Chapter Nine

Randy awoke in a panic and sweating. He threw his legs over the side of the bed and jumped up looking for Lily. Not finding her in the bassinet he went back to the bed and shook John who rolled over and looked at him

"What's the matter Ran?"

"I can't find Lily."

"Relax, I have her right here. She woke up a little bit ago so I changed her and put her on my side of the bed. I didn't want to wake you." Randy leaned over John and picked Lily up, clutching her to his chest. "What the hell's the matter with you? You jumped out of bed, you're sweating…you were mumbling in your sleep."

"What did I say?"

"I couldn't make out what you were saying. I was hoping you could shed some light on it." Randy just shook his head

"Put Lily down."

"No John."

"Randy." At John's stern tone, Randy put Lily in the bassinet. "Stop holding whatever it is in and talk to me." John sat all the way up with his back against the shelving and indicated for Randy to come closer. Randy snuggled close to John grasping him tightly and John wrapped a protective arm around him. He started to trace a random pattern on his husbands back and felt Randy begin to relax. After a deep breath Randy began

"When Cody came on the bus he told me that he'd been in love with me since forever. His obsession, if you will, didn't begin that night in the bathroom." Steadying his breathing he went on. "He even twirled a strand of Li's hair around his finger and said that she has my hair and he'd always imagined running his fingers through my curls." John was getting more and more agitated as he went on but forced himself to keep calm

"And?"

"What do you mean and?"

"What else did he say? I know you're not this upset and having nightmares about Cody wanting to run his fingers through your hair."

"He told me that this wasn't over and he was going to make me and Lily his because John Cena can't win everything." John laughed bitterly

"But I already have that little fucker's just not letting me enjoy it."

"Did you hear what I said John?"

"Every word."

"What if he does something? He's crazy."

"What is he going to do? You and Lily aren't going anywhere and if that means locking the two of you up in the house then so be it."

"You can't lock us in the house."

"He's not taking the two of you from me Randy."

"I know that Lily and I won't go voluntarily but what if he tries something. What if we're kidnapped?"

"Do you want me to hire security for you because I will?"

"No. I don't need security."

"Then what are you really afraid of?" Randy looked up at John then looked down quickly

"I don't know."

"Do not lie to me."

"I'm afraid that one day you'll really just get so fed up with this you'll leave and take Li with you."

"Is that what you really think? That I would leave and take one of the most, if not the most, precious thing away from you? What would I accomplish by doing that? I don't want to hurt you and I don't want you to hurt. Ever. Do you understand me?" He feels Randy nod against his chest. "Am I sick of this Cody bullshit? Absolutely. Do I get just a little irritated with you when Cody pops up? Yes but I'm with you for the long haul. I knew about this before I married you. I take the good with the bad."

"Yes but that was all before we had a baby." John looked down at Randy

"So would you like for me to divorce you? Save myself all the stress and trouble?"

"No John, of course I don't want that."

"So shut up and stop trying to give me an out."

"Why do you love me John?"

"Oh for fucks sake. At this point, I really don't know."

"Johnny."

"Do you need to be coddled right now?" Randy smiled

"Yes."

"You know I hate when you do this."

"I know but go ahead and tell me." John sighed and decided to play along

"Oh goodness, there are so many reasons I don't know where to start."

"Start with my looks." John laughed

"Of course; hmm where do I start? Well, your eyes,"

"What do you like about them?"

"What don't I like about them? The color is amazing and I can tell your mood by the shade of blue they are. I love how they look in pictures…you give good sexy eyes when you take pictures." Randy laughed.

"What else?"

"Oh! I know; I love your ass. I mean, people talk about mine but yours really doesn't get the credit its due. Sometimes when it peeks out of the bottom of your tights, I imagine myself just walking up to you and biting it."

"I'd love it if you did that."

"I don't think Vince would."

"Probably not…keep going."

"I love your smile…when you actually do it. And I mean your full smile, not that half smirk thing you like to do although that's pretty sexy. I love your body. The way you're so long and lean and hard. The way you mold to my body when we cuddle, it's like your body was made for me." John paused for a while and Randy looked up at him

"John?"

"Your heart."

"My heart?"

"What I love most about you is your heart. You can be so cold and standoffish to other people but to those that you love you're absolutely amazing. You cry way more than I'd like at times but I know it's because you care so much. Your wonderful heart allows you to keep coming back to me even though I'm a big jerk at times." Randy sniffed and wiped his face

"But I wouldn't have you any other way."

"You're not going to get me any other way you crybaby."

"Johnny."

"I also love you because you gave me Lily. I could not have asked for anything better."

"Would you like to have more children in the future?"

"That's up to you since you have to do all the hard stuff. My job's easy."

"I'd love to give you another baby or two."

"I'd love it too."

"I love you so much John."

"I know Randy, I know." Randy got out of bed just to check on the baby. Seeing that she was asleep he slipped back under the covers where John was waiting and laid his head on John's chest while John slipped his arms around him. Once settled they drifted off into a peaceful night of sleep