Thanks for all the great feedback guys! Okay so I know where I want to go with this story within the next three chapters but I'm really having writer's block for what to do in-between. So if anyone has any ideas, please send me an email or something. By the way I got the Grey's 2009 Calendar and its freaking awesome! =)

Derek sat on a stool in the kitchen flipping through some random medical journal and eating an apple, as he heard Meredith come in slamming the door behind her. He looked up to see her coming storming and throwing her tote down angrily on the counter.

"Bad day." joked Derek as Meredith yanked open the fridge and grabbed a water bottle. She silently opened her water bottle taking a large gulp before closing the cap and setting it down. "Are you going to tell me or am I going to have to guess?" asked Derek.

Meredith looked up, anger and hurt evident in her eyes. "I had my first solo surgery today…"

Derek's eyes lit up. "Mere that's great." said Derek as he leaned back in his chair, in expectation of an exciting surgery story.

"No it's not great, because I killed the guy! I had one job to do, do a simple appendectomy and that's it. And I failed. Killed the poor guy and then had to explain to his family." said Meredith nearly shouting.

"Meredith it's not your fault there could have been complications……" said Derek.

"There couldn't have been! I've gone over it in my head so many times now! I just failed as a doctor. And you know the Chief's rule if you fail your first solo surgery you don't get to try another one for almost three months. By then all the other residents will have picked out their specialties. That will make me the laughing stock of the residents." said Meredith.

"Mere you need to calm down, you're blowing this out of proportion…" started Derek before Meredith abruptly cut him off.

"Out of proportion? Derek you don't get I'm the laughing stock of the whole hospital. Now you know I don't care about petty unimportant gossip, but this about my career. The career I should have never chosen. Honestly I should have listen to my mother, I could have been a lawyer or an accountant or a kindergarten teacher but now I wanted to be a doctor…." said Meredith as she rambled on.

Derek got up from his spot and walked over to her. He listened and waited for her to finish rambling. He knew this was her own way of getting it out of her system. As soon as she finished rambling she stood there with an angry look on her face. He laughed slightly as he pulled her into his arms, his chin resting on her forehead as she sighed.

"You'll get it next time." said Derek.

"There isn't going to be a next time for another three months." said Meredith with a groan.

Derek hated seeing her so down. He knew he shouldn't and he knew Meredith absolutely hated when he butted in, but he was going to have to talk to Richard. He knew what Meredith was capable of. They stood there arms engulfed around each other for a few minutes.

"Kindergarten teacher?" mused Derek.

"Shut up!"

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Meredith lay next to Derek on the couch last night as the news flashed on the screen. She had on her Dartmouth tee-shirt and pair f light pajama pant's because it was surprisingly cold. She shivered slightly as she turned to get more comfortable. He gently stroked her hair. She listened about how some woman had just had her eighteenth child. She sat up staring at the screen.

"I want that." stated Meredith simply.

"Eighteen kids?" questioned Derek as he drank from the cup he had set down on the end table.

"No… well kind of. I don't want eighteen kids. I want happiness. And happiness from some strange reason seems to be brought on by children. Maybe I should just quit my job and we'll have multiple numbers of children and stay at home." said Meredith.

"Meredith." said Derek still sensing that she was annoyed about what had happened.

"I know, I know, I'm blowing this out of proportion." said Meredith as she used hand gestures and impersonated Derek. She then laid back down her head on Derek's lap. "We'll have one day." reassured Meredith.

"You've been telling me that a lot lately. You keep reassuring me." said Derek as he played slightly with Meredith's hair. He then gently brushed away piece that was dangling on her forehead. "Mere I know we'll have kids."

"It's just you want kids so badly. I'm afraid if I make you wait any longer then you'll go have some with someone else." said Meredith.

Derek just sat there. He knew opening up like Meredith had, was something that she most definitely had trouble doing. He always tried to make sure to always listen and never comment when she opened up about something that scared or bothered her.

"I'm not going anywhere. Ever." said Derek.

Meredith lay there staring at the wooden piece that held the television in front of her. It scared her to think about the future and what it held. Would she be a good mom or would she turn out like Ellis unable to manage things. The future scared her.

"Do you think we'll have just daughters or sons?" asked Meredith, taking that bold leap and asking about something she knew worried her.

Derek smirked and Meredith could see that sparkle in his eyes he always got when they talked about their future family. "Knowing my luck, being one of five and the only boy we'll probably end up with no boys. But I think we'll love whatever gender we get." said Derek.

As he finished talking, he looked down and discovered Meredith sleeping. He smiled slightly hoping he didn't completely bore her to sleep. He decided it would just be easier for both of them to stay where they were, rather then moving. He gently kissed her lips and then shut off the TV. He then took a blanket and pulled it over the two of them.

"Good night Mere."

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Derek stood outside Richard's door the next morning, dressed in his scrubs. He had left early telling Meredith he had to check on an in-coming surgery patient. He gently knocked on the door and then entered after hearing a response. He walked in to find Richard with his glasses on looking over something. He looked up.

"Ah Shep, you're here really early. Something on your mind?" asked Richard.

"Actually Richard I need a favor. I need you to let Meredith have another chance on her solo surgery." skipping all the flattery and other stuff he had been planning, and jumping right to the point.

Richard sighed as he took of his glasses and looked at the younger man in front of her. "Derek you know I can't do that."

"Richard it's just one favor. You should have…." started Derek before being cut off.

"Derek I'm sorry I can't do this for you." said Richard.

"Richard, I'm not saying this as Meredith's husband or loved one. I'm saying this as her attending. I know what she's capable of in neuro. Give her another chance and I promise you'll be impressed." said Derek.

Richard continued to look at Derek before looking down at his hands and then looking back up. "Alright." he responded.

"Alright?" questioned Derek, not trying to show any emotion.

"She has one more chance. But I swear Derek she screw this one up its six months before another one." said Richard.

"She won't, I guarantee you. Thanks Richard." said Derek as he quickly left the room.

"Damn hospital relationships."

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Derek sat in his office looking through charts while waiting for Meredith. Word was out about her surgery re-take, through the nurse's gossip mill. Derek still had yet to see Meredith though; would she be mad or happy? He sat there for about ten more minutes before she came into the room. She stood in front of the closed doors with her hands on her hips.

"I know what you did Derek Shepherd." said Meredith with a twinkle shining through her eyes, she finally broke the act and gave a smile. "Thank you, thank you, thank you!" said Meredith as she rushed over to behind the desk where Derek stood and kissed him passionately.

"You're not mad?" asked Derek as he pulled apart hands around her waist as subconsciously played with the draw-string on her scrubs yet still keeping his gaze on her.

"Not at all. My surgery is scheduled for this afternoon, clipping and repairing an aneurism." said. "I've got to go mentally prepare. But you'll be there right?" asked Meredith as she kissed him one last time before pulling away and walking to the door.

"Wouldn't miss it." said Derek with a grin.

"Good and tonight you'll be celebrating with me if all goes well." said Meredith as she walked out of the room.

Derek then looked up towards the ceiling and closed his eyes sitting in silence for a moment before responding out loud.

"Please let everything go well."

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Meredith stood in the OR as a scrub nurse draped a gown over her scrubs and placed gloves on her scrubbed hands. She looked up to the gallery to see a herd of people. Half of them resident's who were probably betting money on when she'd mess up. She kept glancing up at the gallery looking for Derek. He should be scrubbed in, in case of an emergency. She closed her eyes for a second and made her way over to the table. She took one final glance up into the gallery and saw Derek sitting there with a folder of papers. He smiled at her.

Meredith let a short breath and then turned to the nurse. "Ten blade."

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The next two and a half hours seemed to fly by. Meredith managed to clip the aneurism and repair any damages and was just about to close up when, the machines started to flair.

"Heart rate's going down. Dr. Shepherd there must be a bleed." said the scrub nurse.

"I was just in there, that's not possible." said Meredith panicky as she was looking over through the open brain and trying to figure what was causing the problem.

She quickly glanced up towards Derek who was looking down and nodded his head, calming her back down. She quickly located the nerve and repaired any damage, and finally closed up. She let out a sigh as the OR busted into applause as a sing that the surgery was successful. Meredith removed her glasses and light and headed to the scrub room, to scrub out. She removed her gloves tossing them into the bin and began scrubbing her hands.

"Congratulations." said Richard as he stood at the edge of the doorway.

Meredith looked up as she shut off the faucet and took paper towels to dry her hands. "Thank you Chief."

"I guess I should by saying welcome to the Neuro department." said Richard.

Meredith abruptly looked up from throwing the towels away. "What?"

"Well I know you don't pick your specialty for a few more months, but I'll be making sure that you get more neuro cases till then. Looks like you've found your calling." said the Chief as left the room.

Meredith smiled to herself as she walked out of the room. She looked straight ahead to see Derek. She smiled widely at him as she rushed up to him and he picked her up spun her around, not caring what other people thought. She let a laugh as he set her back down on her feet.

"So I guess you're going to go and spend the night with your patient." asked Derek.

"Normally I would, but they can page me. Tonight I am going home and celebrating by making love to my husband."

Derek grinned. "Well how can I argue with that?"

Thought that was cute way to end it! Reviews please!