Anybody out there? ***peeks from behind the couch***

I know its been a really long time since I updated but hopefully I'll be to do so more now that I have graduated and the job hunt is over woohoo! so Hope, if there is anyone still reading my work that you enjoy the new chapter :)

Sammy

My heart began to race as I looked up into Edward's emerald green orbs. Its been too long since I last saw him and now all I could do was stare. After what felt like years, but in reality was maybe seconds, I began to remember where we were and that he had said something. I finally tore my eyes from his and glanced at the now operating machine.

"Thanks, I probably would have been here all morning looking for that green button" I managed to say without stuttering. I kept my head down and away from his attractive gaze because I knew if I met it again I wouldn't be able to turn away twice.

My plan was then shattered with his next move. Edward lightly slid his fingers along my jaw until he was gently cupping my face. His touch alone ignited a pleasantly warm sensation to flow along my jaw, but his voice sent butterflies soaring throughout my body. "Anytime Bella," he whispered as he softly lifted my jaw so I met his gaze. The emotion I found pouring from him made me gasped because I could imagine my face was portraying the same thing.

So many silent questions were answered during this intimate exchange. I knew in that moment that he felt something for me as I felt it for him. I could see that he wanted more, and I know he felt how I was holding my body back from falling into his. We both also knew that this, what was happening between us, could not be explored because I wasn't his to discover.

His facial featured turned sad as he pulled his hand away from my face, effectively extinguishing the sensation coursing through me. He quickly replaced his frown with a smirk, which only caused heat to flood another area of mine. God I haven't felt that sensation in so fucking long it almost sent me on my ass.

"So, were you going to run this morning or just watch the machine run for you?" he teased as he hopped onto the treadmill next to mine. I groaned inside as I realized he would be running right next to me. I silently hoped my feet wouldn't work against me today. I watched his back muscles flex through the white, cutoff sleeve shirt he was wearing as he fiddled with the buttons. His leg muscles were well defined as he began to walk.

Again my inner thoughts kept me from answering him. "I was getting there. Someone was distracting me" I shot back as I stepped up, carefully avoiding the already moving track. I took a deep breath and jumped onto the track, quickly moving in sync with the machine. Thank you god! I noticed Edward was slowly jogging now and alight sheen of sweat was building along his brow. I tried to focus on the scenery outside, but the view next to me was more captivating. The way his legs carried him so gracefully. His chest was heaving from the burn in his lungs. But the flush covering his cheeks was the sexiest thing I've ever seen.

I turned my machine up higher so I would concentrate on keeping up with the pace. We ran together, enjoying the easy silence that fell over us. I found that in his presence, I didn't need to say anything. I was comfortable just being. I saw him glance at me in my peripheral and couldn't help but smile. I felt bold in that moment and looked over to him, meeting his awaiting eyes and he too smiled his crooked grin.

I looked at the time and cursed. I didn't expect to stay this long at the gym. I slowed my pace to which Edward noticed and followed suit. I caught my breath as I walked and chugged my water. The sweat made me feel nasty, but Edward was glorious, covered in the hot, sticky substance. I wet my lips at the thought of licking the salty excretion from his delicious skin. I shoved that thought away before it led somewhere I shouldn't even be thinking about.

"Leaving so soon?" He asked as he wiped down the used machine.

"Yea I have to shower and get ready for class."

I watched as Edward's eyes glazed over and his face became intense with an emotion at my confession. He cleared his throat, "oh alright, well it was nice to see you again. Maybe I'll get to see you here again tomorrow, same time?" He asked with a wince and ran his hand through his hair. He was nervous, like I would say no. All I wanted to do was say yes, but I was about to disappoint him. Again.

"I'm actually leaving today after my classes. I go home on the weekends." I mumbled, hoping he wouldn't hear me, but of course he did.

"Oh…right. I umm…hope you have a good weekend then." He turned to walk away and I felt constricted with every step he took.

"Eh-edward" I stuttered quickly.

He half turned toward me with a defensive look. He was already anticipating my next words to cut him again because that's all I seemed to do to him.

"Monday.'' I said with hope. I was determined to make him smile again. "I'll be back here Monday, same time."

"Monday" he mimicked and that dazzling smile broke across his face. I couldn't stop a smile cracking across my face as well. I finally said something to make him happy, to make him smile at me.

"k, goodbye Edward." I turned to grab my coat.

"Goodbye is too final Bella. See you soon."

An hour later I was showered, dressed and on my way to class. I was listening to my I pod and thinking about what I just told Edward. Monday…..I said I'd be back Monday….same time….same place….I'm an idiot. I shook my head as that thought ran across my mind. Why did I tell him I'd be back? I told myself to stay away and not make friends. So why the hell am I going to work out with the one guy who could cause me so many problems? There is no denying that I feel something for Edward, which is exactly why I should be avoiding him, but no I go and make dates with him. Wait….date? Oh god…..it's practically a date! He'd be there, I'd be there, same place, same time and it was predetermined by both of us….shit…I made a date with Edward Cullen and for some reason that made me smile.

My smile was quickly removed. What the hell am I doing. I have a fucking boyfriend and yet I'm meeting up to workout in skimpy workout clothing with a hot ass guy who will be glistening with sweat. Fuck….what am I going to do? I cant just not show up, that would be rude. It's not his fault I'm a complete idiot. I mean it feels like a date but it isn't necessarily a date is it? Two people who happen to be in a public place at the same time. There's nothing wrong with that. I'm fine, everything's fine. I would attend the gym at seven am Monday morning and Tuesday morning and probably for the rest of the week because it'll be a good start to the day. Not because an Adonis would happen to be there.

Class went by slowly because I was so hyped up from this morning's events and the thoughts of going home today. I couldn't wait to see Charlie and take a break from my new college life. I do want to see Jake, I just hope he understands I need to see Charlie first.

I went back to my room and packed up my laundry to take home and wash. I packed my computer, I Pod and wallet into my backpack. I grabbed my keys and phone and was off to find my truck to make the two hour drive to Forks. As I began my journey I thought about having to make this trip every weekend. Gas alone is going to deplete what savings I have. I'll need to find an on campus job during the week. Jake's the only reason I agreed to come home every weekend faithfully because he threw a fit when I told him I would be staying at school most weekends.

"Bella, are you fucking kidding me?" he screeched at me, throwing his arms away from his body and huffing like a five year old.

"Jake, I can't come home every weekend, I don't have the gas money to drive back and forth for the whole year" I tried to reason with him in a calm voice.

"It's bad enough your two hours away from me and I can't see you every day, but now you're taking away my weekends too? We wont have time for just us anymore. What kind of relationship is that Bella huh? It's like I won't even have a girlfriend anymore because she'll never be around. The least you could do is come home on the weekends after choosing to be away from me."

"Jake, listen to yourself, don't you think your being a little selfish? I'm trying to make this work for us but your not compromising here!

"Bella, for the next two years, I'll be compromising! We should be starting our lives but no, you had to run off to college, meet new people and all that shit. Why is this so important you huh? Do you wanna be away from me is that it?"

"No Jake I don't want to be away but I always told myself I would go to college even before we began dating and nobody is making you wait around Jake. If you want to take a break while I'm in school I understand."

"Now you want to take a break from me too! This is just great, first you wanna see me every two weeks, now you want to break up!" He began to advance toward me with a murderous face. I began to back up as he continued toward me but my back was to the wall.

"Ok ok it was just a suggestion Jake I was throwing it out there. We won't take a break" I tried to reason with him and explain my thoughts but he slammed his fists on either side of my head making me jump and tears began to flow down my face. This was the first time he ever scared me in such away.

"I'll get a job" I yelled. "on campus, that should pay for the gas I need" I said.

"he pushed off the wall and backup a bit looking at me with a furrowed brow.

"Good." Was all he said as he turned and walked away.

Remembering that horrible day reminds me that I need to get on the road to make it home in two hours or else he'll be pist about what took me so long and begin accusing me of shit.

As I hopped into my truck and put my bags on the bench next to me, my heart began to ach. I turned my truck on, backed out of the parking spot and began the journey home. As the school buildings became smaller, the ach on my chest increased as I thought about who I was leaving behind, and who I was headed too.