Hey everyone! Hope everything's okay with you guys and that you're still enjoying my story! :D

OO OO OO

Sasuke groaned. "it's not working!" he shouted in frustration and threw a kunai into a near tree hoping to relief some anger. Naruto snickered. "you just need to be patient, Sasuke. I will come back at you."

"No, it doesn't. We've been training for an hour or two and not even a hint of red!" the raven pulled the kunai out of the tree with just a little too much force, causing a piece of bark almost to hit his eye. Naruto grabbed the man quickly by his shoulder, shushing him and saving the innocent, scared to death, tree. "Come on Sasuke, first of all. You've got to relax. I don't think it works if you're stressed and tensed like that."

The blond turned Sasuke around to face him and took a dramatic deep breath, smiling at Sasuke in hope to motivate the man to do the same. Said man gave him a glare and then turned away with a pout. "That's not going to help." He said. Naruto rolled his eyes. "You're not even trying!"

"I don't even know how to activate it!" Sasuke shouted back and crossed his arms in front of his chest. He was like an angry chilled who just got told that he didn't get candy for a whole week. Naruto looked puzzled. "well, since it's a blood limit I never learned it and you never told me how it works."

Sasuke was still pouting and not looking at the blond, but his shoulders relaxed a bit. "well, how did I activate it in the first place. It was against this girl right?"

"actually, it was a guy, but that's beside the point. You activated it when you and I were in real danger, so I assume it has a trigger or something for going on in near death situations. "

"great. I have to die?" Sasuke snorted, looking at Naruto in a you're-joking-right? Way. Naruto decided it was the best if he didn't react to the look and continued on with voicing his thoughts. "well, maybe it triggers when you're fighting or something?"

"we've been training, fighting, sparring or however you want to call it for a day and a half. I didn't even felt a hint of Sharingan or something burning or whatever." Sasuke stated. Naruto sighed and took a deep breath to keep his cool. "Maybe we can ask Kakashi for help." "But his Sharingan is on forever, I doubt he knows how to activate it." Sasuke countered.

Naruto looked at the tree behind Sasuke and the raven rolled his eyes. "well, doesn't matter, since he's here anyway."

A pouting Kakashi came out of the bushes. "How did you know it was me?" Sasuke and Naruto both gave him a look. "just get started. Since you're listening to our conversation anyway, you know what's going on and what we want." The raven sighed.

Kakashi placed the orange book in his weapon pouch and coughed, his face suddenly standing serious. "Okay, first of all, Sasuke close your eyes." Said raven shot a questioning look at the blond standing next to him. But Naruto merely shrugged and beckoned him to close his eyes.

"Okay, my eyes are closed. What now?"

"relax."

Sasuke let his shoulders hang and he unclenched his fists. He took a deep breath and started concentrating on what would be coming next. "Okay, are you ready?" Kakashi asked, suddenly a hint of uncertainness in his voice. Naruto raised his eyebrow, concerned at Kakashi's suddenly serious tone. "repeat after me."

Sasuke placed his legs firmly on the ground his body tensing a bit as he made himself ready. He nodded slowly.

"Sharingan red eye of doom!" Kakashi shouted. "Bring down thy flames of hell down upon thy enemies!"

"…"

"…"

"…Kakashi. Fuck off if you aren't going to be serious." Sasuke stated, glaring at Kakashi. Naruto rolled his eyes. He should've known. Kakashi laughed nervously as Sasuke reached for his weapon pouch. "Maa, Maa, Sasuke, calm down. It was just a joke."

Sasuke grabbed a kunai and held it steady in his hand. "whatever." Kakashi smiled. Then he gave Naruto a knowing look. "he's really turning back to his old self, isn't he?" Kakashi said happily. Sasuke blinked, surprised by the comment.

"yeah, sometimes he returning to Sasuke like we know him." Naruto and Kakashi both smiled at the stammering raven. "w-what?! Don't s-say stupid things like t-that!" the raven tried to look angry, but the glare only turned out to be an adorable pout. Kakashi snickered.

Then he turned serious again. "Okay, Sasuke , this time we'll start for real." Kakashi beckoned for him to sit down and Sasuke gave the man a look. "then what? I have to eat grass?" he snorted, but the grey-haired man shook his head. "Sasuke." He said, sitting down himself. Naruto placed his butt on the grass as well, wondering what Kakashi's next step was. "don't worry, Sasuke. This time he's serious. "

Sasuke gave the man one last suspicious look before he sighed. "fine, what do I need to do?" "Nothing." Kakashi answered. "I'm going to use my Sharingan on you." He man adjusted his position, so he could look straight at Sasuke. Sasuke looked between Naruto and Kakashi, unsure how to react. "By using hypnosis, I'll try to make you remember the moment you got the Sharingan for the first time."

"But I already remember that, nothing happened at that memory." Sasuke countered, his brow furrowing. Kakashi nodded. "exactly, but that was a memory without the actual emotions. It didn't feel like you were actually there, mostly because your mind was being controlled by pain. With my hypnosis, I'll let you see that memory again, but this time like it's happening again. For real."

Sasuke gave the man a doubting look. "I don't know. Do you think it's going to work?" "I'm not sure. Since my Sharingan is activated all the time, I don't know how it's suppose to be activated. But it's the only thing I can think of and we can give it a shot, okay? It won't have any consequences or anything since I won't touch the rest of your memory. " Kakashi ensured. Sasuke nodded and looked at Naruto. "If anything happens, take good care of me, dobe."

Naruto only nodded, but inside his chest, his heart was beating like crazy. Sasuke had called him dobe for the second time! God, first time he would think he faint because of the small word. Second time was even more exciting as Sasuke seemed to get into the habit of calling him dobe again! Okay, it was weird for a normal someone to be happy when insulted –this is Naruto- and it was only the second time, but still Naruto couldn't help but to cling on that single string of hope for the old Sasuke.

But Sasuke –being the cute little Sasuke that he was- somehow hadn't acted surprised as Naruto thought he would be when he didn't react to the insult. Maybe Sasuke thought it was normal for Naruto not to react as it was some kind of instinct.

Sasuke –if he thought about it- indeed found it weird that Naruto hadn't reacted to the insult –which he didn't meant to be an insult, it just slipped out- but seemed to have figured out that it was meant as some sort of nickname. 'Maybe I called him like that often…' Sasuke wondered before Naruto had dragged him off to the training grounds –away from the gate- for some Sharingan revival.

Kakashi nodded and lifted his head band. "okay, I need to relax. Your subconscious probably will try to fight me since I'm an intruder for your mind, so I don't need any more struggling then necessary." Sasuke took a deep breath –ignoring a soft snicker from someone- and closed his eyes before opening them again.

…

The only thing going through his mind and body was the bittersweet recognition of pain. Sasuke couldn't even get himself to curse, to move, to do anything but just waiting for what would happen next. The raven found himself in an endless world of darkness, suddenly a light flickered on and off, and Sasuke could see a broken streetlamp standing next to him. The lamp was broken, as the glass was smashed and the light desperately tried to fight the darkness. Even in the dimmed light of the lamp, Sasuke could only see the darkness, mangling with his shadow as the light turned on again.

Sasuke raised his view up, to the –at least, is seemed like that- dying lamp. "A struggle for survival is in everyone, a natural part of the whole being. Even those who want to die are nothing but fools trying to ignore, defy the truth, bending it to their own reality." The raven whispered. He didn't know who's words it were, but it didn't seem to be his as the sound didn't seem natural to his ears in his own voice. The raven looked away from the begging lamp and looked around. Still not noticing a single thing around him, he looked to the rusted pole. He let his hand rest on the old lamp and moved his fingers, as if trying to explore the skin of steel. The lamp turned off for a second. Sasuke looked up. "it's okay, you can rest now. I'm here, you're not alone. You can sleep, even for forever if you want to, I'm here."

Again the words didn't seemed to be his, but Sasuke could only stare at the lamp as it lit brightly, for apparently no longer then a second, yet it lit up so brightly. It seemed like ages, an eternity. Then the light went out. It stayed out, as if it was saying "thank you, now I can rest peacefully." Sasuke looked at the place where his hand was resting on the rust. "You didn't wanted to die alone did you?"

Sasuke could hear his own voice break as tears began to well up in his eyes. He hold them back as a wave of emotions washed over him. Was this why he had wanted to live, to erase his own memory because his old self thought that he would hurt Naruto again, to breathe and wanting to remember? So he wouldn't die alone? So his cold heart was embraced with warmth that Naruto was emitting?

Sasuke fell on his knees as the strength drew seemed to drain away for his body. The raven looked down as he made shaky breath for holding back his tears. His hands rested on nothing but black, yet the ground felt soft but cold like stone.

"...Sasuke…"

Sasuke's eyes hot open as the whisper suddenly floated through the air. He swore he could've seen the flicker of light streaming under his, like a fish in a river. Sasuke looked back and saw the flicker of light moving away from him.

Another whisper! Sasuke turned around, to look underneath to see –indeed- another flicker of light swimming – in the form of a fish- underneath him. The raven tried to grab the lights, but winced as his fingers cracked, hitting the solid ground. The number of whispers increased, but Sasuke couldn't make out what they were saying. Soon the shoal of fish seemed more like a river of light, flowing underneath him. The raven's body didn't move as the whispers turned louder, but due the great amount he couldn't make out what they were saying.

Slowly he managed to stand up, and as he lifted his head, he looked right into a fish, he could make out the form and recognized it as a carp. The fish moved as if it was swimming, yet didn't moved from its spot –eyesight in front of Sasuke-. The raven blinked. He reached out his hand and touched the carp, slowly stroking it. The light emitting from the carp lit up as it was touched by the fingers.

A flash of light and Sasuke found it hard to breathe. He was kneeling, his arm in a protective manner in front of his face. Pain shot through his body as he took another shaky breath. His body was covered in scratches. Black orbs scanned the area, as he found himself surrounded by mirrors. No, Ice, as water dripped from some of the etches. The weird guy, who he recognized as the same man as he had seen in his first memory about the Sharingan, looked at someone outside the ring of mirrors. The man himself, was also standing outside the ring.

"So you don't want me to interfere, Haku?" another man asked. "you're soft as always."

It all seemed far away, as Sasuke made movements he didn't want to make. His body was moving on his own, it was like watching a movie form his own eyes, unable to do anything but to sit back and watch. The young Sasuke seemed to think about the situation, trying to find a solution to defeat the enemy. Sasuke couldn't help but feel a mix of nostalgic and pride.

Suddenly, as the young Uchiha came to a solution with Naruto fighting outside the mirrors, the blond appeared in front of him. "Hey, I came to save you!" he shouted in his face. Sasuke blinked. Was he an idiot?! "You usurutonkachi! If you're an shinobi, Use your head! Why did you came inside of the mirrors?! Damn it! I don't care anymore! You Dobe!"

The raven watched the fight going on as his younger self and that idiot –also known as Naruto- tried to defeat the young man, who went with the name Haku. A fire jutsu didn't work, Naruto's kage bunshin didn't work. The current Sasuke could've easily defeated Haku, but his younger self seemed to be in trouble. Sasuke was troubled about how it was going to work out, even thought he knew he would survive it all –he wouldn't be there if he hadn't survived- his heart was beating like crazy.

But, Sasuke had noticed it, his eyes became familiar with Haku's movements. Slowly he could see him moving slower. If he could just focus and had the time to work out something, Sasuke knew that he could've made progress, if he didn't need to watch over the slower Naruto beside him, too.

Another needle penetrated his body and Sasuke kneeled on the ground. An exhausted Naruto lay beside him, frowning and panting. 'Damn it…This is bad..I must do something…!' Sasuke was surprised by his own determination. The situation seemed hopeless, almost fight. Yet the young Sasuke tried to save himself and the blond in the midst of a strong battle.

"you move well." Haku said, strangely calm as more needles shone between his fingers. "But this time, I'll stop you." Haku jumped out of the mirror, but he seemed to be going slower. Sasuke could only see it for a second.

'he's coming! Calm down… Concentrate…and see through it!' Sasuke heard the familiar words ring through his head. A burning feeling of concentration, pain and determination raced through his body before he jumped out of the way.

He had avoided it. He could see Haku move, he had seen in which direction the boy was going and where he had came from. He had seen it all. It had been hazy and needed a lot of concentration, but he had actually seen it! Sasuke made some excitement shouts in his head, but on the outside his poker face still remained, making it impossible to see if the boy was happy or not.

In the corner of his eyes, the raven could make out the body of one exhausted Naruto. Haku continued his "I'm going to use my secret latest attack to finish you off, but I'm going to tell you stuff first" speech. Sasuke couldn't help but smirk at the felling that he would be able to see the attack coming.

"THIS IS THE END!" Haku shouted before he jumped out of the mirror. Sasuke readied himself, bracing himself to jump out of the attacks way. Then he saw it, Haku wasn't lunging for him, but for Naruto!

Before current Sasuke could actually think of a solution, the body moved. Sasuke watched in shock as his body moved, without a single hint of hesitation. He jumped with all his powers, ran as fast he could. He mind didn't even register what was happening as the only thought was to save Naruto.

Sasuke's mouth was open a bit. There was no way to defend. No way to drag Naruto out of the way. His eyes widened as he realized what he was going to do. Or what his younger self was going to do.

As soon as the needles penetrated his body, he moved his leg kicked Haku, more out of reflex then out of anything and Haku fell to the ground, trying to catch his breath. Sasuke could see that the boy wasn't used to pain.

Blood emerged from all his wounds and Sasuke could merely stand, not wanting to move, being afraid that the pain would make him fall and then he couldn't act as a shield for Naruto anymore. Haku's coughing woke the blond up and even though Sasuke couldn't turn around to well because of the needle in his neck, he could feel Naruto's eyes on him. "Geez… all you ever do is getting in the way…" he murmured as he tried to turn his head a little, to see if Naruto was okay. He saw that Naruto's eyes rested on Haku's couching body and lit up. A smile already on his face.

"Sasuke! You di-" the blond cut off his words as his eyes moved to meet Sasuke's for a moment. Sasuke couldn't stop he blood that started to drip form the corner of his mouth. Naruto's eyes turned wide filled with horror and shock as he saw the way the needles were buried into the pale body in front of him.

"what's …with that face…dobe…" Sasuke could only wheeze now, as with every breath he could feel the needles in his neck move and sting. Every word drew even more blood over his lips. "why?" Naruto asked breathless, confused. Sasuke wanted to snort, wanted to smirk at Naruto's confused face, but he didn't have the strength. The dobe was asking questions…

"how should I know…" he breathed, his eyelids threatened to fall down, but Sasuke kept them open. His black orbs eyeing Haku's unmoving body. Somehow he managed to see all kinds of memories run through his head. Why had he done that anyway? He snickered at his own stupidity. What a loser, dying without a proper reason…

Naruto took shaky breaths, not able to see anything. Sasuke glanced at the blond. "I hated you..."

"But, but. Why? Why me?!" Naruto halve shouted. Sasuke couldn't respond. Why him? He honestly didn't know. "I never asked for you help!" Naruto shouted, frustrated. Sasuke snorted a little. The body was getting numb and the pain slowly ebbed away, but that wasn't a good sign and Sasuke knew it. "I don't know…My body moved on its own…Dobe…"

The strength in his legs disappeared and Sasuke fell backwards, straight into Naruto's arms. The blond looked like he was about to cry or to punch him for his stupidity, something torn between the two. Sasuke wanted to snicker, but he couldn't even feel his arms anymore.

"That man…My brother…I told myself I wouldn't die until I killed him…" a faint smile appearing at the irony off his own speech. He hated dramatic things and now he was making one of his own speeches.

His shoulder started to hang as he couldn't feel them anymore. He closed his eyes, after looking at Naruto one more time. He was too tired to keep them open. "Don't die also…" he managed to whisper before the darkness filled him from within. (1)

He could see the lines of Naruto's distressed face. The widened blue eyes seemed to draw him in. Sasuke couldn't believe it, he had actually died. Well, not exactly, but it had been close. Without even a moment of hesitation, he had jumped for naruto as a shield.

The raven had recognized the feeling to activate the Sharingan and sasuke snorted at the irony. It was a selfish feeling, trying to protect himself. Trying to make sure he would survive. Yeah, he did a good job with that...the raven sighed as he leaned back against the pole, waiting to be awoken. To see Naruto's face again. A pang of guilt shot through his heart as he remebered Naruto's face, the shocked, confused blue eyes. The image seemed to be stuck in his mind and he couldn't get it away. He had the urge to comfort Naruot, even thought he knew it had all been in the passed.

As the black orbs looked up, hoping to find something else to look at then the black surrounding him. He could manage to see the lines of the streetlamp, but since darkness was surrounding him it was even hard to see his own hands when he stretched them out. Sasuke wondered if this was the inside of his heart. Or rather his head. Was hiw whole body enfulged by this lonely darkness? Had he forgotten, even this?

A small headache came up and Sasuke rubbed his temples. The only thing he could do was wait, event hought he had no idea of how many time had pased. Had he been there for hours or merely for a few minutes? Their was no sun or sky to give him an idea. If wasn't cold, nor warm.

The raven let another sigh escape and stood up. He didn't know how long he would have to wait, and witing made him restless. Going into a random direction, he settled for exploring the darkness. Better to walk around, trusting this endless darkness then sitting around, doing nothing.

OO OO OO

Kakashi sighed dramatically. "Ne, Sasuke, can't you just give up? You're already remebering something everyday." His visible eye, looked at the black orbs in front of him. They didn't seem to budge.

"I don't remember everything yet." Sasuke snorted. Kakashi sat down at the black floor. He quickly looked around. A stream of carp was swimming underneath his feet, Sasuke scowled at the light the fish were emitting.

"You remember how you hurt Naruto. You rembered how he loved you and you him. Everything you tried to avoid has happened. Stop being stubborn and come back."

Sasuke looked pained, but remained to stand tall. "I don't remember everything. I imagine them as how Naruto has told me, nothing more."

Their fell a silence between the men as they stared at the passing carp. "...Maa, how did you do it anyway?"

Sasuke looked up, frowning at the question. "did what?"

"sealing yourself into your own body. You can't find that in every training scroll or in a library. A jutsu like this takes time. That's why you left for that normal, almost bored mission? So you had time to plan this?"

Sasuke knew that if he would shook his head or deny that fact, Kakashi wouldn't believe him anyway. It wouldn't be of any use. "yes." He merely replied to the question.

"I sealed away myself, for I didn't wanted to hurt anyone any more." Sasuke gave a sad smile. Kakashi gave him a stern look. "You're hurting Naruto."

The raven flinched at the sentence and Kakashi could see that he tensed up. "I seems like, no matter what I do. I'm hurting him" he whispered, his voice broken and hoarse. Kakashi wanted to say something but was interrupted by Sasuke. "Look." The raven pointed at somehing that was behind Kakashi and the man turned around.

"kakashi?" sasuke asked confused, looking at the scene in front of him himself talking to Kakashi. The other Sasuke gave him a look, no emotion to be read on his face. His mirror image seemed tired, broken and Sasuke wondered if he had been sitting there all this time, all alone.

Sudenly, Kakashi stood up. "You done?' he asked the stunned Sasuke. Sasuke gave his current self a quick looking, frowning as the new Sasuke almost looked frightened. A sign of weakness, he normally wouldn't have shown to anyone.

"Is that me?" The stunned raven asked, looking between the two. "Yeah." Sasuke answered himself, before Kakashi could react to the question.

The black orbs widened for a second before they narrowed. "How could you do this to Naruto?!"he shouted running towards himself. He grabbed the other image of himself by the collar. "Do you know what you did to everyone aorund you?"

Sasuke slapped the hands away. "Shut up! you know nothing!" "I'm you, how couldn't I get it?!"

Kakashi quickly pushed the ravens away form each other. This would get dangerous. Even if he was hypnotised and this wasn't happining for real...it could bring serious damage to sasuke, making him lose everything again. Sasuke had been answering subconsiounsly all the questions asked. But id hadn't been the real old Sasuke. It was not possible by just a mere hypnosis.

'maybe, deep from within sasuke had wanted to let someone know?' the man wondered. Even though, he shouldn't be hesitating in this situation. He needed to dispel the hypnosis before things would turn out bad.

Naruto looked up as kakashi and Sasuke woke up, their eyes opening suddenly. He let out a sigh of relief as the two checked thems eleves. "and, how did it go?" he asked to the raven. Sasuke gave him a suprised look and then gave a smile. "I think I know now." He answered truthfully. Naruto gave the raven a smile. Kakashi watched the two as they talked, his eyes narrowing.

The infromation he had gotten could've been false, but it was their only lead to what happened. He excused himself, believing that the two would be fine on their own, going to the Hokage. She needed to know what happened.

OO OO OO

Sasuke looked at his own red eyes in the mirror. "so this is what the Sharingan looks like." He murmured. "i thought you already had seen a picture in the book?"

"yeah, but that was a picture, this is real." Sasuke blinked and the red was gone. He had been able to activate the sharingan, but not able yet to keep it activated without concentrating. Yet he couldn't feel but pride as he had fought with Naruto, managing to tie instead of losing.

He walked over the bed, looking at naruto, who was reading a book. Blue eyes met black and Naruto placed the book on the nightstand and turned the lights off. Sasuke settled himself in the bed, thinking about the day. He looked at Naruto as he noticed that said boy was looking at him. Sasuke looked away immidiately, but he could still feel, Naruto's eyes on his face. "what?" he asked, turning to Naruto. The blue eyes softened, and Naruto smiled. "nothing just looking."

Both looked at eachother for a moment, before Sasuke turned to the ceiling again. "I wonder when I'll get my memory back. Everything of it."

Naruto snickered. Sasuke gave him a look. "don't worry. It's already a miracle that you're able to get so many memories back in so little time. You'll be fine, you just need to have some time. It'll come back."

Sasuke turned his eyes back to Naruto. He wondered if naruto was in pain like this. Acting if they weren't connected by something more then just this mere bond of brothers. "you love me right?" sasuke asked, the word slipping out of his mouth in a emotionless voice. Naruto's eyes widened for a second and the man flinched before he smiled and nodded.

"Yeah, I love you, sasuke."

"more than anything?"

"You're the most precious to me, more important than the rest of the world."

It seemed more like a conversation between mother and child. The child being comforted by the calming voice. Sasuke and naruto never broke eye contact.

"If you love me then why are you holding back?" sasuke asked, starting to frown. Why was he doing this? He didn't knwo the answer himself, but he knew that he had to do something. Naruto gave him a apoliging smile. "because I'm afraid that you'll dissapear again."

"I won't."

"...really?"

sasuke nodded, determened. Naruto smiled. "Then...can I show you how much I love you?" he asked. Sasuke's heart skipped a beat. He swallowed but nodded. Naruto broke eye contact and sat up, turning around and bend himself over sasuke.

"you won't go?"

"No." Sasuke looked into the blue eyes, as the blue orbs switched their gaze between his own black orbs and his lips. Slowly Naruto lowered hismelf. To sasuke it all looked like it was happening in slowmotion. Even though they had kissed once already, even though Naruto had kissed him another time when he had been pretending to be asleep.

This made his body grow hot as sweat dripped down his temples. Slowly the distance between their face decreased and sasuke could feel Naruto's breath spreading a tingly feeling on his lips. The raven shivered and Naruto gave him a smile. "I love you, Sasuke."

As the words were said, Naruto's lisp brushed his own and Sasuke shut his eyes, remembering the forgotten feeling. Naruto preshed his lips against his, a simple kiss. Short and just the mere touch of lips against lips.

Naruto lifted himself again from sasuke as he looked into the eyes. "sasuke..." the voice was broken, as if he longed for this moment as soon as he had first seen Sasuke aftre he had dissapeeared. Sasuke opened his eyes, when had he closed them? He lifted his arms, wrapping them around Naruto's chest and embraced the blond boy.

Tears seemed to escape from his eyes and his breath hitched. Naruto returned the hug, wrapping his arms around the raven's neck. He could feel the tears fall on his chest. Naruto ran his hand through the black hair. "Naruto..." the raven whispered and Naruto smiled. "I'm here...I w-won't go, so please..stay with me?"

"Always Sasuke."

OO OO OO

Okay biggest chapter! Over 5000 words! O,o Wow. Thank you so much for your support and see you next chapter which will be up on the 10th of august!

(1)Chapter 26 and 27 from the Naruto manga.