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The rest of the week went by in a rush of classes, assignments and finding time in between to call Jake. He was still sore about me calling him when I have a chance but I couldn't let my homework slide. If I got behind now, I would stay behind the whole semester. I wish he would just understand he's not the only thing in my life. I didn't see much of Alice this week. Her classes seemed to be during my free time and vis versa. Really the only time I saw her was when she came back to the room to sleep. I didn't see Edward all week either, which put my stomach in knots for some reason. I'm sure he was busy with classes and stuff so I tried not to think about him.

Beep Beep Beep

I looked away from my computer screen and at my phone sitting next to me on the desk. I knew who it was from and what it would say so I was in no rush to answer the message. I wiped my hand down my face in frustration. Jake. He texts me every day all day with a never ending supply of things to tell me. I don't think I've ever used my phone as much as I have this week. It's been four days since I saw him and he has officially replaced his physical presence with a mental one and it was driving me crazy already. I'm going to have to talk to him about needing some time to myself during the day.

I opened the phone to read the message.

What are you doing? –J

Yup. This is the jist of his messages. Next will be the who are you with, when will you call, how much longer til you call, when are you calling.

I'm doing some homework. I need to get it done for tomorrow. –B

I slid the last part in hoping he would understand that I need to do it without interruptions.

Bells, it's ben 2 hr and u still not done? Will I even talk w/ u tonite? –J

Guess the whole I need to get my shit done went right over his head. I kind of wish he could see what I had to do, Accounting isn't easy for fucks sake.

Jake, the sooner I get this done, the sooner I can call you. Let me be for a bit and I'll finish up, k? –B

Ok not so subtle, but maybe he will get the hint.

Watever Bella. Guess we will talke when you feel like it. Bye.-J

I hated when he dismissed me like that, but if it will keep him from texting me for a bit I'll let it slide. I put my phone down and got back to crunching numbers.

It's been two hours without interruptions and finally I was done all my homework. I know I told Jake I would call him after I finished my accounting, but I decided to take advantage of the space he kind of gave me, even though I know he's pist….

I stood up from my desk and stretched. My ass was numb, and my legs were all tingly from sitting so long. I took a deep breath and walked over to my wardrobe to put some pjs on. Alice was still not back yet so I figured she was staying with Jasper again which means I get to argue with Jake without trying to hide it from Alice. She hasn't been around yet while I've been on the phone with Jake and if the conversations keep going on as they are, I know we're going to have a fight. It's pathetic when you just know you're going to fight with your boyfriend because you haven't had one lately. It's like they're o a time schedule, like if we don't have one then something's wrong. I hate it. I hate knowing were going to fight which is why I delay them as long as possible.

I grabbed my phone off my desk wanting to just get the phone call over with. I threw myself on my bed in a huff, staring at my ceiling with a scowl. I dialed Jake's number and got into the mindset to defend my actions tonight just like I do every night.

"Hello?"

"Hey Jake…."

"Hi….."

Silence. Complete silence from both sides, but this is how it always started.

"What are you doing Jake?"

"Just woke up." Ok. I guess I'll just have to pry a conversation out of him if he's going to be short wit h me.

"Oh, you took a nap?"

"yup. Nothing else to do." And there's the first jab to the stomach. I swear his favorite pass time was to guilt me about everything.

"Oh. Did you sleep ok?"

"Nope, got woken up a few times by the boys texting me, but hey at least someone does." There's number two…. the guilt thing is getting old fast and I try to bite my tongue from taking the bait.

"Look, Jake I think we need to talk about some stuff…." He's pissy anyway, might as well talk to him about the space issue now.

"Umm ok. What?" Now he's a little more interested in what I have to say. I can tell by his tone changing an octave.

"ok so I know your mad about me not calling you earlier when you wanted me to, but I need you realize that I have to get my work done for my classes and I can't do that if were texting and calling all day long." I grimaced, waiting for the backlash…..

"Are you telling me that your school work is more important than talking to your boyfriend Bella?" he said this slowly but I could hear him shaking in anger; could see his face turning red.

"Jake, you know your important to me but you also know my education's important too. If I don't do well in my classes then what was the point of going to school in the first place?"

"Honestly? I don't really know why your there in the first place." Was he really this clueless?

" I'm here because I want an education! I want to be able to get a decent job so we can have things we want in life. I want to be here and that alone should be enough of a reason."

"Bella, I have a job. You had a job before you left. We would have been fine and I don't know why you would want to be there when you could be home with me! You don't want to be here with me, is that it? You think you're better than me because you're going to college?"

"I don't think I'm better than anyone and you know I like being home with you. I just told you that I want an education so why can't you respect me and the things that are important to me? It's all about you and what is good for you in life. Well I'm not satisfied with the sporting goods store! I want a real job that makes me happy, and means something." By now I was sitting up in my bed, fists clenched around my blankets and I was screaming at him. Why couldn't he just get it that I have wants and needs in life and an education is a need to me.

"Whatever Bella. I know the real reason you love that fucking school so much and it's the distance you get from me. I don't know what I did to make you want to be so far away from me but you can fucking keep it!"

Click.

Yup. Knew that was coming. Asshole hangs up on me constantly. Most people would be bothered by his last statement but it doesn't phase me anymore. He thinks I'm going to call him back and beg him to stay with him and tell I'm sorry but I won't. I never do yet he continues to think his trick works. Just gives me time to think about everything that was said and regroup for round two.

I know one thing. I'm not leaving school for him. I put my foot down at that. This is something that I have wanted and I won't be a pushover. I have even cut my schooling by two years so he can deal with this for two years. But do I really want to be doing this for the next two years? The fighting, and the stress….I'm going to have pressure from my classes, I don't need pressure from him too.

Buzz Buzz Buzz

I took another deep breath as I answered my phone.

"Hello" I managed to say through clenched teeth.

"Hey" Jake sounded calmer than before. Maybe he'll listen better now.

"Listen Jake…." I had an assertive edge in my voice. "I can't have all this stress from our fights. I just can't handle it for the next two years so you're going to have to get used to me being here and needing time to do my work. You go do whatever you need to do whenever you want. I don't expect you to be at my becking call and you shouldn't expect me to be around every time you need something. If I have things to do then respect that and the time I need to myself. If I can get my shit done during the day, we can talk at night before you go to work."

I was light headed from getting everything I wanted to say out in one long sentence. I closed my eyes and took a couple of deep breaths. I waited but he didn't say anything or even acknowledge that I had said something to him.

"Jake?"

"Yea…" he didn't sound very happy but I didn't expect him to be. I normally wasn't one to stick up for what I wanted so this was something that probably shocked him.

"Ok so I guess you can just call me when you have time, that way I'm not interrupting you during the day." Wow. He came up with that all by himself? Huh, didn't know you had a compromising bone in you Jake.

"I have to go work. Talk to you some time. Bye." The dial tone rang through my ear. He didn't even wait to hear me say goodbye. Did I mention I hate being dismissed like that? Fucking pisses me off yet he always does it.

I laid on my bed staring up at the ceiling wondering how I came to be in a relationship with a control freak, who analyzes everything I do and say and looks at life through a negative scope. I knew his characteristics would get worse when I went to college but I hope he learns to except that I'm here and doing this; for me.

My brain hurt from the extensive amount of homework I completed and the mini fight I had with Jake. Yes, that was just a mini fight. I fear the worst is yet to come. He doesn't know about the new friends I have in my life. I got off my bed and pulled the blanket down. I walked over and switched off the lights. As I laid there in bed, I felt that reverberating loss wash through me from not seeing Edward at all this week. I knew this feeling was a dangerous one, yet my heart couldn't help but feel a pang within it.

I woke earlier than normal the next morning. Maybe because it was Friday and I was going to be driving home today which made me kind of happy. I'd be seeing Charlie and Jake in a few hours, but until then I packed all my clothes up and cleaned the room a bit. I still had two hours before my first class even started. I plopped myself in my computer chair and placed my chin in my hand with a sigh. I glanced to my right and saw some of Alice's clothing hanging out of one of her drawers. It was one of the many track suits she wore to the gym. The gym….Sounds like a good place to work off some pent up energy I had running through me at the moment.

I changed into some black yoga pants, a sports bra and an old t-shirt. I grabbed by sneakers from under my bed, my Ipod from its charger and a water bottle from the mini fridge Alice has. I donned a light jacket and made sure I had my room key with me as I left.

The gym was five minutes away from my dorm so the walk was quick. As I entered the gym I took off my jacket and hung it on one of the coat racks. I slowly walked through the maze of weight machines toward the treadmills, which were placed in front of a gigantic bay window. I stepped up onto one and began fiddling with the machine, trying to figure out how to start the dame thing. I had my ear buds in place and as I was listening to some Lincoln Park to get me pumped up. I felt a light tap on my shoulder. From the moment I felt the touch an electric current sent goose bumps down my arm and made me shiver, so I have no fucking clue why I was surprised.

"Fuck!" I gasped as I clutched my hand over my heart.

"This uhh….little button here is the START button."