She woke up, startled. Hinata wasn't used to hospitals, the white walls almost blinding her. Has she fainted? Again? When she and Naruto dated, he gave confidence, but that was a bit long gone. Using her pale orbs, she scanned the current situation she was in. There was a bouquet of Lilys (her favorite flowers) on her bedside table. But they were a light tint of purple, also known as lavender. She wondered how it turned that way, and apparently, the sender thought it would be cool to dye the water purple. And it worked. She didn't guess who the sender was, it was pretty obvious.
Naruto.
He is the only one that she told about her loving of lilies. (Tongue Twister Much?) Picking up the notecard nearby it, she read the message, tears brimming her pale, tired eyes.
Hinata-chan,
I'm so sorry that...For ever what I did to you that you didn't like. I tried to do my best, as a boyfriend.
After all, your the first girl to ever love me, before I defeated Pain and gained acceptance in Konoha.
If your happier with Kiba, then... Why did you lie to me? Why did you make cry, and whenever I see you with him,
I..Just wanna punch him, and protect you. I..Want to be with you again, I want to make you smile, laugh and blush.
But most of all, I want you to love me again.
I'll always wait for you.
Naruto.
Hinata then found another letter under that note. Kiba?
Was her first thought, but just to make sure, she read his letter, frowning at some parts, then she put it back in its envelope, and pulled a Sasuke.
Which is pretty much erasing all emotions on your face, looking stoic and cold. And that was not like Hinata. Not like her at all. What was in his letter?
Dear Hina-baby,
I'm so sorry bout last night, with the fight and all.
I hope we can be together again.
Anyways I gotta go.
Kiba.
The letter was rushed, and barely meaningful to the Hyuga. Naruto's letter was sweet and sincere, like her really missed her, and would litterally walk a thousand miles for her. Dismissing a compare and contrast chart, Hinata decided it was enough. She couldn't take it anymore. The drama, the broken hearts, the hate, the jealousy, everything. The two men that held a special place in her heart were slowly breaking it. With Naruto's sadness and dull orbs, to Kiba's stone cold, harsh attitude and aloofness. I mean, how much can a girl take? She felt hurt and confused on which to choose.
Others would say it was easy, but they probably have never been in her situation.
So Hinata decided, in the hospital, that once she recovered, she would move to Suna. (A/N is that where everyone moves now a day when people get sad?)
Few Days Later
"T-thank you, T-tsunade-sama." Hinata said, taking the scroll which would let her cross Konoha's borders into Suna's. It also served as an important document to be sent to Gaara. It was kind of like killing two birds with one stone for Tsunade. No one knew about Hinata's departure except close family and stuff. This included Naruto and Kiba, since they were the main reason she left anyway. he quiet girl left a note on each respective's doorstep, the note written in ink. She also told them not to fight while she was gone, and if they did, she wouldn't pick either of them.
The boys reluctantly agreed, letting her leave, both silently hoping that she would pick one of them. The boys never made contact over her leave, making a silent agreement.
But that didn't mean they couldn't miss her.
NARUTO'S POV~
I got your runaway smile in my piggybank baby
Gonna cash it right in for a new Mercedes
You were worth the hundred thousand miles
But you couldn't stay awhile
I got your little brown shirt in my bottom drawer baby
And your little white socks in the top drawer
You were always leaving your shit around
And gone without a sound
Why'd she leave? I feel like everyone's walking out on me. Even it was years ago, Sasuke walked out on me. When I was a little kid, everyone ignored me. When I confessed that I loved Sakura, (which was many years ago as well) I was rejected, even though it was for the village, my parents (sadly) left me. And now, the one that I cared for the most, left me. Even though I left first, she broke my heart that time. Now I feel like we're even.
Out of everything, I miss her smile the most. When her pale, lavender orbs shined with absolute glee. When her cute lips curved, her pearly teeth smiling. How she blushed, adding to the goddess-like effect. I remember what her lips looked like, a light pink, and they were small, dude to her timid nature. I remembered what they tasted like, pure sugar. She was always sweet, like a drug.
Lips like morphine.
I think her smile meant more to me than the amount of money in my bank.
To bad she had to go, with no goodbyes, but a little letter that expressed her distress and who she was going to choose, which was currently me, or that stupid mutt.
I feel like she's still here, when she'd sleep over and we'd watch romantic comedies and cuddle together, or when he'd try attempting to bake a cake with her. (Which ended in a very messy food fight.)
Naruto then dug around his apartment, and found something sticking out of his usual pile of orange/black jumpsuits. He picked it up and examined the article of clothing. It was Hinata's.
Her brown shirt for be exact.
Hinata always left some clothes, whether it be shirts, or a pair of socks. And she always left them there, cause Hinata always came to his house, and when she needed some extra sleep apparel.
Naruto never gave it back, cause he always thought that Hinata would return, but she did the opposite and left.
It seems out of character for Hinata to forget something, but whenever they were together, it was like the world slowly melted away..
And Naruto wants that feeling back in his life again.
Yeah I'm the first to fall and the last to know
Where'd you go?
Naruto was undoubtedly the first person that fell in love with Hinata. Most of the males already had their respective girlfriends, and since Hinata was the often shy one. no one really fell for her.
Not even Kiba.
But Naruto did. He fell hard. And like hell he would let her fall from his world, mind, and soul. Naruto wanted to date Hinata because he felt like he could help her. He knew about Hinata's obvious stuttering issues, and he knew about how he and Sakura are more of a brother-sister type thing. Not romantic at all. Naruto like Hinata because she was optimistic about his ideas, not shooting them down or getting thumped in the head(Sakura).
Hinata believed in him. That's what he made him drawn to her. Naruto saw himself as a normal person, nothing that special about himself.
When he was younger, no one believed in him, gave him hope or encouragement, excluding Iruka and this team of course. He felt down, but used his voice to make up for that part.
But when he found out about how Hinata loved him, he felt happy, and appreciated.
And that something that made him feel warmth that no other person could bring to him.
But he kept on asking himself, where'd she go? Is she okay?
If he wasn't, and she was hurt, he'd probably go in a ditch and just die.
Cause he loved her that much.
And no one could take that away.
Now I'm heels over head
I'm hangin' upside down
Thinking how you left me for dead
California bound
Naruto believes that he will never stop loving the Hyuga heiress. He believes that they are soulmates, and that they will never be apart.
The blond loved Hinata more than anythihng.
Hell, he'd probably give his dreams of being hokage, and runaway with Hinata. If she wanted to of course.
Naruto was not the type of person to force someone, besides Sasuke..And Team 7 in general.
Or hokage for missions of course. But he'd never force his Hinata-chan because that was rude, and inconsiderate.
Naruto is a caring person, and hated to force people to do something.
Except the time he wanted Sasuke to come back to the village.
That was an exception.
But now Hinata's gone (for the time being).
And he can't do anything to comfort her.
I got a first class ticket to a night all alone
And a front row seat up right by the phone
Cause you're always on my mind
And I'm running out of time
In the letter, Hinata told him that she might call him. Key word being might. She also said not to think high, because whoever she told about her departure, she'd call them for an update.
Naruto was waiting for his update. Everyday. For the time spent being of when Hinata was gone, Naruto stayed home next to the phone. Not going out at all day, only for food or some training.
He waited and waited, just like he promised in his letter. Waiting was boring, but it was worth it. And most of the time alone, he thought. Yes, Naruto thinks. And this a serious problem anyway.
When he thought, all he thought about was her. Hinata this, Hinata that, ect. Nothing else clouded his thoughts, even the mutt that caused most of his heartbreak to happen is his life.
The blond's aparentment was always quiet, but in his head, he was having a mental breakdown.
Did she call? Will she call? Will I win her over the mutt? What's gonna happen if I lose her..No I can't think of that! I'm Naruto Uzumaki! Believe it!
If only she'd reassure him and call. Little did he know that she had similar problems but her thoughts were of Naruto and Kiba.
I've got your hair on my pillow and your smell in my sheets
And it makes me think about you with the sand in your feet
Is it all you thought it'd be?
You mean everything to me
Everything reminded him of Hinata. The lilies in the flower shop, whenever he talked to Neji, or when a romantic comedy was showing. Or cooking, wither way.
He still smelled Hinata in his car, in his laundry, everywhere.
There was no exit, and its not like he wanted to escape it. Whenever he thought of Hinata, he would smile.
But then he would remember that she was having an inner battle about him and the mutt boy.
That alone plus the fact she was facing it alone made his smile falter. Then he would have a distant look on his face, which was questionable from Konoha 12 but they dared not to answer.
They knew about the unstable triangle of Naruto, Kiba, and Hinata.
No one wanted to upset them more than they already were. The group wanted things to get back to normal and not awkward like it was no. It was a mutual agreement.
I mean, it even drove Hinata to go move into Suna for awhile.
But I'm the first to fall and the last to know
And where'd you go?
Now I'm heels over head,
I'm hangin' upside down
Thinking how you left me for dead
California bound
"If only you knew about how I feel Hinata-chan...Before you left me."
And when you hit the coast
I hope you think of me
And how I'm stuck here with the ghost of what we used to be
Naruto guessed that wherever the heck Hinata went, it was probably calm, and sunny. Like her personality.
He knew even though with the drama going on, Hinata was probably having some sort of entertainment or fun. Cause thats how she was, looking at the bright, calm side of things.
Hinata was probably drawing- it was one of her favorite pastimes, Naruto recalled from their conversations that felt like a mile away.
Naruto knew Hinata was having fun, cause he taught her how to be it. Various clan meetings and arrangements and the fact that Hinata is the heir to the Hyuga Clan, made her life dull and bland.
But Naruto strove to put fun in her life, basically life in general. Strove to make it better for her, and make her smile. After all, it is one of his favorite things about her.
He just hopes she thinks of him while she does what ever she's doing. And that she's smiling her bright smile of hers that made him fall in love with her completely.
You're burnin' bridges baby
Burnin' bridges, making wishes
Yeah you're burnin' bridges baby
Burnin' bridges, making wishes x2
It has been weeks since Hinata left, and Naruto felt horrible. He feels like what they had can't be once again. The distance is ruining of what can happen now.
He only hoped that in her heart that she would pick him. The blond's chest felt painful and tight; always showing a smile that had hidden pain and longing.
Even if they weren't dating after he came back, at least he got to see her. At least he got to know that she was no is real.
Naruto wished on every star already, he only hoped that one wish can make it true. Can undo the past, and create a future from him and Hinata or he'd die.
He needed her; she was his lifeline in the world, his glimmer of hope. Only time could tell of what could happen.
But he hoped that some time Hinata would come home, and have that cheerful expression on her face, not the confused, puzzled look, that seemed lost and broken which she wore since he came back.
The blond sighed, putting his tanned hands in his pockets once more, leaving the blind date behind, his friends weren't helping at the moment.
All he wanted was her.
You're a chance taker, heartbreaker
Got me wrapped around your finger
Chance taker, heartbreaker
Got me wrapped around your finger
Sometimes, Naruto felt used. He felt like Hinata used him and broke his heart on purpose. His judgements were blind, he knew that, but he never went without a day thinking 'what if' questions.
What if Kiba never dated Hinata? What if he and Hinata were still together? What is his future going to be with Hinata? With or without her, he didn't know.
Only time could tell before anything happened. Naruto felt dare he say, 'whipped'. He doted on Hinata all the time, wither through small things too large things.
Any outsider could tell that Naruto spoiled his little Hinata. Naruto all negative thoughts off, only focusing on the sudden soft knock on his apartment door.
Naruto slowed his way there, his inspiration of life gone since she left him. It sounds odd for Naruto to be so sad about it...As he always see the glass full instead of empty.
Even if it was when Hinata wasn't there.
I got your runaway smile in my piggybank baby
Gonna cash it right in for a new Mercedes
If I drive a hundred thousand miles
Would you let me stay a while?
Now I'm heels over head,
I'm hangin' upside-down
Thinking how you left me for dead
California bound
And when you hit the coast
I hope you think of me
And how I'm stuck here with the ghost of what we used to be
Now I'm heels over head,
I'm hangin' upside-down
Thinking how you left me for dead
California bound
And when you hit the coast
Maybe you'll finally see
And then you'll turn it all around and you'll come back to me
He opened the door, too shocked for words...
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.
.
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"Hinata? I-is that y-you?" He said, losing his voice at the girl that he once knew.
The End?
AUTHOR NOTE:
I am so so so sorry I haven't updated this in like, a month. I really am.
The reason is, that I had extreme writer's block on this story and my other one, 'My Funny Punishment' (By the way, it used to be 'Strain in the Heart' but the title didn't fit the story.)
But then I head this song- WHICH I DO NOT OWN!
and an idea clicked?
I don't own Naruto or this song by BoysLikeGirls.
Congrats on the longest chapter for this fic?
Peace.
Christa-chan.