Just to let everyone know, I've completed the story up to chapter 8 and I am working on that now. As I proof read the chapters I will post them, so you'll see them posted rather fast. Also, for those that live in the DC area, you may wonder where the locations are that I have in my story. Stop wondering because I've never been there. The locations are pure fiction. I hope you all enjoy the story. As always, please R&R.
REVELATIONS
Chapter 2
Sweets came over to Dr. Brennan. "Angela said you wanted to see me."
"Yes, can you sit down for a few minutes? I need to ask you a question and I didn't want anyone else to hear us." Brennan said as she played with the logs she had just placed in the fireplace.
Sweets saw how serious Dr. Brennan was. He sat down next to her and waited for her to speak.
"Okay I admit that I do love Booth, but for some reason I am afraid to admit it and pursue a more personnel relationship with him. Why do you think I am so reluctant to commit myself to him? Why am I so afraid?"
Sweets, was surprised by her question. It was a typical, to the point, Brennan question. "You're afraid because you would have to give up control of your life. When we enter into a relationship with someone we take a chance with our love and the course of our life. This is a very serious life altering move for you. You would let yourself become vulnerable again and that's one position that you never want to put yourself into again. When you were a child you were hurt because the people that you loved most hurt you by abandoning you. They abandoned you and left you to the foster care system where you were abused.
"Dr. Brennan, you are afraid that if you let yourself love someone again that you will open yourself to that same pain again. You are afraid that sooner or later they will stop loving you and leave you like your parents did. To you, that means that someone else will have control of you again and that scares you more than anything else."
Brennan leaned back in her chair and stared into the fire. "Do you think that is the reason why I wanted a baby? Because with a baby I would still have complete control of my life and have someone that would love me unconditionally and never abandon me."
"Yes, that is part of the reason. You chose Booth to help you create a baby because you do love him, but because you are afraid to lose control of your life the logical part of your mind was able to look at it scientifically.
Problem wanted someone to love.
Problem 2. You wanted someone to love you unconditionally and never leave you.
Problem 3. You want Booth to be that someone and even though he wouldn't be with you, it would still be like having him with you.
Solution to problem 1, 2 and 3: create your own child that would never leave you. Physically they would eventually go out on their own, but emotionally they would still be attached to you and would always come back to you.
Because you love Booth he was the first one to come into your mind. You categorized his attributes and you were able to convince yourself that, that was why you wanted him to father your baby. In other words you would be able to have a part of Booth but not run the danger of him ever leaving you and losing all of him. If you separated, part of him would still be a part of your life." Sweets sat back in his chair and waited for Brennan to say something. He watched her carefully and waited for some kind of reaction.
Without either one of them noticing, Booth stood close by listening.
After a long moment of silence Brennan finally gave Sweets the reaction that he was hoping for. "I think your right Sweets, I am afraid. I've always been afraid of carrying a relationship too far. It's part of why I wouldn't commit to Sully. But basically I said no to Sully because I knew that I loved Booth. With Booth I can have the man I love and still continue to do the work that I love. If I could get over this paralyzing fear I know that I could have a good life with him. I've always felt that I could always overcome any obstacle but for some reason I can't overcome this one big wall that stands between me and a happy life with Booth." Brennan wiped her tears away with the back of her hand.
In the back of them Booth stood along with Angela, who had joined him just a few minutes ago. When Booth started to go to Brennan Angela stopped him and told him to go back into the house. He did as she said without saying anything.
"Dr. Brennan, when we fall in love with someone we are all taking a chance. We take a chance that the other person loves us as much as we love them. We take a chance that we will stay in love with each other and grow old together. We take a chance that our children will be healthy and not die earlier than they should. As Booth would say, it's all a crap shoot; it's a game of chance. No one else knows this but I have proposed to Daisy and she has accepted. Both Daisy and I are putting our chips on the table and taking a chance with each other. Throw your chips on the table Dr. Brennan and take a chance because life with someone you love is worth it. Booth is a man of honor and will not disappoint you."
Sweets sat back in his chair and waited for a response from Dr. Brennan. He could see the tears falling down the side of her face as they sparkled in the fire light.
"Would you like me to help you through this Dr. Brennan?"
Brennan looked at Sweets. "Yes, I want a life with Booth but I have to overcome this fear first and I don't understand why I can't reason my way through this."
"Is it alright if I talk to your father?"
"Yes, go ahead. I have to tell you something also. I used Booth's sperm deposit last month. I have an appointment with my Doctor on Monday to see if I'm pregnant or not. I also brought a home pregnancy test with me and I was going to use it tomorrow morning. I am pretty sure though that I am pregnant. Please don't tell anyone though. Angela is the only one that knows right now and I want to keep it that way until my Doctor confirms it."
"Okay Dr. Brennan, it will fall under the Doctor-Patient category. I think I'll go back in now it's getting a little chilly for me." Sweets got up and walked back into the house where everyone was gathered around the pool table. Booth looked up at Sweets when he came in. Jack was just about to take his turn.
Sweets knew he was going to ask him what was going on but he deflected his question by asking "Who's winning?"
"Well Booth has finally let me take a turn at the table but he's already pocketed most of the balls." Jack said as he prepared to make his shot. Everyone was quiet as he lined up his shot. All eyes were on the white ball as it hit its target ball and it went into the pocket. Hodgins quickly put the last 2 balls into the pocket. Even though he had pocketed the rest of the balls he still didn't have enough points to win.
"Okay since I won I'll be bringing Parker over with 15 or 20 kids for his birthday party. I'll bring the cake and the food. His birthday is July 12th which falls on a Saturday this year." Booth said as he put his stick away on the wall rack. He went over to Hodgins and put his hand on his shoulder. "Secure the hatches and put all of the valuables away because it's going to be like a tornado is going through here." He turned and walked away leaving the sound of an evil laugh echoing in the large room.
Brennan was just walking in when Booth came out of the pool room.
"I heard you taking advantage of Jack. Apparently I never told them how you used to play pool in your gambling days."
Booth looked at his partner closely. He could see that she had been crying. "What's wrong Bones? And don't tell me nothing."
"Come and sit down with me Booth." Brennan led him over to the stairs and sat down on the third step from the bottom and patted the step next to her. Booth sat down next to her and waited for her to say something.
Brennan put her hand over Booth's. "Remember when we left Sweets office and you said that you loved me and wanted us to take a chance with each other?"
"How can I ever forget?"
"I do love you Booth but I have a problem that is preventing me from taking that chance with you."
Booth got excited and took her hand in his. "We can figure this out together Bones. We can overcome anything together."
"No Booth, I have to figure this out on my own. Sweets is going to help me though. All I am asking is that you not push me on this. When I have figured this out I will come to you, but I must do this on my own."
Booth just stared into her eyes. With his natural ability of being able to read people, he could see that she was determined to conquer this problem on her own. He raised her hand to his lips and kissed it gently. When he put her hand back down she put her hand on the side of his face and kissed him. For the first time he felt all of the love that she had for him in the kiss. She got up then and went up to her room and left Booth sitting and watching her climb the steps.
The others had been watching and listening from around the corner but didn't come out until they heard Booth go up to his own room which was right next to Dr. Brennan's. (Angela had chosen the room for her friend.)
"I feel terrible that we listened to such a private conversation." Cam told the others.
Angela looked at Sweets, questioningly. "She'll be alright Angela. She just needs a little help to see the truth of what her parents and brother really did." Sweets left the little group and started for the stairs. "Goodnight everyone." The rest followed Sweets upstairs as well. It had been a long and active day and they were all tired.
TBC….