The door swung open and three gigantic guys came stumbling out, laughing like hyenas. Rose, Alice and I stepped to the side quickly before getting trampled and let the men by. One turned to us and gave a lazy grin, "heeey Baaaby, what are, what are ya doin' out hereee" he slurred. His breath smelled nasty from the beer and I turned my head away. This was not going well already and I wasn't even inside yet.

"Beat it scumbag" Rose gave him a death glare while putting her hands on her hips. The guy stood back and giggled like a girl. "I'mm jus' bein' friendly" he tried to say as he waved us off and threw himself off balance. He landed with a thud on the floor and didn't move. We all looked at each other, "is he….dead?" I whispered to Alice. She just giggled at me and grabbed my hand pulling me towards the now open door. "No Bella, he's just sleeping off Em's Skippy concoction."

Oh good lord, if that's what happened after drinking, I'm glad I'm not partaking tonight. Alice was towing me behind her, weaving her way through the crowd and I do mean crowd. I have no idea how so many people fit into one suite. Everyone's touching each other and there's hardly any room to move. I just put my head down and followed Alice, she wouldn't lose me with the death grip I had on her.

We made it to a table with three bowls of colorful drinks. This must be the alcohol supply. Alice squealed and clapped her hands."Bella I love the blue raspberry!" She took a cup, filled it to the brim and started chugging. "Alice! Geez slow down you just got here and I need you sober for a little bit." "Oh you will be fine, look at you! You're at your first real party and you haven't ducked out yet. I'm already proud."

She gave me smile, but something caught her attention because her eyes lit up. I turned around and spotted Jasper leaning against the wall talking to some guys. Rosalie was nowhere to be found and I really didn't want to left alone, but I knew Alice didn't want to baby sit me. "Alice, it's ok, you can mingle" I dismissed her while I searched the crowd for green eyes. If I could find Edward, I knew everything would be fine.

"Are you sure? I don't want to leave you for the wolves" she looked around at everyone with a sad face.

"Go Alice, I'll be fine." I looked at my finger nails and started chipped at the ends. I wasn't going to hide that I was nervous, but if I couldn't handle it I would just leave. I know where my room is.

"Alright, but if you need me come find me and don't hesitate." She pointed her finger in my face with a stern look.

"Gotchya." I gave her a reassuring smile, hopefully.

She walked around me and disappeared into the sea of bodies to the tall blonde across the room. I watched them embrace with relieved sighs; as if they had found home within each other. Pings of envy rang though my chest. I want someone to call home, and yes I had someone, but he wasn't home. He was a place I avoided until absolutely necessary. It was wrong to feel that way, but I wouldn't lie to myself. I knew Jake wasn't the one and that I had settled. I just don't really see anyone else who would want me.

"Are you going to stand in the way all night, or move your ass so we can drink?" someone blurted out from behind me. I turned around to an annoyed blonde. She glared at me and then raised her brows as if expecting something. She probably wanted me to say something, or move.

"So-Sorry" I mumbled as I moved away from her. I heard her huff, "finally, god I thought I was going to have to push the bitch."

I turned to see her talking to a strawberry blonde who giggled at her statement. Wow, this is going well. I had no clue where to go. I looked around but saw nobody I knew. I should just leave, the girls wouldn't notice. I came, I stayed and now I'm going. Baby steps right? Maybe next time I will stay longer, but I can't stay. Besides Jake's going to kill me as it is.

As I made up my mind I began trying to move back towards the door. Girls gave me huffs as I tried to push by them, god forbid they move or anything. I was half way to the door when a dirty blonde guy stood came into my view. I made eye contact for a split second, but it was a split second to long. He took it as an invitation and began walking in my direction with a smirk. All I could think at the moment was his smirk had nothing on Edward's.

Shaking my head of the thought I avoided his gaze and tried to move in the crowd again. The guy was almost to me, but I kept moving toward my goal. I had a bad feeling about him and his stare made me uneasy. I felt a hand grasp my wrist and give it a yank back. My body swung around and slammed into the guy's hard chest. He wrapped his arms around me and rocked us back and forth.

"Hey their cutie, haven't seen you around so you must be fresh meat" he said in an non-seductive tone. "I'm James, what's your name sweetheart?" I kept trying to wiggle out of his arms but he had a tight grip on me. "Now don't be like that, I just want to talk, work with me.

"Can you please let me go, I'm uncomfortable" I tried to pled in a small voice, but it only made him laugh at me. What a big joke. I continued to push and move. "I said let go" I managed a bit louder, hopefully getting the point across. I tried to remember the moves Charlie taught about getting away from an attacker and remembered the toe was a nice sensitive spot. Just as I was about to squash his toes to shit, I heard him.

"Come on, play nice now and I'll play nice later" he whispered in my ear and I looked right into his eyes. There was no joking in that statement. He was completely serious. Fuck. I began to move my body frantically, "Let me the fuck go!" I screamed.

"What the fuck are you doing James!" Emmett grabbed the color of his shirt and ripped his arm from around me to twist it in back of his arms. Just as James' grip left me, another pair of arms wrapped around me from behind. They twirled me around gently and hugged me to their body. The sweet smell of honey drifted into my senses and I was immediately calmed. I looked up into a pissed off Edward glaring in Emmett's direction.

"James, if you can't respect someone's wishes to get your filthy fucking hands off of them, then you better find another place to be. Come into this suite again and I'll personally through off my three story balcony." Edward seethed. His grip around me had tightened slightly due his anger but it only gave me comfort.

"Emmett, can you please show him the door" Edward dropped his arms from around me but grabbed my hand and tugged me to the side so Emmett could get by with the asshole. My body was shaking a little from the commotion and now the attention everyone was giving us. My face was probably beat red in embarrassment and the only thing I want to do is get to my room and lock the fricking door.

Edward obviously had different plans because I found myself walking toward a room. He still had my hand in his which did not escape my attention. I couldn't bring myself to let go of him. There was electricity running into my hand where we touched and it was just too comforting to lose.

He opened the door and flicked the light on. I looked around as he shut the door and realized this was his room. Oh god oh god oh god I'm in his room…My thoughts were like a 15 year old girl seeing a boy's bedroom for the first time. Juvenile. There were posters plastering the wall of bands, one catching my attention was Three Days Grace. I looked down at my feet and smiled, that was my favorite band.

We crossed the room to his bed and I started to panic a bit. The bed was too personal. The way we were acting right now was too personal. Everything that is happening right now is too personal. My brain was yelling red flags, this is bad but my feet were being traitors. Why was doing this? It never happened at home. I never let myself get this close to anybody for this sole reason. I don't want to push him away but there's no choice I'm going to have to. Jake would never approve of me talking to Edward, let alone sitting on his bed!

Edward sat on the end of his bed and pulled into another hug. His forehead rested against my shoulder and he was taking deep breaths. Almost as id he was sucking me in to help him calm down. My breathing wasn't much better. I felt like I was on the verge of passing out from the lack of air. His arms were strong while he held my body, and for some reason the thought being home came across my mind again. I closed my eyes shut tight, I couldn't think like that. I was wrong. Besides Edward would never let me call him home.

"Edward?" it came out just above a whisper. I wanted him to talk; I needed him to explain what we were doing.

He took one last deep breath and leaned back. He eyes found mine and held my gaze. His eyes were a darker green then earlier in the day. I wonder if it was because he was upset. I suddenly wanted to ease the anger out of him. Him being angry was the last thing I wanted for him. It was his party, he should be enjoying it, not worrying about me.

"Bella, are you alright?"

I held his eyes with my own and the truth just fell out.

"I am now" As soon as the words were said I felt my eyes grow wide and my face flare red with my confession. His face softened infinitesimally. His eyes were still dark, but his jaw slacked. I made him feel better with my statement, which in turn eased my tension a bit.

"I'm sorry that monkey ass touched you. We never should let him in tonight. I knew he would cause trouble."

"I'm sorry I caused trouble for you. I didn't mean to make a scene. I probably embarrassed you, God I'm so stupid I shouldn't have said anything" I babbled on and began to pull away from him to leave so I didn't cause more dumbass drama.

He Held me tighter as he realized I was trying to leave and pulled me closer to him. I turned my head to the side and continued to put my weight in the opposite direction.

"Bella, why are you trying to escape from me?" He said with a hint of humor underneath.

"I just don't want to cause anymore problems then I already have. I'm going back to my room."

"Can you just talk to me first please?" His voice was pleading and if I looked I'd melt into him.

I didn't pull away from him, but I couldn't face him.

He unwound am arm from around my waist. I felt him gently take my chin and turn it to face him. No, this isn't good. I closed my eyes, he wouldn't dare try to open those.

"Bella, open your eyes please, I swear I'm not that ugly."

I cracked a small smile and opened my eyes at his attempt at the joke. He is the extreme opposite of ugly and he should know it too.

I saw a small smile playing on his lips at his own joke, either that or he was smiling at the fact he won.

His fingers were still holding my chin in a firm but gentle manner. His embrace was totally different then the dirt bag from earlier.

"Now that I have your full attention again, how did you manage to find yourself in the presence of the worst piece of shit here, and not in mine?" he asked in a small voice, as if he was afraid of the answer I might give him.

"I was on my way out, and I saw him block my way, so I tried to go around through the people but he caught up to me." I shrugged trying to show him it was not a big deal. Too bad he saw right through me…

"Liar…. Don't insult my intelligence" his brow furrowed and I hope he didn't feel that I tried to actually insult him.

"I didn't lie, that's what happened."

"Ok, that may be what happened, but I know he did more than that and I also know it bothers you more than you're telling me."

I tried to look down, but he was still holding my jaw. I couldn't look anywhere but into his eyes, the last place I wanted to because I couldn't lie to him.

"He auhh, he umm….said that he wanted to…play…"I mumbled my thoughts hoping he wouldn't hear it. I could feel tears pricking the back of my eyes as his face blazed in anger at the recognition of what I said. I didn't need to explain what James meant, he knew.

He let go of my chin, but now I didn't want him too. He looked away as his brow furrowed and his lips met in a tight line. The lighter atmosphere between us was gone.

"Sonofabitch…." He said under his breath as he pinched the bridge of his nose.

"Don't worry, I'll hand the fucker. He's as good as dead." Edward's tone was cold as he stared down at the ground breathing deeply again. I don't know why but I pulled him to me remembering our embrace earlier helped to calm him down. His body was ridged and but I tried to comfort as best as I knew.

"Edward, it's fine Emmett found me before anything happened, it was just words. Please forget about this." I tried to reason with him but he shook his head.

"No Bella. I won't forget. He can't treat you or anyone else like that," he talked into my shoulder and I could feel his hot breath hit my skin. My body shivered and not because I was cold. Nobody ever elicited a reaction like that out of me. My brain was becoming fuzzy and I pulled away to clear my head.

"Can I ask you something?" He looked into my eyes and I nodded for him to continue. I'd answer anything he asked of me. "Why were you leaving? Alice told me you were here so I went to find you when I heard you scream."

"I didn't want to be a burden to Alice. I knew she wanted to have fun and I wanted her to have a good time so I told he to go find Jasper. I was just standing there in people's way so I was just going to head back to my room for some quiet time. I'm not much for a crowd, especially a crowd I'm unfamiliar with."

I don't know what it is but I can't keep anything to myself around him. Here I am pouring my thoughts out to him when he probably doesn't really care I was going to have quiet time.

"Why didn't you come find me?" he asked in a sad tone.

I moved my hands from his shoulders to fidget with them in front of me. He saw my nervous action and to my hands in his to calm them.

I peeked at him from under my lashes and he was looking at me intently waiting for an answer.

"I looked for you after Alice left. I wanted to say hi, but there were a lot of people and I knew you were having fun so I didn't want interrupt."

And the pouring continues…..

He looked up then, "Hi" he smirked at me.

I couldn't help it, I giggled. I giggled like a twelve year old girl. "Hi" I breathed after I stopped my inner child.

"You wouldn't have interrupted anything you know…..I was waiting for you."

My breathing came short as he said that and I was lost in those words. Why would he be waiting for me?

"I HATE, EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU, WHY DO I LOVE YOU, I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU, WHU DO I LOVE YOU" my ringtone came blaring out from in back of me, making me jump. Everything clicked at that moment. I ripped myself from Edward's arms, immediately missing the contact and ran for the door. I threw it open in a hast and quickly moved through the crowd, pushing people out of my way.

"Bella!...Wait…." I heard Edward yelling over the people but I couldn't stop I had to get away from him; from everyone. I ran through the door and down the stairs. My only hope was that Edward didn't follow.

I grabbed my phone which was still ringing from my back pocket. I opened my suite door as I flipped my phone open.

"Hey Jake" I was a little out of breath but not too bad.

"Bella, what took you so long to answer the phone? You knew I would be calling." Shit he was pissed off.

"I'm sorry I didn't hear my phone right away" it wasn't a lie.

"Well my breaks almost over now." "Ok Jake saw you earlier so it's not like we haven't talk today" I threw back. Now that he was on the phone the anger from earlier was catching up.

"What were you doing that you couldn't hear your phone? It's late you should be in bed, you have your precious classes in the morning" he was raising his voice now.

"I was talking with my new friends" again it wasn't a lie.

"You were what! I thought you didn't want anything to do with them down there? You lied to me you said you weren't going to make friends!" he was screaming in my ear.

This was not going well. I did tell him I wasn't going to make friends but to honestly hold to not having a single friend down here wasn't right.

"Jake did you really think I would have nobody down here to keep me company? The girls are nice and they like me." I tried to reason with him that these girls would be ok to know, that they wouldn't affect our plans for the future.

"Bella, they're girls, they say one thing to your face, and another behind your back. You know this. We talked about this before."

"They are different. We talked about a lot of things and their genuinely friendly."

"What are their names?"

"Alice is my roommate and she's a ball of energy. Rosalie lives in one of the other rooms and she's nice. She's protective of people."

"I don't like her."

"How can you not like her, you don't know her" I was pissed because he was judging them.

"Bella, protective bitches are prying bitches and I don't want her prying into our business"

"Jake, its fine. Everything is fine. I'm sorry I didn't answer I was just having fun."

"Well it better not be like this the whole time you're at school because I'm not putting up with it. I didn't buy you a phone so that you could ignore me. Got it?" I suddenly hate this phone.

"Yes Jake, I got it" I hissed into the phone.

"I Have to go. Call me in the morning. Love you Bye" and with that he was gone.

"Yup love you to Jake" I said sarcastically into the phone even though he wasn't even there to hear it.

I had made it into my room by the end of the conversation and I was standing in the middle when I heard my door shut.

I turned around quickly, scared of who was in my room when I came face to face with Edward.

He had shut my door and was standing in front of it with his arms cross and a angry look set upon his face.

"Bella, who were you talking to just now?" He asked in a too calm tone.

Here we go. I should have told him. I should have told all of them. Why didn't I just keep my distance? It would have saved the pain I now feel.

"That was my boyfriend, Jake." I looked into his eyes searching for the guy upstairs who would understand.

"You have…..a boyfriend…." It wasn't a question, it was a statement of sad realization.