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Meredith laid her head in her hands, as she sighed a breath of relief. The pregnancy test read negative. But then why did she feel so upset and disappointed. Did she really want a child now? During the middle of her residency? She sighed as she lay down on the bed. Maybe she wanted kids more than she thought she did. She wasn't her mother. She wanted a husband and kids. She was just scared to accept it. She flipped over lying on her back, still holding the negative test in her hands. She and Derek would have kids one day. One day.

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"Meredith?" called Derek as he walked into the house a few hours later. He set a bag from the grocery store down on the kitchen counter. He quietly walked up the stairs, incase she was asleep. He walked into the bedroom to see Meredith staring straight up at the ceiling. He sat on the side of the bed next to her. "You feeling okay?" he asked gently as he brushed a piece of hair off her forehead.

Meredith handed him the pregnancy test. He looked up at her in surprise, before looking down to read the results. His eyes scanned it quickly before looking up and gently pressing a kiss to her forehead, He smiled a sad smile as he lay down next to her. She then cuddled up next to him.

"I thought I was pregnant." said Meredith. "I just… thought. And I would have been beyond freaked out if I had been. But now that I know that really isn't a tiny person inside me, it makes me feel all depressed and these weird feeling I never though I'd have for a baby that doesn't exist." said Meredith. "I sound pathetic." groaned Meredith as she sat up looking into Derek's eyes.

Derek shook his head as he smiled gently. "Mere, you don't sound pathetic; you sound like a person that's ready for a baby whenever it happens." said Derek.

"Yeah… I guess… How was your day?" asked Meredith as she played with the hole on the sleeve of her Dartmouth tee-shirt.

"It was good. The Chief was really concerned about you. He kept telling me to call you, every hour. Make sure you were okay." said Derek.

Meredith smiled slightly at that. "I know this seems rushed… and everything with my…. Thatcher just dying, but I was thinking about seeing if he'd walk me down the isle…. because that's what you do in weddings." rambled Meredith.

Derek nodded with a smile. "That's what you do in weddings. I think he'd be honored." said Derek

"Speaking of weddings, tomorrow Izzie, Cristina and I have a six hour shift, so at twelve we're going to the bridal shop. See if we can find a dress." said Meredith.

Derek nodded as he listened to her speak. This was actually happening in a matter of mere months, he was marrying the love of his life. They'd be Mr. and Mrs. Shepherd. They'd get bills written to them like that, and cards and etc. "Have you picked a maid of honor yet?" asked Derek.

Meredith shook her head. "No, not yet. I think it would just be easier to have them both be it. I told them both make sure they're available on the second of May. So they'll both be there." said Meredith "Have you asked Mark yet?"

Derek nodded. "I have, he's agreed to do it. I threatened him this time though, saying if he slept with you I'd kill him." said Derek with a devilish smile.

Meredith giggled at that, but was interrupted when her stomach growled.

"Hungry?"

"Starving."

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"I do not want to be here." complained Meredith, the next day as she Izzie and Cristina entered the bridal shop the next day.

"Oh come on Mere, it'll be fun. Trying on dresses and seeing how beautiful you'll look." said Izzie as they walked to the front desk to confirm their appointment.

"You call this fun? I call a heart transplant fun. This I just call downright dreadful." said Cristina as she examined a flowered headpiece, before tossing it aside.

"Cristina! Stop being such a downer. We're here to help Meredith find a dress." said Izzie as she rushed over to look at sample dresses.

"Please tell me you're not as happy about this as she is." whispered Cristina.

"I'm not." said Meredith as they took a seat where they were told to wait. They patiently waited for about ten minutes before an assistant walked over.

"Hi I'm Lauren I'll be helping you today." said Lauren as she waved to them. "Now who's the bride?" she asked.

"I am." said Meredith meekly waving her hand slightly.

"Hi." said Lauren walking over to stand in front of Meredith. "Congratulations. Now is there any dress in specific you want to try on?" asked Lauren.

"Um…. not really…. I don't really know what I'm looking for." admitted Meredith.

"Alright then, I'm going to pull dresses of the three main styles that would suit your body figure the best. Give me a few minutes. Why don't you have your bridesmaid try on dresses?" suggested Lauren as she scurried off.

"She sees perky." commented Cristina.

"Okay. Um…, hmmm, why don't you each pick a color dress and then I'll pick one and we'll see which looks the best." suggested Meredith.

Izzie nodded and took off for the racks of dresses. Cristina smiled unpleasantly, "This going to be a long afternoon."

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A few minutes later, it was determined that Izzie didn't look good in navy blue and the though of wearing pink made Cristina's stomach lurch. Meredith then handed them strapless lavender gowns. They both came a few minutes later.

"Oh how pretty." said Izzie as she walked to the mirror.

"I can live with this." said Cristina as she looked from the back.

"Alright agreed, it's the lavender dresses."

The sales person Laura returned with three garment bags in her hands. "Now if you don't like these we can try more, but I have a feeling one of these is the dresses." said Laura as Meredith followed her into a dressing room. Nearly five minutes later Meredith returned in a dress. The dress was a strapless ball gown with a sweetheart neckline and glittering diamond like pieces on the bodice. The waist was a dropped waist, with a scrunched look. Meredith came out not looking to too pleased.

"Well Mere?" encouraged Izzie.

"I feel like a giant cotton-swab." said Meredith while turning. " Too big and poufy." said Meredith.

"Agreed." said Cristina.

"Alright this one's a no, onto the next dress" said Laura guiding Meredith back into the dressing room.

The next dress Meredith came out in was a sheath silhouette with spaghetti straps and an empire waist. It was very plain and simple with no detail. Something Meredith could have liked, but did not.

"It's just… it hangs on my body." said Meredith looking at herself. She hated doing this. She wished that Derek and she could just get married in normal clothes. Some girls lived for picking out their wedding dresses; Meredith definitely didn't think she was, until she put on the perfect dress.

Meredith emerged in the third dress and Izzie gasped slightly. Along with Cristina who couldn't take her eyes off of Meredith. The dress was a strapless mermaid gown, with a waits that hugged Meredith in all the right places. It was made of satin and easy and comfortable to move in. The only detailing was a diamond rogue that went diagonally across the midsection on the dress.

"Meredith, you look beautiful." said Izzie as Meredith stepped in front of the mirror to see herself. When she did she was shocked at her reflection. She looked absolutely beautiful. The dress was not to fancy, but at the same time not too simple. It fit Meredith's personality perfectly.

"McDreamy's going to die, when you walk down that isle." said Cristina.

Izzie's eyes immediately lit up and she dashed out of the room and she returned moments later with a lavender flower clip. She gently swept the side of Meredith's hair up and clipped it back. "There. So is it the one Mere?" asked Izzie.

"It's perfect."

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