February 12, 1971
Dear Ted,
My parents know. My whole family knows. They're going to blast me off over break. I'm not a Black anymore. Narcissa won't talk to me. Bellatrix is going to kill me.
I don't know how they found out. I was so secretive. All your letters are rolled up into a pair of the most hideous argyle tights I have ever seen. Narcissa would never touch them. Evie would never tell. I have never done anything to hurt my dorm mates. Bellatrix is far away. The boys cannot across the hall.
Teddy, I don't know what to do. I know I said I would leave this summer. I know I said a lot of stuff, but that was my choice. That was me leaving, telling my family good-bye, and that I love them. This is my entire family, my sister, Regulus, Sirius, Aunt Cassiopeia, all telling me that I am no longer wanted. Telling me that I am not good enough. That they do not love me anymore. Can you imagine that? How can I possibly bear that idea?
Even the third years are sneering at me. Narcissa refuses to even look at me. I was tripped by Hecate Greengrass in the common room. I was called a blood-traitor. They're saying horrible things, Ted. Awful, crude, rumors are spreading all about. They threatened you. Lucius Malfoy, Rabastan Lestrange, and Cain Nott said they would kill you if I ever talked to you again. I will try and write letters, but I need you to stay away from me in the halls, at least until I sort this out. I promise I will stop them, but I can't do it until this dies down a little. Please.
Could you also tell Evie something for me? Tell her that she's my best friend. That's why I can't talk to her. Even if they don't end up hurting her for being my friend, her reputation will be ruined. Please, Ted. Make her understand that I'm not worth it. She can have nice Pureblood friends, and marry a nice Pureblood boy. Keep her safe.
I will plan on going home with you over the holidays, after I'm blasted off, I suppose. I need to be there for that, just so I can see it. So I can know for sure I'm gone. Then I'll stay with you, if you're sure it's no trouble.
Do your best to explain this to Arthur and Aiden, and Molly as well. I've grown rather fond of them, enough so to maybe even call them friends. Tell them all hello, and for Merlin's Sake, Theodore, eat some food! I will be fine. Honest. I even smiled when Nott got detention today.
Love,
Meda
Vous n'ĂȘtes jamais seul, ThĂ©odore.
