Miserable at Best Chapter 4: Don't Tell Me, a naruto fanfic

Lyrics are in Bold.

HINATA POV

You held my hand and walked me home, I know
Why you gave me that kiss
It was something like this and made me go ooh ooh
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears
Why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love
Guys are so hard to trust

Okay, lets get this straight. The reason I broke up with Naruto-k...Naruto, was because I couldn't do what he could. I couldn't love him like he did. It sounds stupid, but thats what happened. I felt guilty every time he did something sweet to me, because I know I was to shy to do something in return. He'd always smile, take me on the most romantic dates, and always be there. I felt like I never did enough for him... Even though he'd never talk about it, I know, that if I was in his place, I would feel that way. He wasn't annoying or dumb, or anything like that. He was perfect, but I wasn't.

I felt like I wasn't good enough for him.

Drowning in guilt, I broke up with him, and went out with Kiba.

I dated Kiba because I knew he had a crush on me, and I felt I could treat him better, since, he doesn't really do anything special anyway.

I felt less guilty.

But, I knew it would come crashing down one day, and I believe it was today.

It all started around the time gap of when Naruto wasn't in the village, and even though that was a short amount, a lot of things happened. Apparently, people assumed things about our past relationship, and I was pretty much hated. The rest of Rookie 9, except my own teammates didn't talk to me, and it was awkward. Neji-nii didn't really talk, even though he usually never did, it was still weird. I felt it whenever I had to meet up with different teams, I am thankful I never got moved to Team 7. I knew I would get hateful glances, especially from either Sasuke or Sakura.

Sasuke was a bit scary in general for me. And the fact he has a reason for it terrifies me most. And I'm scared because I know how deeply Sakura cares for Naruto, in like a sister-brother way. I found that out when I used to go on double-dates, or meeting by coincidence. Kakashi is a bit laid back, so I wouldn't really worry.. I wondered how was during his trip. I don't know his location, after noting his absence, I just assumed. No one would tell me, and like I would dare to ask Team 7. I feel like being a coward is one of my weaknesses. I stilled cared for Naruto, but on a less personal level.

Did I not tell you that im not like that girl,
the one who gives it all away

The days when I dated Kiba felt...Weird at first.

I mean, he is my teammate and it was awkward at sometimes, but I got used to it. The more Naruto edged away, I felt it was being replaced by Kiba. Kind of like an empty seat in my heart. But the reasons, Kiba couldn't fully fill that seat was...

He was kind of aggressive.

After a couple of days, he asked for something I've only done with Naruto...Have sex. I didn't want to give it to him yet, it was too early, and I would feel dirty; like a whore. I usually don't use this kind of language, but that would be how I felt. I said no to him, but he just wanted to pursue. Yes, I was annoyed, but I really didn't want to, and I explained why. He then stated how we've known each other for years, so, it wouldn't be that hard. I hope he didn't know that I've already slept with Naruto before. But I didn't want him to find that out.

After me and Naruto's break up, I think Kiba started to hate him or something. I think he wants to be a better boyfriend than Naruto was, like a competition. I think he and Naruto have had little competitions and bets after the Chuunin exams, but that was for fun. But since its dealing with me, its like, the biggest challange of all or something.

I really don't get males theses days.

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin' I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do
Don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way, yeah

Its not like Kiba doesn't treat me right or anything.

I believe he would fit as your 'average boyfriend' or whatever. He's done some nice things, like comfort, and snuggling, but he'd over do it. Like, if I wanted something like, a glass of water, Kiba would bring like a meal or snack with it. Like, he was trying to hard to be nice. I thought it was sweet at first, but then it was odd. I also noticed that, when Naruto was here, some days later I was with Kiba in the grocery. And as I noticed that Naruto had an angry, pained expression. I really had an urge to hug him, and tell him that I loved him, but that would be too out of character, and I loved Kiba right? I looked at Kiba with a smile, and he had a cocky expression. Like he'd won something, and he was bragging about it, Naruto's anger increased so much I felt it, then he just walked out.

Later that day, we went to a move and after we'd kiss like a regular couple, he'd try to go farther, but I didn't want to.

Again, it was too early.

I wanted to 'test' his love per say, by seeing how long he could last without having to 'consummate' things. I hope it could be forever if it had to.

I found out that it was 2 weeks.

NORMAL POV

An indigo-haired female was walking down the street groceries in hand. She had a plain black shirt on, a skirt that went 3 inches below the knee, with a a white headband to match. Her pale eyes were looking straight ahead, advancing down the street to her two-bedroom apartment. One for herself, the other for guests. Hinata Hyuga was going to bake some food for her and Kiba's date in about an hour or so. Kiba was coming over late at night, but she just wanted to be prepared early. As she neared the front door, she unexpectedly found her new boyfriend, Kiba Inuzuka.

"Kiba-kun! What brings you here!"

"Just wanted to see my girlfriend, thats all."

She ran to hug the brunette, on her tippy toes, leaving her groceries on the tiled floor. Kiba then helped with bags, as the pair went to her apartment. She asked him if he wanted to stay, and help her with the meal, and he agreed. For dinner they had tempura, some fish, rice, and for a drink, iced tea. They prepared and cooked it, talking and having fun. After the meal was prepared right on time, they went to Hinata's room, the girl turned on the TV, put the movie in as the pair began to watch it while eating. Finishing early, they paused it, washed the dishes, and went back to continue the film in Hinata's bedroom.

Don't think that your charm and
The fact that your arm is now around my neck
Will get you in my pants, I'll have to kick your ass
And make you never forget
I'm gonna ask you to stop
Thought I liked you a lot
But I'm really upset (really upset)
Get out of my head, get off my bed
Yeah, that's what I said

Kiba tried to put his 'moves' to the test, and faked a yawn as he subtly put his arm around her neck. He sneakily kissed her cheek, then the corner of her lips. Hinata tried to brush it off, but gave in and returned his charming kisses. They both closed their eyes, and Kiba shyly tried to part her lips for an entrance. She didn't give in, not wanting to do something she would regret.

Why would she regret doing it with Kiba, than Naruto?

Hinata couldn't anwser as Kiba started to move his calloused hands up her shirt. Hinata was rapidly getting uncomfortable, not like the position they were in. If Kiba tried to seduce her, Hinata vowed to stop herself, not wanting to do it. She'd first quietly ask him to think about it and stop. She did this, and he said, 'Thought about it, and I liked it.' Hinata was getting angrier, and shoved him off her. This was equivalent to harassment, as Hinata looked at herself in shame. In a span about 10 minutes, Hinata's hair was messed up, her top looked like it was riding up, and her lips felt abused and bruised.

She didn't like it one bit.

Hinata felt like a whore, dirty, skanky. The usual innocent girl felt defiled. Hinata trusted Kiba so much. But why would he do that to her? Hinata thought he loved her, so he'd wait until she's ready. Hinata had tears threatening to fall down, but she tried to keep emotions in check. The girl thought she loved Kiba, key word thought. She was very upset in the moment, and it showed through her pale eyes. kiba felt embarrassed, and and a stab to his pride. He also felt that something bad was going to happen, and it was going to happen soon.

"Get. Out."

Was the only words she uttered- no growled at him, and Kiba quickly left, hoping he could apologize or do something to keep their relationship in tact. He promised himself that he would get rid of the little 'friend' soon. Did she know what she was doing to him? Kiba wanted to get Hinata's virginity, because he believed that Naruto didn't take it. But right now, there was no shower, so, Kiba went to a street corner, pulled out around 20 dollars, and pulled the mysterious person in his car, backseat to be exact.

While that was happening, Hinata was crying on her bed, no knowing what to do.

And somewhere in that apartment complex, a certain blond was reminiscing about his past girlfriend.

Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl,
The one who throws it all away

Why did he do that? Was Hinata's thoughts, and questions if Kiba loved her popped up as well. The upset girl assumed that her 'loving' (note bitter tone) boyfriend was probably at his house, and Hinata thought that he should be thinking about what he almost did to her. And Hinata reminded herself to scold him, or do something. Hinata didn't know who to call, no one from Rookie 9 still stuck with her besides Shino, but talking with him about it was awkward. She knew no one who she trusted enough to talk. Apparently she was a whore.

Hinata wished someone could hold her, could do something to comfort her.

'Naruto-k...Naruto, was always good at comforting...Especially when Dad died..."

Was Hinata's thoughts, but she quickly stopped herself, realizing Naruto wasn't here, she couldn't be with him, and that would be unfaithful to Kiba.

And Hinata wasn't a cheater, she was a faithful person, especially to her lover.

But who was her lover? Kiba basically shoved hsi promise to wait back in her face, and she broke it off with Naruto.

Those were the only to boys she'd ever dated.

Feeling vulnerable, Hinata faded off to sleep, hoping to make amends with Kiba.

Maybe kick his ass as well.

What she didn't know, as she was being faithful, Kiba was being unfaithful.

THE NEXT DAY!~

Feeling better and refreshed, Hinata woke with a bright smile.

But, upon remembering yesterday's events, she frowned, got out of bed, and took a shower, changing out of yesterday's clothes.

Hinata felt guilty again, feeling bad that she didn't trust Kiba enough to do 'it' with him. She felt like, if she couldn't have sex with Kiba, that she could never fully love him.

The indigo-haired woman left her apartment complex, as she was in her parking lot, she noticed something peculiar.

Kiba's car was still parked in her driveway..

Did he stay in his car all night? During late November? Did her want to freeze?

Did he wait in his car because he loves me?

A million questions ran through her head at the moment, wanting to find out why Kiba was still here, and if she could apologize to him. Running over to his car, she looked in the windows, rubbing the outside fog to look inside, not wasting time and chakra by using her Byakugan. (Is that how you spell ?)

Hinata was shocked for words, and didn't say anything, as silent tears fell down her ivory skin, little puddles of tears forming at her feet.

She wanted to scream, cry, curl up and die at the same time.

This guilt trip that you put me on
Won't mess me up, I've done no wrong
Any thoughts of you and me have gone away

She heard something like padding footsteps near her, and before she turned-

The girl collapsed, until she felt two familiar-yet-unfamiliar warm arms catch her. But she couldn't see who it was, since her eyes faded to darkness.

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin' I was gonna tell and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do
Don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way, yeah

"HINATA-CHAN!" the male yelled.

Better off that way
I'm better off alone anyway

The End, for now.

CLIFFY!

I don't own Naruto.

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