Hey Everyone! I hope you like the store so far. I know it's a little slow but I want to make sure you guys get all the details. To all you Edward lovers I know this sucks reading about Jacob having the girl but stick with me. I'm an Edward lover so I could never leave him without his Bella. Let me know how I'm doing. criticism is welcome if it makes my story better!

~Sammy~

I just stood there looking at his sad eyes stare back at me. I didn't want to say the words that would hurt him. I didn't want him to go away, but I knew what was best for him. I would do Edward a favor by cutting him deep with the reality of the situation; maybe then he won't want anything to do with me.

"Yes….." I nearly whispered, not wanting to say the words, but knew it's for the best. I could see his face fall even more and I had to suppress the urge to comfort him. He needed this, it's better this way. Yea Bella, keep telling yourself that.

"I'm… sorry. I should have said something" I sputtered out.

He stood arms to his side, and his gaze was cast down towards the floor. I couldn't blame him, I wouldn't want to look at me either.

"No, I'm sorry. One should never assume things" his voice sounded so far away.

"I'm sorry for upstairs….I should never have gone up" I crossed my arms around my mid section to hold myself together. I would never feel what I had upstairs while in his arms again. I felt like I was falling apart at that thought, as if I needed it to happen again, soon.

"Bella, it's fine, I was helping you out, and that's what friends do right?" He finally looked up at me with a fake smile that didn't meet his faded green eyes. He was trying to convince himself, but I knew we weren't being just being friendly. I could tell by the way he held me, and how much comfort we gave each other. Friends don't hold each other like we had.

"Yea….I guess that's what they do…" I had ever had a friend do what he did. I never had anyone to look after me, and handle assholes for me until Jake came along and even then nobody had the guts to mess with me after that, so there was no need for guy friends to save me.

His facial expressions changed from a depressed setting to a determined façade. He put his head up and looked directly into my eyes, "Look Bella, If I made you uncomfortable upstairs I apologize. I don't know what I was thinking. I assure you I'm not normally like that and it won't happen again."

The finality of his statement hit me like a rock. What if I did want him to do it again? No. No I didn't because I have Jake and I love him. This is the way it had to be. Edward and I can't be that way again, because next time I don't know if I could stop myself letting anything more happen.

"I hope my stupidity didn't turn you away from wanting to be friends, because I'd really like that" Edward hadn't moved since he had crossed his arms but now he was shifting his weight from foot to foot as if he was nervous. I didn't know how to answer his statement. I don't know if we could just be friends because of the pull I feel toward him. I feel it right now as if my body needed to be next to his. I swallowed and tried to say something, but nothing came out. He waited their becoming more nervous from my silence. I could have self control. I won't let one guy unravel the control I have over myself. With just a determined face I looked at him, "Yes, we can be friends. I'd like that too." My voice was just as confident as I felt for once and I felt satisfied I wouldn't have to push Edward completely away. But now I had another issue. Jake. He's going to kill me for even thinking about being friends with Edward, let alone Emmett and possibly Jasper. All the confidence I was expressing faded.

As Edward realized what I said his face lit up just a bit, but nowhere near what it was like upstairs. I know what he was feeling because I was feeling it too. We would be in each other's lives, but it wasn't in the way we truly wanted. I couldn't just dump Jake the day I started college for some guy I barely know.

"Well, I should probably get back up stairs. Knowing Emmett he's probably broken something already" he tried to lighten the atmosphere, but it didn't help. I gave him a small smile as acknowledgment of his statement.

"Alright, yea you should make sure he's still in one piece." Now I was the one moving nervously.

"I'll see yea later then," he turned and grabbed the door handle. The pulling force was getting worse as he moved away from me and made me feel even more depressed. As he opened the door and walked into the suite he stopped and turned half way to look at me.

He pursed his lips and furrowed his brow in contemplation like he was deciding something. I soon found out.

"Bella, did you feel that too…do you feel it now?" He asked quietly.

He could feel the magnetic pull too. It wasn't just me meaning I wasn't crazy.

"Yes. I have ever since this afternoon." I truly have been, but admitting it again made me feel worse for we couldn't ever satisfy our need.

He nodded his head and let out a deep sigh. He smiled at me that crooked grin and my breath hitched as my heart sped up.

"One can hope it will be satisfied someday…" And with that he turned and walked out through the suite door.

I stood there blinking like an idiot after him. How could he still even want me after learning I had a boyfriend? I moved over to my bed and flopped on my back to look at the ceiling. After I pretty much led him on to think something could happen between us, and then shut him down, he still wanted to be my friend. But that statement meant more. It meant he would look forward to the sensation we share to be fulfilled someday. Someday…. As in he would wait for me? But he shouldn't be waiting for me. He should be out groping other women, not sitting around holding out for a lost cause. I was lost. I was lost to the boy who held too much power over me. More power than Edward certainly had. The question was did I want to let Jake continue to have all that power of influence over me. He influenced me to stay was from potential friends, to go to school for a limited time and not for what I really wanted to get a degree in. I let him have that power when I gave into the pressure he exerted on me. I buckled and now I had to fix it because I love Jake but he couldn't have this much control over my life. I should be able to hang out with whoever I want, even Edward. Jake should trust me. But should he, I mean look what happened upstairs. I was in another man's arms for comfort. What if more had happened? I wouldn't forgive myself if something more happened and then Jake really would have an excuse not to trust me. But nothing happened to be ashamed of. A friend helped me out of a bad situation, a situation I shouldn't have been in, but none the less he had helped; that's all. There's nothing wrong with a little help once in a while.

I wouldn't let what happened tonight bother me. Nothing occurred so no point in dwelling on it. I should be worried about the eight o'clock class I had in the morning. I rolled off my bed and glanced at the clock. "Fuck" how did it get to be one thirty in the morning! I went to put on some yoga pants and a big t-shirt. I shut the lights off, but left the door cracked slightly to let Alice in. I climbed into bed with my ipod and put some classical piano on to lull me to sleep.

The next day was interesting to say the least. I woke to no Alice in her bed which led to the conclusion that she stayed with Jasper, which was fine with me. I found myself smiling at the decision to take early classes because the bathroom was all mine. I went to my eight a.m. class anxious but also excited. I left with annoyance because of the people in the class. Didn't they know how to shut up and pay attention?

I had some time until my next class at ten so I found a coffee cottage. I sat in the corner and took out my phone. I had four missed calls, all from Jake. In one hour I had four missed calls so I thought something must of happened. I called him back and he answered on the first ring.

"Bella!" he barked into the phone, "Where the hell have you been. I been calling you for an hour and now you decide to call me back!" he practically screeched into the phone.

"Jake, I was in class. What's going on is everything ok?" I was nervous because he'd never blown my phone up like that before.

"Nothing's wrong but when I call my girlfriend I expect her to answer" he growled.

"Well I was in class so I couldn't really answer the phone Jake. But I called you back so calm down."

"Well it would have been nice for you to tell me that, don't you think?"

I gave my phone a confused look. "Jake why would I need to tell you when my classes are?"

"So that I know when to call you. How are we supposed to talk if I don't know what you're doing?

"Well for one, I shouldn't need to tell you where I'm going all the time because you should trust me" at least we could discuss the trust issue right now. That was good.

"I just worry about you Bella. I don't want anything to happen and when you didn't answer I panicked. I do trust you" the irritation was gone, and a sad tone was replaced.

"Jake, I'm fine. Thank you for worrying but I can handle what's going on. You don't have to call a million times. I'll call you back when I get some time."

"Oh so now I have to be scheduled into your schedule? What the hell kind of relationship is that?"

"Jake I didn't mean it like that, I just meant that if I don't answer you I must be doing something important to I call you back after I'm done." I tried to reason with him, but every answer I gave him just fueled his anger.

"Oh ok so now I'm not important enough for you to answer the phone? Is that it?"

He was turning everything around and confusing me. "You are important Jake, but I'm paying a lot of money to do well, so I need to be able to pay attention in class and do my homework. It's important to me too now, just like your cars are important to you."

I saw that my next class would be starting soon so I need to end this discussion now before we started screaming at each other.

"I have to go to my next class, so I'll call you later ok?"

"Yup, whenever you find time just let me know" he said sarcastically.

"Alright, I'm already sick of the attitude Jake so cool off and I'll talk to you later, bye"

"What now you can't even say I love you either?"

I don't know why he has to be so damn difficult! "I love you " I was taking deep breaths to calm myself down.

"Yea I'm sure you do" Click.

He fucking hung up on me that asshole. I hated when he hung up on me let alone make me feel like I was doing something wrong, when I wasn't.

I turned my phone to silent and grabbed my bag to leave. I left the cottage and started walking in the direction on my next class.