Chapter 2 Your beautiful

"Why are you always doubting yourself? "He asked as he nibbled on my ear. "I don't know I've always just been me. Plain, overweight, boring, ugly old me. "

"Don't do that, Bella. Please don't do that I think you are way more than that. Bella you do things to me that no one ever has before. I know I'm young but still I've had a few girlfriends that I thought I loved and the feeling for them is nothing like what I am feeling right now for you."

I felt the tears well up in my eyes and I tried to look away but he caught my chin and made me look up into his eyes. "Beautiful" was all he said before he started kissing me and pulling me over to his bed.

Edward laid me down and kissed every inch of my not perfect body, but he made me feel perfect. I felt the chills run up and down my spine. All I wanted was for him to be with me, to feel me to be inside of me.

I didn't have to wait long; he kissed my neck and started rubbing my chest. My breast fit into his hands like nothing I have ever felt before. Edward kissed me with feverish need and I returned it as he slid into me I gasped at the feel of him, of it.

For some wrong reason and I know in my head that it is wrong but my body and my heart screamed differently that Edward and I together this way was right and I felt complete for the first time in my life.

A different kind of complete then being a mother, this feeling has nothing to do with that. It was a woman thing and in all my 35 years I had never felt it before.

Edward has soft and slow and he did everything right. I was so close to my release when he told me that he wanted us to cum together and then he pressed deeper and all coherent thoughts left me and I screamed his name as we came together.

We laid there holding each other for a while and I smiled at him and thanked him. He just kissed my hair and said no thanks needed that it is what he wanted too.

Then he asked me to take another shower with him as that crooked smile creped across his face again.

I smiled and kissed his sweat cover face and body and got to go into my shower. Edward followed me and all he was wearing was a smile, his beautiful smile.

I turned the shower on and we climbed in. At first he just held me and kissed me softly but that was just the start. I needed to feel him , I wanted to feel him and I didn't want it soft or sweet.

"Edward, "I said "Yes my lover" he whispered back. " I want you now, fuck me and do it hard." I didn't have to ask twice.

He grabbed my hair and bends me over and he plunged into me full force over and over again. This was heaven and I can't believe it is happening to me. I was screaming his name when I came the first time and the second time I was about blessed out of my mind when he bites me when he comes.

We slide down to the floor and just set there holding each other till we hear Jake calling my name.

"I'm in the shower honey I'll be out in a few minutes." I answered him back. "Mom have you seen Edward, his car is still here but I can't find him?" Jake asked.

I looked up at Edward and he kissed me and said to "tell him that I took a walk to clear my head so that I could think about the next verse of your song, I mean our new song". My song I mouthed and he smiled at me and shock his head yes.

So I told Jake what Edward had told me to tell him and Jake told me that he and Jessica would be out in the garage waiting on him if he comes back.

"You heard right "I said to Edward. He smiled and kissed me again. "This isn't over lover; we will pick this up again." Edward says before he kisses me again hard and long and winks slaps my ass and gets out of the shower.

I wash my hair and my body and climb out of the shower, it's about time for Em to be home and he will expect dinner when he gets here. I sat down and comb my hair out in front of my mirror.

I should be sad or even feel bad, but I couldn't bring myself to. What did that say about me? I rubbed my vanilla noel bean lotion (which is my favorite) all over my body and got dress, thinking about all the ways Edward had touched me.

I think I felt my panties getting wet just thinking about his mouth on me. Stop it Bella, I told myself, even if he said it wasn't a onetime thing I'm sure it was.

Why would such a good looking young guy wanta be with someone like me? I walked into the kitchen and got the hamburger out to start my homemade spaghetti for dinner.

To my surprise Edward is seating at the bar writing in his music note book. I smile at him and he smiles back before he starts writing again. My heart does a little back flip and I can't wipe away the smile plastered on my face.

"Mom can Jess stay for dinner too?" Jake asked as he walked in the kitchen. "Sure honey that would be fine." I answered.

"Mom are you having a good day? I have never seen you look so happy before?" Jake asked. Before I could answer Edward did. I turned and looked at him hoping that he wouldn't tell my son that he and I had just had sex not more than an hour ago.

He smiled his crooked smile at me and winked then said "Jake, your mom has had a good day, I told her we would write her a song and sing it for her."

"Really Eddy that is so cool, mom I'm so happy that makes you happy, you put up with so much shit that you shouldn't have to put up with." Jake said.

"Jacob, you should watch your language when you are talking to your mother. Beside she doesn't have to put up with any shit. I'm the one who has to work all the time when she gets the summers off." Emmett said.

Jake just rolled his eyes and looked at Edward and they both headed to the living room to play the ps3 and hang with Jessica.

"Emmett, don't be so hard on Jake" it was all I said. You would have thought I said something along the lines of "shut the hell up, you ass." "Bella, I'm not in the mood for your shit tonight. Forget dinner I'm going out with some friends, don't wait up." Emmett said as he stormed out of the house and tore out of the driveway like we has on fire and his life was in danger.

(Edward's pov)

What an ass Emmett is. He has this amazing wife and all he does is act like such a dick. If Bella was mine, if I should say when I make her mine, she would never feel less than perfect.

I have been hitting on her for months and I didn't think I was getting anywhere. I was attracted to her from the first time Jake asked me over here. He was in 9th grade then and I was in 11.

My mind keeps going back to this afternoon; I have wanted to touch Bella for a long time. When today everything seemed to open up and fall into my lap, I thought what the hell Edward it's now or never.

So I balled up and decided that I couldn't wait any longer I had to know what she tasted like, what she felt like.

I talked Jake into go over and spending some alone time with Jessica, it wasn't very hard. I told him I would just take a walk and work on our new song some more. Maybe even grab some lunch while I was out.

So I slipped into her bathroom and watched as she masturbated in the shower. I knew then it was my chance and I was hoping that she wouldn't send me away, or make me move out. Bella is all I think about, besides my music.

She is the only girl no woman I have jacked off to since the first time I saw her. Jake and Jasper and even Ali have tried to get me to hook up with random girls and none of them was Bella. And now today she is going o be my Bella.

So I climbed into the shower and wrapped my arms around her. My member got hard right away, hit it was hard before I had my arms around her.

Kissing Bella's neck was the best feeling ever or at least till she pulled my hair and kissed my lips hard. I knew then that my world was never going to be the same and that Bella Swan had to be mine.

Bella dropped down to her knees and wrapped her hands around my member and then she put it into her mouth. With her free hand she started to massage my balls and if I wasn't holding on I would have fell to my knees.

I have never been with a woman before and I have never received a blow job before either but I knew this was the best one ever. She drew me closer to my release and I screamed her name as I came and Bella swallowed it all.

I pulled her up and kissed her, I tried to put all my lust and all my almost love (I'm not sure what else to call it. Do I love her, maybe do I want her hell yeah more then I want air to breathe) into that kiss.

She had to know, she had to feel it, and she had to feel me. I told her I wanted to make love to her and I knew I did more now than I had before.

I didn't even care if Jake came home or Emmett, I would show them that she fits with me like the lost piece of a puzzle. I kissed her again and picked her up to carry her to my bed.

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