Chapter 2:
Goodbye Forever
Alice's POV
"well, um…J-J-Jessica" he continued.
"What?" I shouted so loud Bella could have heard from her house. I felt a calm, serene wave of acceptance wash over me, "stop trying to suppress my feelings!" I scowled at Jasper who looked as calm and cool as ever with a faint smile tugging at the corners of his lips.
I wanted to accept what he just said but for some reason I still felt protective and him falling in love with someone; sounded a trillion times worse than me loving another. I wanted to break everything in my sight but suddenly I felt glad- This was good at least I wouldn't have to leave him alone but that ugly, brat, Jessica eeeew! I knew it was wrong if he truly loved her but I couldn't help but know that he deserved someone much better than him.
I smoothed out my Prada skirt, took a deep breath and under my breath (knowing that he could hear me) whispered "well I'm very happy for you."
And there it was- a premonition.
"What Alice? What do you see?" I heard Jasper ask. I could still hear the compassion in his voice as if everything had returned to normal.
"Alice?" he asked again. I felt a pencil and paper slip into my hand. I knew what I saw would hurt him- but my visions didn't work that way; I had to draw what I saw or I just couldn't draw and he knew the extent of my abilities. I desperately fought against my hand to draw the two of us smiling and hugging… that's what I wanted to see.
I succumbed and drew my vision; I was walking down the aisle looking absolutely stunning in my Gucci –completely white wedding dress. Carlisle was walking me down the aisle as I surveyed my guests. Jasper caught my eye- he was holding Jessica's hand and gazing deeply into her unimpressive eyes. I scowled. Then he shot his head back gazed at me and started to cry. I felt just the tiniest bit smug. I forgot Jasper and looked straight ahead as I watched my fiancée, Caius gaze at me in awe with impatient eyes. The ceremony took place- WE WERE MARRIED!!! Then the vision stopped and I returned to reality.
His eyes looked pained but this could never be taken away. I sinned.
"I'm sorry, Jasper… we just weren't meant to be…"
"Guess not" and he stormed out of the room.
He left the door unlocked…so I went in, "Jasper, Jasper honey I know you're in here….Jasper?" I found him lying on our bed. His faced buried in my pillow. "Jasper? I'm sorry…I'm just doing what's right for me…"
"No' I'm sorry. Sorry I wasn't good enough for you? Just wanted you to know that you hold my greatest years and memories in your heart. Alice, I love you and I'm wishing you all the best in your new life."
"Thank you."
"I guess this is it- the end of our life together. Come…give me a hug!" and he pulled me into one of his special warm hugs with his arms tight around me… in his arms I felt safe, I felt at home, I felt like I was in heaven. I knew I still had feelings for him.
"I love you too, Jasper. You'll forever hold a very special place in my heart. Well… my things are packed – I guess that this is it?"
"Goodbye Alice. I love you."
"As do I."
"So when is your flight?"
"In about six hours…?"
"What are you gonna do now?"
"I'll probably go and see Jess…"
Those words broke my heart. "Well, bye"
"Farewell."
I leaned in and softly kissed his soft cheek. He reciprocated.
I flew down the stairs- no one was home. YES!!!!!!! I suspected Jasper would give them the details so I left them a note containing only the bare minimum:
Dear Carlisle, Esme, Rosalie, Emmett, Edward, Bella and Jasper,
I'm leaving and I didn't want to leave without saying goodbye. I'm going to get married to my true love- Caius and I knew you guys would try to talk me out of it but I'm going. You all will understand- I'm sure. I don't mean to cause any trouble… and I hope your memories of me are all fond. Just accept it and move on. DO NOT come after me. I LOVE YOU ALL WITH ALL MY HEART.
Alice
Then I decided to leave them all a personal note.
Dear Carlisle,
Thank you for taking me in and loving and guiding me as a father. You are the best friend and mentor anyone could possibly ever have. I wish you the best of luck for the rest of your existence. I love you. I'm sorry.
P.S. - I had a vision that you were walking me down the aisle. I hope it comes true.
Alice
Dear Esme,
You are my mother and will always be and for that I am eternally grateful. I wish you the best of luck for the rest for your existence. I love you. I'm sorry.
Alice
Dear Rosalie,
Thanks for being my best sister. I love you. I'm sorry.
Alice
Dear Emmett,
Always there when I was down, thanks. I love you. I'm sorry.
Alice
Dear Edward,
Best brother ever. My best guy friend. Thank you for all your advice and support. Thank you. I love you. I'm sorry.
P.S.- You were my best man.
Alice
Dear Bella,
My best friend- thank you for putting up with my Barbie doll Bella sessions. Thanks for your support. I love you I'm sorry.
P.S.- I saw you as my Maid of Honour for my wedding
And last but not least- Jasper
Dear Jasper,
You are without compare the most terrific person I have ever met. You completed me, helped me find my way, you were my sun on a cloudy day; my moon on a dark night. You were and still are the very core of my existence- don't do any thing irrational. I love you with all my heart. I could go on and on but I'm running out of time and I can't tell you why? Good luck with Jessica. I LOVE YOU.
Xoxoxoxoxo
Alice
GOODBYE- I'LL MISS YOU ALL- MY FAMILY…