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(Haha, this is like DesAndNate from you tube. O.o)
Song: Like We Used To
By: A Rocket to the Moon.
I don't either the song, or the manga, Naruto.
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'Lyrics'
Like We Used To.
I could feel her breath as she's sleeping next to me
Sharing pillows and cold feet
She can feel my heart; fell asleep to its beat
Under blankets and warm sheets
If only I could be in that bed again
If only it were me instead of him
Naruto was lying on his cold bed, looking at the white ceiling above him. He was now in Konoha, just arrived a couple of hours ago. He just caught up with Team 7, and told Tsunade of his arrival. Otherwise, he hasn't seen anyone. It was around 9PM, the moon was shining out, reflecting through his window. Naruto was reminiscing about the times with Hinata. Yes, it was a bad idea, but with the white moon out, he couldn't help to think about her pale, lavender eyes, and then his whole relationship with Hinata was flashing through his eyes. Naruto missed the warmth that radiated of her when they slept together. And how her sheets were the warmest. Naruto closed his lifeless blue orbs, put his tan arms behind his head, and looked back at his memories that he would do anything to relive them again.
The various memories consisted of their dates, and when Naruto would be there for Hinata. How he would watch any chick flick, cause she wanted to, or when her father passed away, he held her when she cried. The blond remembered playing the likes and dislikes game with Hinata, and he barely recalled if he put anything in the dislikes.
'Hey, I could add the first dislike about Hinata. I dislike how she broke my heart. '
Naruto thought, but didn't look that into it, or it'd hurt too much. Naruto remembered their song, 'The Best Thing', by Relient K. It was like their own, special song. It described their entire relationship, and that's why they loved it. He remembered learning about guitar, so on their next anniversary, he would preform it to her.
But there was no anniversary cause Hinata broke up with him.
Does he watch your favorite movies?
Does he hold you when you cry?
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts?
When you've seen it a million times
Does he sing to all your music?
While you dance to Purple Rain
Does he do all these things?
Like I used to?
Movies- It was one of their favorite bonding past times. Naruto would call, Hinata would answer yes, and they'd go. Hinata usually picked the movie, Naruto payed, and he'd get a big slushy to share with her. She'd sometimes smuggled popcorn and candy in her bag, so they wouldn't waste money. And once, Naruto recalled, she broke the handle of her bag due to the various items inside, and her cheeks flamed it's famous bright red, and Naruto would chuckle. Then, after that movie, Naruto bought her a purse that she picked out at the mall.
Naruto just smiled sadly at the thought.
Crying- Oh god, Naruto hated it when his raven-haired goddess cried. It meant she was sad, and to Naruto, that was not good. She cried when her father passed away, and Naruto was there for a week to help her get back on her own feet. The tissue box ended up empty for the first 1 or 2 days. Then, as the days followed, less tissue was used because she was starting to accept it. Even though Hinata's father was stern and cold, he was her father. Naruto remembered holding her at night, whispering sweet things to calm her down, and for those tears to stop.
Naruto tried stopped his 1st tear that was going to fall down his whiskered face. Too late.
Favorite Parts- Naruto remembered when Hinata would tell him the favorite parts of almost anything. Wither it be movies, food, music, you name it. And Naruto would just listen. Naruto remembered that soft by melodious tone of her voice. How she sounded so innocent and lovely, which was one of the things he liked-no loved about her. Naruto remembered when they watched things that you see normally everyday, but she'd make it seem like it'd be the last time you'd see it. So then you'd pay after that, you remember that you get to see it everyday. Hinata was an amazing story teller, whenever she told short tales about the legend behind her favorite things.
Naruto smiled sadly, wondering for a bit what Hinata and Kiba do.. Abruptly, he stopped his train of thought, not wanting to end up crying. Again.
14 months and 7 days ago,
Oh I know you know how we felt about that night
Just your skin against the window
Oh we took it slow and we both know
It shoulda been me inside that car
It should have been me instead of him in the dark
Naruto decided that he didn't want to turn into an emo Sasuke, so, he left his memories on his cold bed, and dressed up. He checked the clock, 'Woah...1AM' Naruto thought, as he threw on his teal crystal necklace Tsunade had given him. He looked out the window, and Konoha looked like something he wasn't. It was alive. It was a festival to celebrate Fall, the blond concluded. He remembered the time he took Hinata out on the festival. Naruto did the math, and that was about 14 months and a week ago. He wondered why after about a year,
she would break him.
He remembered losing his virginity that night, in the back of the 't romantic, but at the time..It was... Naruto and Hinata time.
That night was...Everything. He and Hinata lost 'it' for pete's sake. Naruto remembered how he went slow cause it was Hinata, and he didn't want to break her.
She was his precious china doll.
'Yeah, and now she broke me...' Naruto reminisced.
Naruto looked down out the window, (His apartment was pretty high up) and saw something that he thought he'd never see in a lifetime. Naruto thought 4 words. 'Kiba...Hinata...Car...Moving...'
He could tell it was Kiba's by the model and he liscense plate reflection in the puddle nearby. Naruto couldn't bare to look at it, tears were marking his cheeks once again, so he just went back to his bed, and collapsed. He just came back, determined as ever, now, he was feeling like complete and utter shit, and wanted to crawl up into a hole and die.
He really didn't wanna think about that.
Does he watch your favorite movies?
Does he hold you when you cry?
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts?
When you've seen it a million times
Does he sing to all your music?
While you dance to purple rain
Does he do all these things?
Like I used to?
Naruto was having a happy dream for once. His previous flashbacks were shown in the darkness of his room. Without Hinata, his light, it would always be dark. The dates, the movies, the talking, the kissing, her pale, lovely, lavender eyes, were his only thoughts that kept him from going to a certain Inuzuka's house, and promptly kicking he/she (most likely he)'s ass. Naruto's mind was blank, his heart on fire, wondering what he did that would make his Hinata break up with him. Everyone said that they were a match made in heaven, and how cute they were. But Naruto couldn't think. He's watched movies with her, held her, listen to her, hell, he was going to sing to her. Naruto thought that that was all the boyfriends do, and they got a pretty happy ending.
The Great Uzumaki was baffled.
'What did I do to screw up with...Her?' was his only thought.
The depressed blond woke up, looked back at the ceiling, then at the lone, dusty guitar that was on its stand, in the corner of the room.
He sighed picked it up, and played, trying to drown out the sadness in the room with music. It didn't work.
Naruto wanted to write a list of why he was better than that mutt, but he stumbled in the dark, wanting to find light,- no not the lightbulb kind, but the light that solely was
Hinata Hyuuga's.
Her light outshone the brightest. Naruto looked at the now dead city; the festival was over. It was ironic, how in the dark, Naruto felt the most alive. He didn't know if it was good or bad, but didn't really give a damn. He'd sing when he wanted to, he'd cry when he wanted to. He's already went to hell and back for Hinata, so was this any different?
I know that love happens all the time, love
(I'm a sucker for that feeling)
You're on my mind, love
(I always end up feeling cheated)
And that happens all the time, love
(Oh darling, I know I'm not needed)
Naruto always needed love. Period. Cause all the verbal abuse that he got when he was a kid was hurtful. He never had a family, no friends, so every emotion was hollow. Until Team 7. He had a family. His sister Sakura- Kind, but packs a hard punch, Sasuke- His rival of a brother, and Kakashi- His somewhat kind of a father. Naruto was happy, and when he met Hinata, it was so different. It wasn't the sibling love with Sasuke and Sakura, it wasn't the parental love like Kakashi and Jiraiya.
Naruto was grateful for that family love, but secretly longed for the love that appeared when he saw simple gestures- holding hands, kissing, and having complete bliss. And he wasn't speaking sexually, but the bliss when you get when you're married, or when you just sit in the park with your significant other and talk. And Naruto found that with Hinata.
Hinata was his lover. And in Naruto's book, that's wayyyy different. He and Hinata were...Special. She was someone that Naruto could kiss, hug, and be in the most intimate of ways. She was was everything and anything. The true light. Graceful, but deadly in battle. Calm and kind. Naruto was the opposite, loud and obnoxious, clumsy, and not as strong as Sasuke-teme. Naruto loved how they were complete opposites and yet, they survived over a year. Naruto could be himself with his friends and family, but Hinata, he was him, he could be whoever he wanted to be. Naruto. And since they're over, Naruto felt kind of like he was when he was little,
Hollow.
And.
Alone.
Will he love you like I loved you?
Will he tell you everyday?
Will he make you feel like your invincible
With every word he'll say
Can you promise me that this was right?
Don't throw it all away
Can you do all these things?
Will you do all these things?
Like we used to
Naruto's thoughts pondered over Kiba and Hinata's relationship. Who was better? Naruto thought, Kiba, or him? Well, that was obviously answered when she broke him for Kiba. But what did Kiba do that he couldn't? Naruto wondered how Kiba treated Hinata. Cause everyone in the village knew that Kiba was a hound. Then Naruto's worst thought came up-
'What if he's using her?'
Naruto shook that thought away, knowing that Hinata could do better than that. But he hoped that Kiba treated her with dignity and respect. Cause all women needed that. It wasn't that Naruto was sexist, he just knew that girls were supposed to be treated like that. Not...Trash, dirt, and worst of all- useless. Naruto hated it when people would pick on him and say things like that. Would Kiba protect her? Hold Her? and most of all- Love her? Cause Kiba was a hound, and in his ramen-filled heart, he knew that Hinata didn't deserve that shit.
I mean after all, he DOES love her.
Naruto then took the guitar out of his tired, dead arms, put it back on the stand, and walked into the bathroom. He proceeded to wash his face, and as he looked into the mirror, droopy, lifeless, tired blue orbs stared back. Naruto was beginning to be depressed, and from his experiences with the messed up thing called life, he needed to stay happy. For Team 7, himself, and her. Naruto walked out, feeling a tad bit better, and found himself looking at the ceiling, thoughts and flashbacks of Hinata Team 7, and himself, stirring around him.
But he didn't realize the tears that streaked his face.
Oh like we used to
The End.
For Now.
Well? How was it? I think this one sucked personally. x3.
It was hard to write about and confusing at some points. O.o
Please, it would mean a LOT for you to review, so I could improve?
I really don't know when the next chappie(s) are coming cause of school. xP
So it might take a while (This is A PERFECT EXAMPLE) or me to update and stuff.
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I don't own the song, or the manga. *Anime tears*
Sorry for any spelling and grammar errors..
Ja Ne.