Just got a new program….well, laptop. It has Windows 7 Starter, and even though it's pretty great, I miss being able to have my Spencey wallpapers! Hope your Christmas was merry, and best wishes for the new year! I'm working out some plotline bugs in my Christmas story, so it might be a day or two before I write that.

A Good Man- Why not Me?

Spencer Reid stared ahead of him, a small frown growing every once in a while, but whenever it did, he made sure to straighten it out again. He was happy, though, and he couldn't figure out why. That thought alone made him frown.

"Merry Christmas, Pretty Boy," Morgan greeted from behind him. "Got any plans?"

"Huh…? Uh, no," Spencer replied distractedly. The older agent sighed, sensing that Spencer needed to talk something out. He stared at the kid, waiting for him to take the hint to talk to him. Spencer continued to just stare straight out the window, though, so Morgan scooted in front of the window, forcing him to exchange his attention to him. Spencer exhaled; he was hoping that Morgan would have left him alone, but it was now obvious that that wasn't going to happen. "Please, Morgan, I just want to be alone right now. I promise if I really need to talk to someone, I'll talk to Gideon, alright?"

"Oh yeah? And why not me?" Morgan glowered. He watched as Spencer's eyes briefly filled with some sort of sadness, and he quickly realized why Spencer was so reluctant. "I'm not like those boys from your school. I'm not a bully, alright? I'm an agent- just like you."

"I know," Spencer nodded, "but this has nothing to do with that," he admitted. He suddenly reached inside his messenger bag and produced a candy cane. After placing it in Morgan's hand, he walked away.

'Nah, I'm not letting him get away that easily,' Morgan thought. He quickly ran up to catch the kid, and when he finally did, he placed a hand on the skinny kid's shoulder. "What is it about then?"

"I'd rather not say-"

"No, the BAU is a family, Reid. You need to learn that it's the only way we can all stay sane. Sure, there are some things that you don't have to tell us, but of course we'll still tease you about them. Things like this, though, things that could hurt how you do the job? Those are things that we need to know about. We're all here for you, kid. We've all been in your shoes before." Morgan waited for some sort of response from Spencer, and when he didn't receive any, he sighed and walked away.

Spencer watched as Morgan sped out of the BAU, a slight frown on his face. He knew that he had to let him in; he probably understood what was going on just as much as Gideon did, and because he was closer to his age, there was a better chance that he could relate better to him and give him advice that would be more helpful. It was hard for him to let people in, though, because he had become so used to taking care of others and ignoring his emotions, but he knew he couldn't do that with this job. It would require every ounce of him- emotional and physical- and if he was going to succeed in the job, he had to get used to getting intact with both parts of him. He had to find the balance between work and emotion, and even if he wasn't so sure he could do it, he knew that he had to try. So Spencer turned around, and even though unenthusiastic about the idea, he called back, "I'm happy."

"Excuse me?" Morgan asked, pausing at the elevator. Spencer paused before walking up to Morgan, who was staring at him with a confused expression. "Why is that a problem?"

"Three kids were killed today; a single mom was just torn apart; a killer outsmarted us. Of course we were able to get him and save future victims, and that is a great thing, but I shouldn't be happy…." Spencer halted, as if thinking over what he had just said for the first time. "Or is it normal?"

Morgan bit his lip; he hadn't been expecting that. How could he tell the kid his honest opinion without giving him the wrong idea? Although he was glad that Spencer had opened up, he was beginning to somewhat regret it. What if he gave him bad advice? What if he ended up confusing him even more? Morgan reluctantly nodded, knowing that he had to give the kid something. "Ah, Reid, there's no right or wrong answer there. Of course you should be happy about getting the UnSub, but you're right, we also lost so many victims in the meantime. You should be happy for just getting through your first few cases alone- I know I was! It's okay to not know how to feel yet; you'll figure it out in time. It took about half a year to learn that any life saved is a reason to be happy, and even if I told you right now how to feel, it wouldn't help you. Feelings are tricky, kid, because if you're told how to feel-"

"Then it's not your own feeling," Spencer nodded. "That makes sense," he sighed. "Thanks; that actually did help."

"Good, I'm here for you anytime," he nodded. He watched as the kid reached for his coat, gingerly putting it on. "Hey, do you want to go out of a drink? We've got a few days off because of Christmas, so even if you do actually decide to drink you won't have to worry about work," he smirked.

Spencer smiled, and even though it was against his better judgment, he nodded. "Yeah, I think I'd like that."

~ AGM ~

I hope I made that realistic! Thnx for reading everyone; The best of New Years wishes to the lot of you!