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Hermione couldn't believe that this was actually happening. She was kissing Lupin, actually kissing the guy she liked. Her arms were placed around his neck, his soft, warm skin, making her feel tingly. She could feel his hands pressed against her back, holding her to him, and his warm, soft, lips pressing against hers. She felt like she was going to squeal with happiness, and she half wanted to, just to make sure she wasn't' just dreaming.
Hermione smiled bigger than she had in a while. She was focusing on Lupin's eyes, which were starring right back at her with the sort of adoration that she had eagerly waited to see him look at her with. Lupin smiled back at her and Hermione could not help but giggle. She was happier than she had been in a long time, and she was not willing to let go of Lupin's neck, almost as if she feared that if she did, the moment would be gone. It would all be a dream. And if it was a dream, she at the very very least wanted it to last for a little while longer.
"That was . . ." Hermione drifted off, smiling at Lupin, and giggling. Lupin nodded and smiled back at her. There was a glint of that guilt in his eyes again that Hermione had seen earlier and Hermione nodded as if to assure him that it was what she really wanted.
" . . .Wonderful." Lupin said quietly. "I ugh . .. I thought all those little hints you were giving me . . .all the times you were flirting . . .I thought I had just made it up in my head. I never thought you'd actually . . .like me." Lupin chuckled lightly.
"So you did pick up on them? I didn't know if you just thought I was being inappropriate…stupid." Hermione added quietly and slightly embarrassed.
"You're never stupid Hermione." Lupin said quietly. Hermione smiled. "I just…was… reluctant to act I guess. I didn't want to be wrong."
"Wrong about what, me liking you? I could barely speak without stuttering when I was near you, I turned red, and those two mornings that I almost fell down the stairs and spilled my juice . . .did you really think that I just wasn't a good morning person?" Hermione smiled.
Lupin shook his head. "I guess I kind of knew." Hermione nodded. "But I just couldn't really believe it. A beautiful, young, smart girl, why would you like me? I was cautious to act because I thought I was only getting my hopes up."
Hermione smiled. "I can tell you why I'd like you. You're brave and caring and smart and kind and chivalrous and thoughtful and modest and funny and protective and courageous and . . ." Hermione giggled. "Do I have to keep going? You're a great guy, Remus,"
Lupin smiled. Demonstrating the modesty that Hermione had mentioned. He gestured to the couch were they had both just been sitting and Hermione sat down. Lupin sat next to her.
"We should talk about . . ." Lupin gestured to Hermione and then to himself. "this . . .us."
Hermione smiled. Us. He had said us. Her stomach felt all fluttery and jittery and she felt the urge to squeal. "Okay." She said as calmly as she could. She wanted to try this relationship and given how Lupin had been kissing her back for a few minutes, Hermione guessed that he would want to try it as well as her. She still couldn't really believe that she had just kissed Lupin. Now they were sitting next to each other on the couch talking about their relationship. Their relationship.
"I ugh . . . I'm willing to just . . .if you change you're mind. I'll understand. I'll cover for you . . .I'll try to restore our relationship as friends." Lupin said quietly.
Hermione sighed. "Remus I'm not going to. I don't want to be just friends anymore." Hermione smiled and patted his leg with her hand. "I want to try this."
Lupin sighed out but looked happy, almost relieved. Lupin placed his hand over Hermione's and interlocked his fingers. "Okay . . .me too."
Hermione felt her stomach flutter. Did Lupin really just say that? He wanted a relationship with her? What? Hermione could feel the smile on her face getting bigger, she was happier than she had been in a long time, happier than she had ever felt before. "Great." She laughed.
Lupin smiled. "I ugh . . .don't know what you're looking for . . .a fling . .. a serious relationship"
Hermione smiled. "I don't want this to be some quick fling. I really want to try this. I think this could be something really…." Hermione smiled and giggled.
Lupin nodded and smiled at Hermione who was smiling at him. "I agree." Lupin then closed his eyes tightly and sighed as if he had just remembered something that had been on his mind before he kissed Hermione, and had simply left during his pleasure and happiness of kissing her.
"What?" Hermione asked somewhat worried. She didn't want him to change his mind. She thought she had finally managed to convince him that she wanted this relationship and she didn't mind how old or poor he was or what a dangerous person he could be.
"We . . ." Lupin was quiet for a few seconds as if he was thinking best how to word what he was about to tell Hermione. "Can't do this."
Hermione sighed again. "Remus….I already told you." She said a little annoyed. "That I don't mind how old you are-"
"That's not why." Lupin said and he looked almost sad. Lupin shrugged and shook his head. "I completely forgot when I was kissing you because I had wanted it for such a long time that I just let myself enjoy it, but"
Hermione felt her cheeks blush at Lupin. He had wanted to kiss her for a long time? Hermione smiled at him and leaned in to give him a kiss. Lupin, however, pulled away, reluctantly breaking his hand contact with Hermione too, and crossing his arms across his chest.
Hermione was confused. Lupin had just been kissing her. He had just agreed that he would be interested in a serious relationship. What was the problem now? Hermione felt tears starting to sting her eyes. She was so close to having a relationship with Lupin, and he was going to back out.
"We can't do this." Lupin said again, a little more forcefully, although Hermione heard his voice break. "I'm really sorry, Hermione."
Hermione shook her head and quickly wiped a tear out of her eye. "What do you mean?" She said and Lupin seeing her wipe a tear out of her eye sighed and looked to her with sad eyes. Why was he doing this? Why was he going to back out now? Hermione thought he wanted this too. Lupin had said he wanted it too, and it still seemed to Hermione that he did. 'I'm sorry' didn't sound like he didn't want it. And then Hermione thought back to what Sirius had said. Maybe Lupin was just doubting himself again, trying to convince himself he didn't deserve what he wanted.
"The job that I just took" Lupin said slowly. "We can't be…" Lupin gestured toward himself and then to Hermione, "well…..whatever we are trying to be."
"A couple?" Hermione said somewhat angrily, but her anger may not have come across as strong as she had meant because she sniffed and wiped another tear out of her eye. She could feel herself about to burst into tears. Lupin wasn't like some crush she had had on some boy. Lupin was different because she legitimately thought she loved him.
Lupin closed his lips tightly and nodded sadly. Lupin shrugged and sighed. "We can't. It's not allowed."
Hermione shook her head. "I don't…understand".
"My job" Lupin started but Hermione cut him off.
"What job is it! Why can't you have a…." Hermione hesitated before saying, "girlfriend." She liked calling herself Lupin's girlfriend. It wasn't like she had been expecting them to go out right then and there and make it an exclusive relationship, but she wasn't expecting Lupin to say that he felt the same way and then tell her they couldn't have a relationship either.
"Because I will be teaching at Hogwarts." Lupin said quickly. "And you will be a student Hermione." Lupin added and he looked to Hermione.
Hermione was quiet for a few seconds. Lupin didn't say anything either. So Hermione had finally told Lupin that she liked him. She had managed the courage to tell him that she wanted to be in a relationship with him, and she had been so happy that he had said he had the same feelings. Lupin had said he would like to try a relationship with her too and the two were talking about the details of what they wanted their relationship to be. Serious. Well, this was certainly serious. Seriously disappointing. Hermione wanted to cry. She wouldn't be able to have a relationship with Lupin because she would be his student. Hermione wiped at her eyes.
"What" Hermione said. "You're going to be my . . ." Hermione's voice trailed off.
"Professor. Yes, Hermione." Lupin said as he shook his head. "We can't have a romantic relationship. It's against the rules, it's inappropriate, it's not allowed."
"I don't care" Hermione said quickly and before she had really thought about saying it. "I don't care." She said it again and felt a little more confident. She had never really broken the rules before, only with Harry and Ron on a few times but that had been to hunt horcruxes. She was willing now to break the rules. This was worth it.
"Hermione" Lupin said, his eyes widening, his mouth starting to form what may look like a smile, and his brows furrowed in confusion. "I would never do that to you. I would never do…..take advantage of you." Lupin added the last bit as if it were gross to say.
"Take advantage of me?" Hermione asked in a high voice that seemed to almost be a laugh. "You wouldn't be taking advantage of me. I'm willing to do this. I want to do this." Hermione wanted Lupin to say that he was willing to break the rules too. She wanted Lupin to tell her that they would be able to have a relationship and it did not matter that he would be her teacher at Hogwarts. However, the way Lupin looked to her with sad eyes she knew he wasn't going to say that.
"We can't, Hermione. We can't. I'll be your Professor it wouldn't be…." Lupin trailed.
Hermione shook her head again. "Remus, I want to have a relationship with you."
Lupin looked at her and placed his hand back on her leg before he quickly took it off, as if thinking better of it. "I want this too. I wanted this too." Hermione cringed at his use of the past tense. She didn't know that the usage of a certain tense could hurt her so badly. "But not now. It's not going to work now. I'm sorry."
Hermione starred at Lupin. If she could only make him see that she didn't mind him being her teacher. Hermione looked to Lupin with eyes that begged him to understand how she was feeling. Lupin looked to her, shrugged so little that she barely saw it, and tightened his lips before sighing again. "I'm sorry."
Hermione shrugged angrily and disappointedly. "So what now?" She asked. "We just forget about this kiss?" Hermione sniffed and wiped a tear from her face. "We just forget about this chemistry? We just forget that we have feelings for each other?" Hermione looked to Lupin who was looking at her sadly. "We just forget what we felt together. And don't deny it Remus, I know you felt it too." Hermione said pointing a finger at him. "The way our lips tingled when we kissed, the way our body's felt warm when we connected, the way we were so happy kissing, the way it felt so right to have me pressed up against you and you against me-"
Hermione had been about to say something else but found Lupin's lips against hers. Lupin was kissing her passionately his hand on the back of Hermione's head and the other on her back pulling her closer to him. Hermione wrapped her hands around his neck and pulled herself closer to Lupin. Hermione was letting her tongue into Lupin's mouth and Lupin's was in her mouth. Hermione let out a soft moan and Lupin pulled away.
"I did feel it. And I'm not telling you to forget. I'm not telling you to even wait." Lupin wiped a tear off of Hermione's face. "But I'm telling you that I will. I am willing to wait a year for you. For us. But if you do not want to, I can not blame you. I'm sure you can find another man out there who would be willing to have you. You're a wonderful girl Hermione."
Hermione didn't know what to say. Lupin was going to wait for her. If she wasn't so disappointed that they could not have a relationship right there because of his job at Hogwarts, then she would have probably broken down at the romantic ness of him. Hermione managed a smile.
"I'll wait if I have to. Because I don't want anyone else but you." Hermione said.
"Hermione" Lupin started almost sounding as if he wished she'd think it through and maybe find another guy. "I want you to be happy."
"I will be happy. When I'm with you." Hermione said. "If you're going to wait for me, I'm going to wait until I can have you too."
Lupin smiled and so did Hermione. "We probably shouldn't tell anyone of what we did, or discussed then, should we?" Hermione asked.
Lupin shrugged. "It probably wouldn't be the best idea."
Hermione nodded somewhat reluctantly. "Alright."
Lupin nodded. "Alright."
Hermione and Lupin had a look in their eyes that said that they wanted to be with each other. Hermione smiled at Lupin and Lupin smiled back at her. Hermione gave Lupin a hug and held tightly to his back. "Can we at least kiss one more time before we have to pretend?"
Lupin nodded. "I was just going to suggest the same thing, Hermione."
Hermione smiled at him. "Let's make it a good one."
Lupin smiled at her. "A great one." Lupin said as he pressed Hermione against him tightly. She wrapped her arms around his back and neck and pressed him tightly to her as she pulled herself closer. Lupin placed a hand on the back of Hermione's head and was working his tongue deep into her mouth. Hermione was trying to push her lips as hard as she could against Lupin's and put her hands on the back of his head in order to push Lupin's mouth closer to hers. They kissed for a few minutes. It was a deep, long, hard, strong kiss, and when Hermione felt Lupin pulling away she sighed.
It certainly was a great kiss. Lupin was a great kisser and Hermione wanted to kiss him again. She didn't want to go to Hogwarts and have him go to Hogwarts. She wanted to stay at Grimmauld Place with Lupin and kiss him and get to know him and talk to him.
"Until June" Lupin said somewhat hesitantly as he placed his hand on Hermione's leg.
"Until June" Hermione said disappointedly as she placed her hand on his thinking to herself that it was going to be a long eight months.
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