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Chapter 18

Four Months later

Bella's pov:

It's been four months since I left my family. My heart still feels empty, even my best friend Jacob Black and his dad Billy who I've been staying with can't seem to fill this void. I'm still in contact with my Mom and Dad and my brothers and sisters. Edwards another story, I can barely look at him because I know just one look from those eyes and I'll melt and break down. Alice tells me that the visions changed as soon as I left the house, so I can't regret my decision. My family will be safe and so will I, but I don't think I can be happy again.
School was the same as always. I sit with Angela at lunch she's quiet like me and kind, Jessica still hasn't stopped asking me questions about my families spilt and is still trying to get Edwards attention. In Biology I sit with Mike now and avoid all possible contact with Edward. I occasionally go shopping with Alice and Rose or to a football game with Emmet and Jasper, not that I enjoy myself but for that hour or two I feel as though I'm part of something again. I spend most my time with Jacob and his friends (when they're not in wolf form) and it helps distract me from my pain. Billy is such a kind man; I can see why my real Dad would've had him as a friend. Staying here I have learnt all about my past and my real parents. They sound like very nice people, but they will always be strangers to me.

"Bell's would you do an old man a favour?" Billy never asked me to do anything I'm a health hazard he says, so he really must be stuck.

"Sure, what is it?" I'm not a health hazard.

"Run this prescription to the hospital, Jacobs going to be out late and I hope you don't mind" The hospital, why would I mind I get to pop in and see Dad.

"Yeah, no problem. See you later!" I almost sprinted to the car; I hadn't seen my dad in about a week so I'm really looking forward to seeing him.

The drive to the hospital was like always uneventful in this small town. I handed in Billy's prescription and headed upstairs to Dad's office. I could hear a commotion from behind the double doors on my father's level, I walked through to see people running and screaming. What's going on? I could see many people injured by my father's office and a rough looking man with gun threatening people. I couldn't understand what he was shouting. I stood in this bloody hallway, shocked as I just stared at this horror scene.

"Bella, go now before it's too late" Dr. Snow was standing opposite me, calming a little girl down, it looked as those her mother was one of the casualties by the sound her cry.
"Where's my dad?" I murmured, of course he would be safe but he could be exposed if shot.

"I don't know Bella, he and Edward were right in the middle of it" Edward? No! I felt eyes burning into my turned back. I looked around back to the man who was now behind me.
"You" He grunted in my ear, I could feel the gun pressed into my spine. "The Cullen kid right?" A patient of my dad's would of course know all his family but the mass amount of photos in his office. Should I lie to this man and risk my life or tell the truth and risk my life? "Lie, to him Bella" Edwards voice rang through my mind but I couldn't see him around. I was about to deceive this crazed man when my dad called him.

"Jason, Leave her alone. You have a problem with me not her or any of these people. So lets me and you talk this out in my office" His calm voice sang through the panicked halls.
"Why? What have I got to lose? You made sure I don't have anyone left!" what was he on about? My dad would never hurt anyone.

"Jason, Thomas had an aggressive form of cancer there was nothing anyone could do. I know you're hurting and I can't understand what it's like to lose a son, but this doesn't excuse what you're doing. You've killed innocent people" His voice still so calm.

"You might not know what its like to lose a son but you'll soon now what its like to lose your daughter" Then I went numb, I could hear the screaming and people running and the world seems sideways as I fell to the ground. Did I fall? The people around me were getting blurry and the screams silencing out. The last thing I remember hearing is my panicking father holding me in his arms and shouting "Edward no!".

Then it went black.

Edwards pov:

Another day and I sink deeper in despair. Carlisle, Esme and Alice are the only ones who still talk to me. The other 3 blame me for Bella's clear depression and unhappiness. She doesn't talk to me and has stopped looking in my direction. I don't know what to do to make this right. I still refuse to let her become one of us and there is no other solution. It will hurt now but she is human she will eventually grow up and die. I can't even think about this, how could I even think about that? I need to get away and fast.

"Edward, please come back soon" Alice thought as I slipped out of the cafeteria, I would go to Carlisle and tell him of my plans. Esme would be hurt but she would eventually get me back, I sent away her only child. Not only did I push away the reason for my existence the love of my life, but I sent her packing to young werewolves, how idiotic could I be? If guilt could crush I would be nothing more than a flat mess on the floor.

I reached Carlisle's office only to be told that he was busy with a patient. I decided to wait for him, he deserves to know what I'm doing I could hear the whole hospitals thoughts. The happiness of new born babies; the sadness of a loss; the frustration in a lost causes. I tried to blend them out. Looking at the walls in Carlisle's office was heart breaking. Pictures of Bella as a two, three, six, ten, fifteen year old; pictures of the whole family, happy.

I was waiting hours for my father to return and when he did he was not himself, from his thoughts he was angry at himself. A cancer victim had just died and he felt he was personally responsible, maybe he could of done more, with Carlisle's thorough commitment I doubted it. It didn't help his guilt that his patient was a 7 year old boy and the boy was his father's only family.
"Edward, what do I own for this visit?" He tried not to think of what happened and was trying to be himself.

"It's not your fault Carlisle." He knew this but he was too human to feel anything other than guilt.

"I know. I just feel so completely useless at times. It was only 4 hours ago we sat in this exact office talking about you lot actually and now. Well, I know you didn't come here for nothing, what can I do for you?"

"I'm leaving. I think it's what's best, if I go alone now. It gives everyone time to heal."

"I see you've made your mind up" we both could here the panicked footsteps outside the door and people screaming, then a gunshot. We ran out of the office to find someone bleeding heavily in the hallway and a man with a gun shooting and shouting. It was the dead boys' father looking for someone to blame and pay. My phone starting vibrating in my pocket, Alice no doubt. I could see what was happening I didn't need her to tell me so ignored it.

"Carlisle Cullen, you will pay for Thomas' death" The angry man yelled, again shooting and hurting people. It was chaos and the smell of blood was too strong for me I had to hide in Carlisle's office. If Carlisle went out and got shot we all would be exposed, but if he didn't go out people would be killed and hurt in his name. Carlisle always thought of people first and walked out to the crazed man. He tried talking calmly to him but this only angered him and he shot a nurse who fell in Carlisle's arm. He reasoned with the man to let him treat the dying girl and come back to him.
The minds of those in the hall way were sickening. The fear the families they thought they'd never see again and the injured begging god for help. Then I saw her, my pale goddess had just walked into this mess and I wanted to jump out to save her but I could not do this without killing a few people with my blood lust, and most importantly killing her. The man had spotted and recognised Bella from Carlisle's photos, he headed towards her and pointed a gun in her back.

"The Cullen kid, right?" He grunted in her ear, lie to him Bella, I prayed that she would. I couldn't hold myself here much longer. Carlisle had returned and he would save his daughter and my love.
"Jason, Leave her alone. You have a problem with me not her or any of these people. So lets me and you talk about this out in my office" His voice was soothing me and pushing the monster I feel rising, back down.

"Why? What have I got to lose? You made sure I don't have anyone left" what was he on about? The guilt Carlisle felt was unjustified and he would be made to pay?
"Jason, Thomas had an aggressive form of cancer there was nothing anyone could do. I know you're hurting and I can't understand what it's like to lose a son, but this doesn't excuse what you're doing. You've killed innocent people" He still was Calm but was slowly losing it; Bella was so small and scared. She was shaking and there was nothing Carlisle could possibly do without major consequences. I read Jason's mind and I jumped from my prison and ran towards the door as I heard my worst nightmare happen.

"You might not know what its like to lose a son but you'll soon now what it's like to lose your daughter" Then he shoot Bella, her body just flopped to the floor and blood poured from her, scent meant nothing to me now, I was running to revenge her hurt.

"EDWARD! NO!" Carlisle screamed to me but his voice could not stop me, the slowing heart of the girl in his arms did.
I looked at her. So peaceful and fragile and broken.

"Come back to me Bella" I sobbed tearless cries into her silent body.

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