Hello! Here is my conclusion to Finding Her. I want to thank ALL of you for sticking with me throughout this story, and through the sometimes very slow updates :) And I also want to thank my beta youdude! She has been just great, and without her this story wouldn't be what it is.

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Tobias Hankel.

That name haunted JJ as she lay in her hospital bed.

Tobias Hankel and Reid.

She saw it all over again in her mind. She saw Reid captured, she saw him being tortured, she saw him die and she saw him come back to life. And then she saw him after. She saw him broken and hurt, and she saw him addicted to drugs. She saw him afraid to turn to anyone on the team, and he saw the pain he went through.

And all of that was because of her.

JJ still felt responsible for it, despite that it had been years ago. Reid had healed, but no matter what she couldn't take away that hurt that Reid had suffered, and she would do anything to do so. If she could have taken his position there she would have in an instant. She was so sorry that any of that had happened.

When she had said "I'm so sorry" he had said "It's okay, it's not your fault".

He had forgiven her for all of the pain he went through. The pain that she could have prevented if she hadn't left him.

And now JJ wished that's what she had said to Emily. She wished she had told her it was okay, and that it wasn't her fault, because it wasn't. Things happen, sometimes they can be prevented and sometimes they can't be, but what mattered was this was an accident.

JJ remembered what she felt like after what had happened to her. The guilt had engulfed her, and she had felt like there was no where to turn. She felt isolated. She knew what Emily was going through right now, and she wished she could have prevented it, because no one deserves to feel that way.

JJ wrung her hands as she waited. Garcia had refused to let her out of her bed and had volunteered to find Emily for her. She needed to apologize. She wanted to make it right.

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Garcia was out of breath as she ran down the hallway. Emily and Morgan already had a ten minute lead and she had to find them; she had promised JJ. She hated to see any of her friends in pain and now that JJ understood what had happened, she hoped that they could work it out.

After what felt like eternity Garcia heard Morgan's voice from down the hallway. She sprinted towards it and slid into the waiting room they were in.

"Emily... Morgan... JJ..." She huffed, trying to get her words out.

"Slow down baby girl," Morgan said.

Garcia took a few deep breaths before she continued. "Emily, JJ needs to talk to you."

"Baby girl," Morgan rested his hand on her arm, "I don't think right now is a good time."

"You don't understand!" She brushed his hand off of her and hurried over to Emily. "She understands, she knows what happened. She wants to talk to you Em."

Emily looked around uncertainly.

Morgan shook his head slowly, "Garcia, this can wait until some other time."

"No," Garcia approached Morgan, and spoke quietly. "JJ wants to apologize. She feels terrible, and I think Emily should hear that now."

Morgan sighed and looked over to Emily to see what she thought. Emily shifted closer to them. She would go. Even if JJ wanted to yell at her more, she would take it.

Garcia let a small smile cross her face at her accomplishment.

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A knock came on JJ's door and Emily stepped in tentatively, with Morgan close on her tail.

JJ smiled shyly towards her. "Morgan, could you please let us talk alone?"

Morgan was about to protest, but Emily stopped him. Finally he complied, but stayed right outside of the door.

JJ sat up in her bed and slung her legs over the side.

"I'm so sorry Em," she whispered ashamed.

"You've got nothing to be sorry about. Don't apologize."

"No Emily, I was wrong. What I said to you was wrong, and I know that now." Sensing Emily's doubt JJ added, "I'm not doing this to make you feel better. I'm saying this because it's true."

"How can you even say that JJ?" Emily asked taking a step closer to her. "I crashed the car, and I hurt you."

"You didn't hurt me, I got hurt. There is a difference. Unless you did this on purpose, which I know you didn't, you are not to blame. People make mistakes, I've made plenty myself." JJ stressed.

"I don't know how I'm ever going to show you how sorry I am."

"You don't need to, because I already know. After Reid was abducted I thought he would hate me forever, but he didn't. I never thought I deserved that, but he did."

JJ offered Emily a seat next to her on the bed, and she took it. JJ took Emily's hands in hers and squeezed them tightly. She could see the pain in her eyes, and hated to think that she had placed some of it there.

"I will heal Emily. It may take a little bit of time, but the doctor said I will get back to normal, and I'll be able to get back to work." JJ smiled at her, but the smile wasn't returned. JJ sighed, and then made sure that Emily was looking at her.

"I forgive you, but before you can move on, you have to forgive yourself. It took me a long time to understand that. You need to know that not everything is in your control. What happened to Caroline is not your fault. Things happen in the field and they are unpreventable. You make the best decision you can at the time, but sometimes things just don't go the way you hope. But you need to forgive yourself."

Tears misted Emily's eyes as she listened to JJ's words. She knew they held truth, but she also knew it was something she wouldn't be able to do right away. She wasn't ready to forgive herself, but with time hopefully she would be able to.

As if reading her mind JJ started talking again. "It took me a long time to forgive myself for what happened to Reid, and I hope it doesn't take you as long, but I also know it's hard. I want you to know that I'm here for you."

JJ wrapped her arms around Emily's small shoulders and pulled her into a hug. A smile crossed her lips as she felt Emily return it. She knew that she would have to help her move on; she would show her everyday that this accident didn't define their friendship. As she healed physically, maybe Emily would be able to heal alongside her.

She could heal from the death of Caroline. If not forget the blame Caroline's father had placed on her, at least push it to the back of her mind. Understand that she had done everything she could.

And she could heal from the guilt of the accident.

But right now, the only thing stopping Emily was herself.

The End.