Yep I should be hated because I have not written in forever. I had writers block so i'm sorry and then I just never got to it. Also I got stressed and this was just another thing on my shoulders, but i'm gonna try to get on to this.
Cant do this!
'I feel like they're all just staring at me' it's been three days after the sleep and two of those days were spent in the hospital healing. And I feel like everyone knows, well I guess that's what you get for living in such a small town. I should probably tell you what happened.
3 days before
Emmet P.O.V.
"Hurry we're losing a lot of blood" the doctors are working hard to get Bella's heart rate back to normal. 'I'm so stupid. How could I do this to Bells' I feel so guilty. I never thought she would go back to this and do it so badly.
"Beep, beep, beep… her heart rate is back to normal. Can you tell me what happened?" the doctor looked serious.
"We were at a friend's house and we were drinking. Then drinking led to fighting, fighting to her locking herself into a bedroom, to this. Is she gonna be okay?" I kind of rushed through it.
"Well as you know we got her heart back to normal. Her stomach was pumped and we got blood into her. She should wake up by Sunday."
"K thanks" he smiled at me and I left and waited for the Caverly's. As I walked into the waiting room Darren rushed towards me.
"Is she okay? Can I see her?" I was so worried and scared that she was gonna die or something.
"Ya she will wake up on Sunday. And no you can't see her; I'm the only visitor aloud to see her. Charlie isn't even aloud to go in" Darren looked confused.
"Why?" Darren asked.
"I think they think someone did this to her"
"Did you even call Charlie?"
"Ya he should be here in 5 minutes." I was kind of worried because he might think I did this to her.
"Where is she? Where is my daughter?" Charlie came busting in here all scared.
"Mr. Swan, Bells will be fine. She just had an accident and, well, here we are." I said quietly.
"What the hell are you doing here? I thought you left with your family." He sounded so disgusted when he said family.
"I left my family a while ago. And I came here because Bells wanted me to."
"I want to see her" he tried to leave, but I stopped him.
"You can't. I am the only one aloud to go in there until she wakes up. I'm sorry." Charlie looked so defeated, like he failed her or something.
"Ok. I guess I can't fight the doctors." He went to sit in the guest room. I left to go back to Bella's room. I sat there just waiting for her to wake up.
~Sunday~
Bella P.O.V.
I felt very light headed. 'God what's wrong with my head. Wait it's my whole body' I opened my eyes and at first I didn't see anything, but then my eyes adjusted to the brightness.
'Where am I?' I looked around and I realized I was in the hospital. I looked for the button and then pressed it. In no time a nurse came in "You're awake. I'll get the doctor right away." When she left someone came in. Emmet.
"Hey Bells. How are you?" he looked cautious, like I was about to freak out on him like a mental patient.
"I'm just fine Emmet. How are you?" sarcasm leaking out of my mouth. I was so mad at him I don't think I can forgive him. He looked sad "I mean it shouldn't be normal for someone not to have a heart beat. Shall I call the doc?" I said the last part all concerned.
"Bells I'm sorry. It became a challenge to me and I was kind of drunk please forgive me." He was so flustered, but I can't just forgive him. I trusted him and he just made me feel like a slut. Like Rosalie.
Before I said anything the doctor came in "Well Isabella is it?"
"Um just Bella" I said.
"Ok, Bella, your blood seems back to normal and you seem fine, but I would like to know what happened?" he asked more like demanded.
"We were just having a party at a friends and drinking was involved. I went to the kitchen to make something and a slip of the knife. And here we are. Can I go now?" he had trouble believing it, but sighed and signed the paper.
"Ok you can leave. Next time be more careful with a knife and try not to drink." He smiled and left. 'God I really hate the doctors. They're one of the scariest people ever. I mean they can kill somebody and make it look like an accident, scary right.' I slowly got up and all the blood rushed to my head. Emmet caught me before I could fall, but I swatted him away.
"Emmet how could you do that to me. You're my best friend, no my brother and you go telling my past making me feel like a complete slut in front of everyone." I bust out crying and he hugged me really tight.
"I know I was a complete asshole and i'm so sorry. I was drunk, but that doesn't excuse it please, please forgive Me." he begged me as I cried in his arms.
Ok I must be PMSing or something because I stopped crying and pushed him away "No leave me alone. I hate you!" and I walked out into the waiting room. I'm guessing my car is still at their place and most likely Charley is here to bring me home.
Once everyone saw me they rushed to me, but I ignored them all and looked at my dad "Can you take me to their house first so I can get my stuff?" I became what I was the first week the Cullen's left; cold, lifeless, and emotionless. He flinched when he noticed it and some of the Caverly's gasped.
"Sweetie I think you need to go to a psychiatrist and ge-"
"No. I don't need one I just need you to get the fuck out of my face and take me to my car or ill just walk there, ok?" I interrupted him and started yelling getting really close to a break down. "So make your choice."
"Bells I don't understand what's going on, what happened?" I just started at him waiting for the answer. "Ok fine lets go." We started walking to the exit when Darren grabbed my arm.
"Hey you don't have to go, you can still stay like you were going to." He pleaded with his eyes, but I just ignored him yanked my arm away and left.
~time skip~
'ugh Monday have to go to school and face the gossip, Emmet, and the Caverly's. I take my shower and put my robe on. I take a razor and make I deep-ish cut on my wrist. It was still a little sore, but that just makes it feel a lot better. I clean the blood up and look in my closet for clothes 'oh the perfect outfit for today'
It was a black dress with black and white plaid X's on the stomach, the straps, and the skirt part of the dress. I put on black arm warmers that were laced up to cover my scars, a black and white checkered bracelet, and black plastic bands. I put my key, lock, and bow necklaces on and sat at my dresser. I decided to straighten my hair and put red Betty boop bow clips in my hair. And lastly I put on my venom make-up line, Vera Wang perfume, red sunglasses, and black shoes.
I walked downstairs skipped breakfast (Charlie) entirely, grabbed my bag and left. I was trying to get to school fast to avoid everything, but the world is never on my side. As I get there I feel like they're all just staring at me it's been three days after the sleep and two of those days were spent in the hospital healing. And I feel like everyone knows, well I guess that's what you get for living in such a small town.
I walk in, keep my sunglasses on, and avoid the stares. I walk straight to class and wait for the bell to ring. 'I heard she tried to kill herself' Lauren said to Jessica, 'Ya me too. She like slight her wrists and drank a bottle of vodka' Jessica whispered to Lauren, 'No she took a gun to her head, but missed everything, like in the book impulse' Eric joined in, 'That's stupid there is no mark on her head' Jess replied 'she just wants all the attention'
"Why don't you just shut your slutty mouth. You guys better stop spreading rumors or you'll wish you were invisible, understand?" Aphrodite nearly growled at them. they got scared and went to their seats. She sat next to me.
I looked at her "Thanks" she just smiled at me and gave me hug.
"Just know I'm always here and I don't judge. You're my new sister and I have to protect you." My eyes started to tear up and she noticed (even with my glasses on) and took me out of class. We went outside and talked about everything. We went completely off topic while we were talking at a café. "so are you coming to homecoming with us?"
"I don't know I don't have anything to wear and it will be awkward." I started blushing.
"No one will say anything and Darren misses you and was going to ask you out."
"Really even after all that happened?" she nodded.
"Hey its 2:05 do you want to shop for the dance cause I already know your answer?" she asked.
"Sure and we can drop it off at my place then go to yours. I miss everyone too." We got everything for the dance and left to go to her place. 'I hope they will forgive me?'
AN: so that's it hope you liked it and please review I want to know what you think also her outfit is on my profile