Thanks for the reviews everyone! Glad to see everyone enjoys fluff because there's more coming soon, but first some newlywed angst. We are on to the second week of honeymoon; they were given to get adjusted to married life. Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! Reviews make my day =).

Meredith groaned as Derek started kissing her neck for the billionth time that afternoon. Once arriving home from the hospital last night, they both went right to bed but this afternoon they couldn't seem to keep their hands off of each other. Every adoring or romantic thing either one of them said, turned both of them into sex crazed teenagers. Meredith knew though that their relationship wasn't built on sex. They loved one another and wanted to be with each other for the rest of their lives. They just happened to be good at sex. Very good.

"Der, Derek stop. Condom." breathed Meredith as Derek slowly pulled away and reached into the drawer. His hand didn't come back as fast as it normally did.

"We're out." said Derek as he continued to kiss her.

"No way buddy." said Meredith as she gently shoved him off her. "No condom no sex."

"Mere." groaned Derek as he lay back on the pillow. "We're married now.

"We may be, but I really don't need to get pregnant in the middle of my residency. At least until I pick my specialty." said Meredith as she ran her fingers through his dark curls.

"What would happen if you did end up getting pregnant? In the middle of your residency?" asked Derek his tone changing into something slightly harsher.

Meredith's mouth went dry; not knowing what was the right answer anymore. "I honestly don't know." said Meredith.

"You don't know?" said Derek as he pulled away from her. "Honestly Meredith you don't know? You're telling me you would abort our child if you happened to get pregnant within the next seven months." said Derek.

"Derek, I never said that. You're not listening to me."

"Well it sure as hell sounds as that's what you're saying." said Derek as he grabbed his shirt off the floor throwing it on, along with his jeans before leaving the room.

"What the heck did I say? thought Meredith.

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Meredith hung up the phone hours later after receiving a call from the Chief saying that she needed to come in, because the ER was filling up fast. He apologized knowing it was their honeymoon still, but at this point Meredith was relieved to get away from Derek. She quickly threw on a pair of scrubs of her three quarter sleeve shirt and headed for the door keys in hand. She was surprised when she saw Derek there, in his own scrubs looking like he was ready to leave.

"I was…uh paged." said Derek looking down, looking and probably feeling guilty for snapping at Meredith before. "Mere… I'm so sorry… I don't came over me…" started Derek.

"No save it. If you want to act like an ass, then do it someone else, not me." said Meredith as she grabbed her keys leaving and opening the door.

"Meredith!"

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Meredith quickly rushed into the trauma bay as an ambulance pulled in. The paramedics quickly jumped out with the stretcher.

"What've we got?" asked Owen Hunt as he took out his stethoscope.

"Four year old girl, fell down the stairs. Seized twice on the way here, is unconscious and not breathing on her own." said the paramedic.

"Alright Grey, Yang get her hooked up to a monitor. Someone page Shepherd." said Owen turning around and shouting at one of the interns or nurses.

"I was paged already. 4 year old seized twice on the way here right?" asked Derek as he pulled out his pen light and looked into her eyes. "Yeah she's bleeding out, we need to book an OR stat. Where's her parents?" asked Derek

The ambulance attendant walked passed them again. "A neighbor was outside and heard the crash and called 911, the woman said her mother's an attending at Mercy West, she's left alone a lot.

Meredith felt her breath catch in her throat. She couldn't breathe. This innocent little girl was living Meredith's childhood. It was like watching some sick, twisted home movie right in front of her eyes. A loud flailing beeping sound came from the monitors she was recently hooked up to.

"She's crashing. Get a code team." said Hunt as a cart immediately pulled up by them and a code nurse put the gel on the pads." Charge to 200. Clear." said Hunt as he shocked the tiny girl's body and the low flat line of the monitor stayed on the monitor.

"Charge again to 300." said Hunt as he waited. "Clear." said Hunt as he shocked the young girl's body once again. All the doctor's eyes were glued to the monitor as it continued to flat line.

"Charge again to 400." said Hunt as he once again waited. He then shocked the little girl's body. The monitor continued to flat-line. "Call it Doctor Grey.' said Hunt.

Meredith looked up and you could see the scene in front of her was hurting her and making it hard for her to even be in the room. Let alone call a child's death. A child that sadly probably lived a life like she had.

"Dr. Hunt…" started Cristina, trying to help Meredith out by making her do it. She looked at Meredith with a compassionate look. Something you got very rarely from Cristina unless you truly knew her.

"Dr. Grey call it." said Hunt more harshly.

Meredith looked up and saw Cristina looking down at her feet and Derek watching her to see if she would crumble under the pressure. She cleared her throat, reminiscing of having to do the same thing when she accidently resuscitated that elderly woman.

"Time of death… 12:09." said Meredith before quickly exiting the area. She need air, she needed to go somewhere. She quickly ran to an on-call room flinging open a door and shutting it behind her as she rubbed her forehead willing her self not get upset. To not let a case bring up her issues of the past. She looked up to see Derek enter the room.

"Get out." said Meredith.

"Mere….." started Derek as he walked closer to her.

"Just get out and leave me alone." said Meredith as she waited for him to leave." Leave" she spat out angrily as he continued to walk closer.

He then wrapped his arms around her. She squirmed to try and get free and angrily pushed him away. When she did so, she saw the hurt and comfort in his eyes as she looked at him.

"Just…leave." said Meredith as her words broke in half as she started to cry. Derek pulled her closer to him and comfortingly stroked her hair as she continued to cry. He stayed like that for about ten minutes. He kissed her forehead as he heard her cries turn into sniffles and gently led her over to one of the on-call beds. She slowly lay down, with him sliding in next to her. They laid there in silent for a few minutes before Meredith spoke.

"You know I never cried this much before I met you." said Meredith. "If we weren't married or you weren't around I probably would have just kept to myself and that would have led me to spiral out of control." said Meredith. "So even though I'm still angry with you, I'm glad you're here." said Meredith.

Derek kissed her forehead as they continued to sit in silence. Derek sometimes believed silence was sometimes easier communication then talking. You didn't have to say anything, but somehow you always knew what the other person was thinking.

"We'll have kids one day Derek. I want kids, I want you to know that." said Meredith as she rolled over to face him. "I mean when I built you the candle house, I did mention a kid's playroom, and it's there in our house waiting for kids to fill it. Our five chatty children will enjoy the house, I can tell."

"Five?" said Derek with a laugh. "You're really up for five kids, because I'm totally on board for that…." said Derek with a grin.

Meredith laughed slightly. "Well we'll see how we deal with one." said Meredith as she raked her fingers through the back of Derek's curls. She found this comforting in a strange way. It like almost running her fingers through his hair, made her realize that he was there and he wasn't planning on going anywhere.

Derek smiled as he pressed a kiss to her forehead. He ran his hands up and down the curve of her hips. "I'm thinking our bed, is sounding a lot better then this one. What do you say?"

"Hmmm. Well my own bed, a glass of wine and you is sounding like a great way to end the day right about now." said Meredith.

"Then shall we?" asked Derek as he sat up sticking his hand out to her to help pull her upwards.

"We shall."