Insight
Connected to Usagi's thoughts during Stars
I can't remember the last time I was content
I know I can't stay like this forever
It hurts to think I'm going to change
I don't know why I've put myself into this rut
I can't even remember how it happened
It hurts to think I've been hurting myself
I can't believe this is who I am
I don't know who I've turned into
It hurts to think I've broken my last resolve
I can't help but try and fix myself
I keep trying to find my inner beauty
It hurts to think there never was any
I try to face myself in the mirror
I try to tell myself I can find help
It hurts to think my self-loathing is rising
I wish I could change the past
I don't know why I made such stupid choices
It hurts to think I knew what I was doing
I know I am unworthy of love or approval
I know I am and always will be a wreck
It hurts to know how much insight I have.
Written January 9/09. Free periods sometimes let your mind wander and somehow disperse onto paper. Who'da thunk.