Lilianyas: It is just I always imagined Edward didn't like Tanya as a possible mate because she was too… happy? – And Edward is a little more silent… Sorry, on chapter 4 Irina will get better, I promise.
XOXO PaulaTHREE
Alice, Kate and me went in Kate's blue Lamborgini to School, while Edward and Jasper took Tanya's Black SUV.
Every stare was on us. I felt like I was in Forks again, in that new weird day.
Jasper and Alice quickly took off to be alone and announce they were a couple; obviously Edward and I could not do the same because of Kate. I really didn't feel like kissing Edward in front of everyone just to mark him as my boyfriend so it didn't mattered.
"Oh, goodness they are ho-oooot" Edward transmitted the thoughts in very low murmurs of one blond guy (he resembled Mike and that made me homesick).
"Blond or brunette? Blond or brunette? Both!!" a dark haired tall jock thought.
"Oh my! He's sexier than any looser here! And the blond one? The one with the pixie girl? So Calvin Klein model material" a red haired, blue eyed girl thought.
And those thoughts went like that all morning…
"Golden eyes? Yummy!"
"Her name is Bella Swan, the other is Kate Whitlock, they are all foster kids and there are other three, what were their names?"
"The blonde new boy is hot! Jasper Whitlock, I can imagine myself marring him! Ms. Whitlock? So cute!"
Some thoughts were only out names, like we were some kind of famous celebrity.
"Bella Swan"
"Jasper Whitlock"
"Edward Cullen"
"Alice Swan"
"Kate Whitlock"
Others simply tried to memorize our family tree.
"Kate and Jasper are brother and sister, Whitlock kids. Alice and Bella are the Swan sisters. Edward Cullen is the dark haired sexy guy"
"Jasper and Alice are a couple, I saw them kissing!"
"Bella and Edward are together! They hold hands all the time, so sweet!"
"Kate doesn't have a boyfriend? So fucking weird! She's so beautiful"
By lunch I was totally bored of hearing what Edward was telling us, I didn't want to hear any more thoughts.
"Stop" I told him "It's— I don't like it— it is one thing to know they think about us every second and something totally different is to know what they are thinking" I think I was being a bit rude, but I was really fed up, not with Edward, with the school.
"Sorry" he said as we got to the lunch line.
"I am going to find us all a table, right? You can buy me anything you want" I told Edward.
I was going straight for a table I saw empty when I heard Kate was next to me.
"You know you are being a bit unfair with Edward, right? I mean, you are making him blame himself! He thinks you are unhappy" she said softly.
I sat on a chair, and saw Alice and Jasper coming toward us with their trays of food.
We hadn't been together all day.
I had a class with Jasper and another with them together, but we hadn't had a chance to talk a lot.
Just Alice smiling a lot and Jasper making me feel happy — damn powers of his — until I couldn't help but smile, I felt happy, I didn't have a clue why I was happy but I was.
I think I even freaked out a small boy who sat next to me on Spanish (the class I had with Alice) since I was still smiling because of Jasper's powers.
"Dile a Jasper que se detenga," said when the teacher was near; she wouldn't understand what I was talking about "in any moment now I'll probably start dancing!"
The happiness had slowly receded until it was just a bit of excitement bubbling on my stomach that was still bothering me now on the canteen.
"It's not him! It's all, it is weird to wake up and find your life completely changed, you know? I don't blame him, he shouldn't either… but I can't do a thing to get my mood better… I…"
Then, Alice and Jasper sat next to us.
I was sure they had heard all our conversation, as well as if they were next to us.
Probably Edward was hearing too, but I didn't care.
I missed my dad, my house in Forks and Forks high.
This school just wasn't right.
"I am sorry, Bella" Jasper said when he sat, while making me feel better.
"Thanks" I said, and I really meant it, I had dreaded the feeling of false happiness he was creating in me all day, but now, him clearing my feelings had made me see I was hurting Edward, so I got up and went to were he was, still in the line, just a bit closer to the food.
"Sorry" I said standing next to him "I am just a bit nostalgic, and strange as it must sound, I miss the green in Forks."
"You used to say Forks was too green" he laughed and some girls near swooned.
I almost growl, but I contained myself just by looking at his amber eyes. So perfect, so wonderful and right they made me feel home, even when I wasn't. They made me feel right.
My eyes were pretty close, a little bit stronger, with some flickers of orange and red.
I had hunted some more in the night to make my eyes light up a little more and make disappear the frightening red.
"Well, Denali is too white for my taste," I teased him lowering my voice "here blood is a bit cold." I said making a face.
He just laughed and said only for me to hear "We could come back, you know? In fifty years or so"
I grinned, "I love you" I said loud enough for people around us to hear.
He had opened his mouth to answer when we heard a gasp and then Kate said in a clear soft voice "Bella, Bella, it's Alice."
I was sure people around her — normal people — hadn't heard her, just seen her move her lips fast.
We walked, maybe a little too fast, towards Alice.
Jasper was holding her; she was looking far away, with a lost look.
He was gripping her by her shoulders, like he was hugging her.
"What's wrong, Edward?" I said.
He had the same blank look, and I knew he was seeing the same as Alice, so I took his hand and guided him.
"She's… why is so confusing?" he said while we walked.
Suddenly, he stopped and gasped, he looked directly at Alice with a painful stare.
"What is it? Edward?"
"She saw— we have to leave, we have to go now, Alice!" he said, now angry.
"Yes, yes, now, let's go" she talked like she was tired, and Jasper half hauled her to the car.
Now, Kate wasn't driving slowly, she was going fast and it was scary.
"Do you know what's wrong?" I asked her.
We were alone in her car; Alice had gone with Jasper, refusing to leave his side.
"I have no idea, but Edward was pretty freaked out, and let me tell you, I had ever seen him like this."
I have, I wanted to say, when James was hunting me.
But I didn't say a thing as the snow surrounding us changed from annoying and puffy, to spotless and endless.
Like some scary terror movie…