as his intense gaze met his fathers.

" I didn't know all of that. Just one more thing that's a result of my poor parenting. Lucas, you will never know how many times I have berated myself for not giving Nathan that money. I wish I had been a better father to both of you. I wanted to make up a little. That's why I was so determined to find Haley. I know how important she is to both of you. She's important to me too, son."

Lucas gave his father a slight smile. "I know" he said as he squeezed his father's shoulder.

"What in the hell can be taking so long?" Brooke said in frustration. " I need to call Quinn. Clay left a couple of hours ago to go to Nathan and Haley's to help her with the kids. I promised as soon as they told us anything I'd call them."

"They are probably running tests Brooke. You know how hospitals are. It takes forever to get something done in these places. I hate them." Julian said with a long sigh.

" I know. I just want to know that Haley and the baby are ok, Julian." Brooke said as she looked at him with tears in her eyes.

" She is Brooke. They are. Ok? Haley and the baby are going to be just fine" Julian said as he tightened the arm he had around Brooke, pulling her to him so he could kiss the top of her head.

"She's been through enough" Brooke said as she the tears flowed from her eyes down her cheeks.

Quinn had just gotten Cammie to sleep and was placing her in her crib. Clay watched her cuddle the baby tight to her chest before placing her in her bed. He wanted another child with Quinn. Logan was now four and he wanted to talk to Quinn about it but with everything going on he knew now was not the time.

Quinn turned to Clay and smiled. "She's so peaceful. Not a care in the world. I do think she feels that something's wrong though. Babies can sense that sort of thing. Clay how was Haley when you saw her?"

Clay tensed up. "She was out of it baby. I'm pretty sure she was in shock"

"What does that mean for her and the baby Clay? Did they tell Nathan anything before you left?"

"No he was still waiting to see her Doctor" Clay said, not looking at his wife's eyes.

"She's ok though right?"

"I'm not sure, Quinn it was hard to tell. Emotionally it is probably going to take a while." Clay said as he placed his hands in his pockets.

Nathan sat beside Haley's bed. He had her hand in his. He couldn't seem to take his eyes off of her. He watched each breath she took, every facial expression change, any movement of her body that he might get a chance at seeing. Truth was, he was starved for the sight of her. There were times over the extent of her abduction that he wondered if he'd ever get to see those things again. He savored each one. There was no way he'd be able to sleep any tonight. He couldn't stop watching her. The machine behind him beeped out the steady beats of her heart while the machine across from him had the delicate swoosh of the baby's heart beat as a faster paced echo. He was just grateful for each thud he heard. There were moments while sitting in that waiting room that his mind took free reign and began to explore all of the possibilities of what was taking them so long. That was almost as bad as when he had no idea where they were.

As the door to her room opened Nathan turned his head slightly to see his brother coming in.

"Nathan? What's going on?" Lucas said with a panic stricken face. "What's happened? Why is Haley in ICU? Why didn't you come get me?"

"Lucas…." Nathan whispered as he shook his head. "I'm sorry okay? I completely lost my mind down there. She's mal nourished, dehydrated and she's just in a dark place right now Luke"

"What do you mean she's in a dark place"

Nathan's eyes filled with tears. "I don't know if she'll ever completely recover from this" he whispered.

"What? What does that mean Nathan? I hear the baby's heart beat so the baby's ok right?"

"Yeah as far as we know. She had some cramping and bleeding at some point" Nathan said as he continued to watch his wife. " I told them about the scar tissue. They are checking her for something called Placental Previa. I don't know all of the details they want to get the test results back first. But Luke? It's Haley that I'm worried most about. Her mental state is not good. I don't know what they've done to her but something happened. The doctor said he asked her if she had been beaten or raped and she told them no but she wouldn't look at him…"

"Oh god…." Lucas said as he looked down at his best friend. "She's a mess Nate…" Lucas whispered as tears began to sting his eyes. Haley didn't deserve this. He had no idea what they would have to do at this point to get the rest of her back.