Hey everyone, a big thanks to The Girl Who Ran Through Myst and loving bites for reviewing the last chapter! Sorry for the delay I've been babysitting a one year old full time and its impossible to get anything done with a baby. Here's the next chapter:)

Chapter Five

Clary's p.o.v

Clary was starting to realize there was nothing more tiring than waiting to see if the only father you've ever had would live or die right in front of your eyes. She hadn't moved from Luke's side and was holding on to his hand as tightly as possible for the last two hours. Having Jace there helped of course, but there was still no way she would be able to calm down until Luke woke up and she knew he was alright. Jace was currently squished in a chair trying to sleep, despite the fact that his knees were right in his face and he was bent in a way no one should ever bend. Clary had tried to get him to go home, but as usual he refused to leave her alone in this cold and depressing place. Clary knew she should be used to hospitals by now due to her mother's permanant residence in one, but there are some feelings you can't change no matter how hard you tried.

A slight movement to her left startled her and she turned to see the door to the hospital room open. Alec appereared first, pulling a bedraggled looking Magnus in after Clary saw Magnus her jaw literally dropped. His hair was hanging limply around his head and mascara was all over his face, from his forehead to his chin, Clary didn't even know that was possible. The sight made her heart ache and she immediately went over to her brother and gave him a big hug. As hard as this was for her, she knew Magnus must be feeling ten times worse. She would never blame her brother, neither would Luke and she wanted to make sure he knew it. Magnus had made her and Luke's life so much easier when he moved in. Before Magnus Clary was depressed and though Luke tried to hide it for her sake, she know he was too. Magnus had saved them from the heartache they had due to Jocelyn's coma and she knew Magnus didn't know how much he meant to them, and that was about to change. She just wished it hadn't taken such an awful act to get her to tell Magnus what he should have known all along.

"What's going on?"

Startled everyone jumped at Jace's sleepy voice. Clary turned to her brother and saw the hope drain from his face and she knew he had thought it was Luke who had spoken.

"A tea party, what the fuck do you think is going on? My father is only fighting for his life while your lazy ass is in la la land."

Clary had never seen Jace look so shocked and she was sure her face was a mirror image of her boyfriend's. Alec, however, only had a grimace on his face and that made Clary suspect that Magnus had been in this foul of a mood all night, not that anyone blamed him. Although, she had to admit that she had never thought her good natured brother could ever be this angry, it just didn't seem possible. Magnus had always been the happiest person she knew. He was actually borderline annoyingly cheerful most of the time. An even more intense wave of sadness came over her, Magnus didn't deserve this and it was tearing her up inside.

Clary was worried Jace would snap back, she knew Magnus didn't mean anything by his outburst and he would feel sorry about it after he calmed down. Thankfully Jace just nodded and walked over to Clary, pausing just long enough to place a kiss on her forehead, before gesturing toward the door at Alec. Alec gave Magnus' hand a quick squeeze then turned to follow Jace. After the two brothers left the room Magnus' knees buckled and Clary grabbed him around the waist, glad he was so light, but wishing he wasn't so damn tall, and drug him over to the seat Jace had just vacated.

As soon as his butt hit the seat Magnus burst into tears, pulling Clary onto his lap as he did. Clary felt tears of her own well up and roll down her cheeks as Magnus rocked her back and forth as she stroked his hair repeatedly, something she knew always calmed him down. His sobbing was breaking her heart and she prayed to god everything would work out. Magnus was the purest soul she had ever known and this was killing him.

"It's okay, it's okay."

Clary repeated the phrase like a mantra and Magnus finally calmed down enough to breathe normally. Tears still streamed down both of their cheeks and she used the hem of her shirt to first dry Magnus' tears before tending to her own over and over until her tears stopped. By that time only a few stray tears leaked from the corners of Magnus' eyes and he stopped rocking Clary but, kept his arms around her in a death grip, Clary returning the hug, matching the fierceness of his embrace. She didn't know how long they sat like that, it could have been hours, the aura in the room had a timeless feel. It was like Clary, Magnus, Luke, and all of their hurt feelings were the only things left in the world.

The painful bubble they were in was shattered as a nurse walked in pausing at the scene in front of her, her apologies were met with silence, neither of them seemed to be able to find their voices. She left a few minutes later after tending to Luke, giving them a sympathetic look as she went.

They sat in a smothering silence, everything had a smothering feeling lately. Finally Magnus shifted, Clary had the feeling that her weight was making his legs fall asleep. Sighing softly she slid off of his legs and walked over to the seat next to Magnus, wearily settling down and turning to face Magnus bracing herself for the conversation she knew was going to be full of angst. Taking a deep breath for courage she finally broke the silence.

"What happened Mags?"

She hadn't thought it was possible, but Magnus paled even further and all of the little bit of light that was left in his eyes drained away. It was upsetting to see eyes that were usually so full of light turn dark and lifeless. Reaching out she grabbed Magnus' hand and squeezed it letting him know that no matter what she was on his side and always would be.

"I saw my mom," Clary knew how much effort that one sentence cost him, and she cringed at the mention of his mother, she knew he said he was going to see her but, she hadn't thought he would really go. She knew his mother was the one who had shot Luke and had kicked her only child out of her house due to a stupid prejudice. She had so many things to ask him but she wanted to let him get it all out at once, so that it hopefully hurt him less.

"My dad... well my dad is dying due to health reasons and she wants me to try to save him. Can you believe that? Both of them made my life a living hell and she wants me to risk my life to save that worthless piece of shit."

Magnus jumped out of his chair and started pacing, Clary anxiously watching his every move and listening to him rage, he wasn't yelling but his voice was slightly louder than it usually was, pacing faster he continued speaking.

"That's the stupidest fucking thing I've ever heard in my entire life! And so she thinks the best way to get my attention would be to shoot the closest father figure I've ever had? What is she fucking retarded? Jesus Christ, what the fuck? Why does shit like this always have to happen to me?"

He was out of breath by the end of his rant and his face was so pissed and hurt that Clary started crying again. She jumped up and ran to her brother hugging him as hard as should rushing to speak.

"You don't deserve this, you know that right? Luke and I love you and we'll always love you no matter what! We don't get to pick our parents. None of this is your fault don't forget that! You coming into our lives, that saved us. Everyday after my mom's accident was a living hell for both of us. I had nothing left, Luke was gone all the time for work and I was so alone, but then you came and you saved me from depression and my own personal hell I had to live in everyday. I owe you everything and so does Luke."

Both of them we're crying at the end of her speech and holding eachother as tightly as possible. And even in the midst of all of the pain Clary knew this had made her Magnus' relationship stronger rather than ruin it and no matter how hard this was going to be they would get through this together and that was all that mattered.

I hope you liked it, I have so much planned for this story and this is just the beggining! Please review and tell me what you like and don't like, I know I can't please everyone but, I can damn sure try lol

Love,Psalms