And here's chapter 3…

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I woke up the next morning in Jaspers arms. It was the first time I'd fell asleep like this but this time it felt very different. I found myself waking up with a smile on my face and feeling extremely happy.

I turned around, careful not to wake him and just admired him. I always knew he was good looking, I mean how could a girl not, but this morning it was like I was seeing him with new eyes. He looked so peaceful while asleep, a smile on his face. I wondered what he was dreaming about and whether he was dreaming at all. While lost in my thoughts he started to stir, waking up.

"Hey beautiful" I couldn't help but blush at his nickname for me. He had taken to calling me that last night after our talk, telling me that I have always been and always will be in his eyes. Typical Jasper, being sweet and kind to me, making me feel better about the whole situation. He started to sit up, his longish blonde hair all messed up from sleeping and those amazing blue eyes looking right at me, god he was beautiful!

"Hi" I replied with a shy smile and with a kiss on his cheek. I wasn't really sure how I should be acting, whether he still meant what had been said. We had been drinking after all. He surprised me though by kissing me back settling all my fears.

I heard a beeping noise on the background but not really paying that much attention to anything other than Jaspers lips I ignored it. I loved this, waking up to him, kissing him. I realised what I'd been missing all these years which was upsetting and I knew this was what I needed but I just didn't know how I would solve everything so we could get to it.

I heard the beeping again and this time so did Jasper cause he stopped kissing me. I groaned and he just chuckled at me.

"Sorry Bella, but I think that's your phone" I knew it was too but it would be either of two people and both who I didn't think I could speak to. I got up anyway and went into the living room to retrieve my phone from my bag I'd dumped by the couch.

I had 1 voicemail and 2 texts, one of each from Edward and just the text from Alice.

I took it back into Jaspers room and sat down on the bed before reading them. As soon as I sat down he wrapped his arms around me and got me to lean back and use him for support. He knew I needed him, he always did and we both knew the guilt was going to come as soon as I heard from them both.

Hey did you leave? Been looking for you but can't see you or Jasper. Let me know that you're ok? Love you, Alice x

Hmm that wasn't so bad. I knew though that me not replying will have got her worried even if she did think I was with Jasper. It wasn't like me to not tell her. I felt bad that I hadn't let her know I was leaving but it wasn't really on my mind.

Yeh sorry, forgot to tell you. i wanted to leave after that guy and Jasper suggested his. Hope you guys had a great night! Love you too, Bella x

I was glad that was out of the way but now it was Edwards turn.

Hi love, just letting you know that I I'm home now. Let me know when you're on your way here so I know your save. I've missed you! Love you, Edward xxx

Oh god! I am such a bad person. I couldn't think about that right now though because I still had to listen to their worried voices which I don't think I could take.

"It's alright, it will all be sorted soon, and you have nothing to feel guilty about, this is all on me not you. Plus were only following our hearts, they will understand" he was always trying to make me feel better. It didn't work this time though. I didn't really see them both understanding. In my eyes once you had betrayed someone, that was it and I knew they would see it like that too.

I braced myself for the voice mail. "Hi just calling to see where you are. I thought you were coming here but its past 2 now so maybe I got it wrong. Ring me when you get this Bella. Love you" okay, so I could kind of deal with that other than having to ring him which I knew I couldn't get away with.

"I'm going to have to ring him aren't I?" I knew it but I thought asking the question would give me some excuse not to.

"How about we just get something to eat and stuff first, then you can ring him. We can think of what to tell him while were eating?" he answered with the typical, if you don't want to do something wait a bit till your more prepared, Jasper attitude. I was grateful that he wasn't pushing me to tell him, I knew that I wouldn't be able to straight away, that It was impossible for me to just blurt it out to everyone.

"That would be perfect, thank you" I kissed him, showing him my thanks. He really couldn't stop amazing me and I knew he probably never would.

I followed him into the kitchen and watched Jasper cook breakfast while I sat at the table with some coffee. Jasper was an amazing cook and it was inspiring watching him so something he loved. He had tried teaching me one day when we were in college but it didn't work out so well. Baking was my thing really and I liked to think I was good at that as Jasper was as good at cooking but I wasn't so sure. We were a great team when it came to making dinner. He would always do the main and then I would have baked something for desert.

Right now he was making pancakes, my favourite. He knew this too as I never was afraid of expressing my feelings towards them. And god the're good! If I could get away with eating them all day and all night I would have thought of it by now!

While we ate he suggested that we talk about what was going to happen next and I agreed needed to get everything straight in my head.

"Well I know that it's not going to be easy but I want to be with you Bella, in every way possible" I smiled and took his hand across the table. "I love you and if I have to wait a bit longer so be it, if that's what I have to do so I can be with you I'll do it no question"

"I love you too and I think being with you is what I want to" I was so happy when I saw that grin on his face "but you are right, it's not going to happen straight away, I need to tell Edward and break off the engagement which is going to be hard but I know it needs doing. Plus I will have to tell Alice before we even think about being a couple"

"Wait Alice, I mean I understand that she's your friend and everything but what has she got to do with it all" he asked without a clue, I swear men can be so blind sometimes.

"Jasper seriously she's besotted with you, has been since you gave up your seat for her" I couldn't believe he didn't know, everyone else did. I had offered to tell him for Alice but she was adamant that she knew what she was doing and that she wanted him to make the first move.

"Wasn't that the day I met her?" I nodded, amused "I don't even think I spoke to her that day, I know I didn't have a conversation with her till you had that big exam that got you all freaked out"

Trust him to remember that but not how Alice always acted around him. It was quite funny really.

"Oh you did actually" he was puzzled, clearly not understanding. "You said take my seat" I just burst out with hysterics then, not only was the situation hilarious but jaspers facial expression was way funnier.

"Oh lord you're not joking are you?" I shook my head, no "Of course you're not, why would you?"

"See, were going to be upsetting a lot of people" the reality of the situation clear in our heads. "I don't know how I'm going to cope with all the gossip, the looks and the disappointment Jasper"

"We have each other and that's what counts ok" his grip on my hand got tighter, reassuringly. "I'm certainly not going anywhere so just take your time"

"Okay, I will" I could feel the strength in his words, the promise that he intended to keep.

"Why don't you just tell him the truth?" I glanced up at him with shock "I don't mean that Bella. Just that I turned up at the club in time to stop that guy from harassing you and we decided to just leave and you spent the night here?" that would probably be ok "it's not the first time you've spent the night, I'm sure he will understand that"

"Well that sounds fair" and it did, he didn't have anything against Jasper and he would appreciate that he got the guy away from me "I think I need to just take this one step at a time for now. Do you think we can keep this to ourselves and try to just act like normal even when were alone till I sort it all out?"

"Sure" he just shrugged his shoulders not looking very convinced "I can try anyway"

I sure hoped we could act like normal. We needed to so we could sort it out without making it harder on everyone else, never mind ourselves.

My phone started ringing then. I glanced at the caller id and immediately ignored the call. Jasper kept quiet, knowing that I needed to do this on my own without him in the background.

"You want a lift home?" he offered but I didn't live that far so I decided to walk, wanting the fresh air to clear my head. I'd call Edward then too.

He walked me to the door, saying goodbye with a kiss on my forehead and a "it's going to all be fine" I just agreed with him and left, needing to think by myself for a bit.

The weather was quite warm for the time of year, even with the slight breeze. It felt nice on my skin and in my hair.

I tried to compose myself to get ready for the dreaded call. Okay, so I was just going to tell him the truth, just what I had talked about with Jasper. I was about half way home when I finally just took the plunge.

"Finally Bella" Edward answered. I could hear the worry in his voice but relief as well. "Where have you been I was worried about you? It's not like you to not tell me what you were doing"

"I know and I'm sorry I'm only just calling you now" okay this is it, you can do it "But there was this guy at the club and luckily Jasper was there to get me away from him and then I didn't want to stay so he suggested we just go back to his I'm sorr…"

"Hold on a minute" he sounded angry, which I was trying to avoid "have I got this right? A guy hit on you at the club and jasper took you away from him even though it was a girls only night which means he shouldn't have been there and then you went to his even though you were supposed to be staying at mine and you didn't think to tell me the change of plan"

"Edward can you please just let me finish?" I was getting annoyed now. "It started out as an only girl's night, but somehow Jasper and Emmett ended up at the same club so we just hung out together. I thought you would have been glad he was there, to get this guy away from me" I knew Edward, he would rather I was hanging out with Jasper than some stranger that he didn't know, which was funny when you thought about it.

"Oh I am trust me, so Jasper wasn't invited?" I knew what he was doing; he thought that I had told him that it was a girl's night just so I could go out without him, ha.

"I don't believe you! Of course he wasn't. I would have told you if he was, why would I need to keep that a secret, it makes no sense!" and it didn't. Jasper was my best friend and I hung out with him all the time, Edward knew that.

"I know, look I'm sorry, you know how I get sometimes when it comes to you" I certainly did. Images of him, beating the shit out of some guy just because he had walked into me. "So how come you went to Jaspers and not mine?"

"I'm not sure really" because he kissed me "we were drunk and I just wanted get out of that place, I'm sorry I never told you"

"That's okay" He bought it "What you up to now? You need picking up?" He offered just like Jasper, both gentlemen.

"Erm no actually, it's a nice day so I decided to walk, thought it would wake me up a bit. I'm just about home" I told him

"It is a nice day. How about we go out somewhere? Maybe the park or something? We could take a picnic, may as well enjoy the weather when we can" It sounded like a great idea, if I didn't feel like the worst fiancé in the world.

"That sounds great Edward, I wish I could, but I can't. I've got work I've got to catch up on, sorry" and this is how it all starts, the lies, well I did have work but it wasn't that important that I had to get it done today. "Can we maybe do it some other time?"

"Sure okay" he sounded disappointed like I thought he would, I would have been if I was him.

"Well I'm home now" I told him while juggling the phone, trying to unlock my door. "I'll speak to you later okay?" I knew I couldn't avoid him all the time.

"Okay, tell me if you finish your work earlier and we can do something right?" he asked to reassure himself that I was telling the truth and that I did really want to spend time with him.

"Course I will" I told even though it wasn't the truth, I couldn't face him today knowing I had to lie to him. I needed to get ready for it all and today wasn't that day.

"Right, well get to it then cause the sooner you do the sooner I can see you" I chuckled, he never gave up "Have fun, I love you"

"I love you too" that's when I realised I didn't. I don't know when but at some point I had stopped loving him and I don't think that it was just because of Jasper.