BPOV

My life was really was turning upside from the looks of it. Edward certainly was not going to be staying tonight, the night of my unfaithful birthday party. This was going to be one of those nights that would take a century, if not a century, than an eternity to finish. It did not even seem like an hour had passed already since he stated that tonight would not be a good night for him to stay with me. Silently, I got up from where I sat, frozen by the mere shock from his last words. My legs did not want to move me across the open floor of the bedroom to the window; just to make sure I was not going crazy from the thought that he was in fact not staying for the fortnight. However, the sky was already pitch black by the minutes that have already passed by, and my teary eyes were not helping matters with me trying to see out into the darkness.

The one thing that I wish I could do, just as well as, Edward was to see in clear night sky that came every night without warning. My eyes had a hard time focusing in on the spot that Edward always took to get back to his house. Edward's house is located outside the city limits of Forks; it was more like in the country than anything. It was very large and opened there, which surprised me the first time Edward took me to meet his parents, even though I already knew his father. But, alas, I could not see anything as it was, and I am sure that he was already back at the house without even looking back once.

Trying to find something to do with the time that allotted me, I put the CD in the CD player that Alice and Edward gave for my birthday. The CD was filled with every song that Edward has ever written, and had hit the repeat button on the song that contained my lullaby. After putting on the CD, I started to pace the room in order for something to do, to wait out the night that was not speeding up; it was just slowly its pace to finish and to make me endure a harsh night. My emotions got the best of me as well. The more I listened to the lullaby it became clear that tomorrow was going to be a rough one as well. At least the tears were not coming out of my eye duct as quickly as they were before.

Suddenly, I heard footsteps coming up the flight of stairs that lead to the rest of the house. I finally looked back at the alarm clock that was sitting on the tabletop next to the bed. The red numbers stated that it was about 2:00 o'clock in the morning. The game must have ended late or Charlie could have fallen asleep while watching it. It seems like that usually happens now-a-days. I noticed that the footsteps were getting closer and that the light was still on in my bedroom. As quickly as I could possiblely go, I turned off the light and got underneath the covers that now seemed empty without Edward. It was a good thing I got the light turned off when I had, because the next second the footsteps stopped in front of my door. It slowly opened and I knew that Charlie was checking up on me. He does this every night, and it has not stopped since I have back from Phoenix.

"Night Bells," I heard him whisper from the door.

Then the light from the hallway was gone, leaving me in the darkness again. Into a world of not knowing what is going on up at the Cullen's since they do not sleep at all. My mind was telling me that everything would go back to normal tomorrow, but my gut feelings were not as sure as the mind was. My heart was somewhere else at the moment, and it certainly was not here in this room at all. My heart was back at the Cullen's house where the terrible accident took place. I wanted to be there to help out with whatever was going on with Edward. Though, I knew he would never allow me to be there now with his mood or Jasper's for that matter.

I must have drifted off to sleep or that my mind drifted elsewhere for the night that was very numb, because the next thing that was noticeable was the music coming from the alarm clock which was louder than the CD player. A loud buzzing noise made me up a few feet in the air. I did not remember turning on the alarm clock last night, of course, it was never needed when Edward stayed for the night. He would always wake me with a soft and gentle kiss on the forehead. From the forehead, he would move down to the side of my face that was reachable; since I would always be on my side facing the other window in the room. Knowing Edward though, he turned it on while I was in the bathroom waiting for my return just to tell me that "tonight was not a good night."

Trying to get up was very difficult, because it felt like pins and needles were in my legs and feet. I must have slept on something wrong last night, because the moment I tried putting my feet down my whole body fell to the ground. Charlie came rushing in to see if everything was alright when a loud noise came out of nowhere, and that was me falling to my bedroom floor.

"Everything alright," Charlie said while opening the door to my room.

"Yeah Dad," I stated, though every part of my body was sore from the fall, "I must of slept wrong last night."

"Do you need a hand," he said while holding out his hand out to me.

"Thanks!"

"You're up early," Charlie said in a puzzle way, while at the same time looking at the alarm clock.

It was early, even in my standards. The alarm clock was flashing 7 o'clock on the dot, nothing more or nothing else. That is very weird since I am never up this early, even when Edward stays the night. Edward must be picking me up earlier than usual today, or he just playing some type of trick on me. School does not start until 9 o'clock, and I do not usefully get out of bed until about eight.

"I just could not stay asleep any longer," I said which was partly true. "I still have a little bit of homework to get done before school, Dad, and it is due today."

"Oh, well in that case I will let you be in order to get it done."

Charlie left and closed the door behind him as he went. I never would have guessed that he would actually believe me, but he did which meant that I would be sitting toying with my thumbs for the next hour and a half doing nothing. Though that thought had occurred to me, I decided to make good use with my time. I grab the latest book that we were working on in English class and started reading from where the page bunny was. The book was an interesting enough read. It held my attention which greatly suited me to say the least. Edward has already read The Last-Herald Mage by Mercedes Lackey enough times to know exactly what happens to the main character name Vanyel. Though, he would never tell me the story line and keeps saying that I have to read it to appreciate the true beauty of the story.

I was just getting to the part where Vanyel was going to go live with his aunt Savil in Valdemar when there was a tapping on the front door. Hearing footsteps in the kitchen to the door told me that Charlie was getting it, so there was no need for me to go and get it. I picked up the book again, only glancing at the clock quickly to see that Edward should not be here already to get me for classes, if he was getting me at all today. Again, I was interrupted by a very quick but steady knock on my door this time. Throwing the covers off of me, I made my way to door to answer it. Alice stood in the door frame with a different outfit that I have not seen on her before, and then remembering that they never wear the same outfit twice.

"Can I come in, or are you just going to stand there looking like an idiot," Alice said with a very dry humor that I was not used too.

"Yes, of course Alice," I said stepping aside now letting her in. "I am just very surprised to see you here; I mean it is just really early. Earlier than normal that is." I tried to not sound like an idiot, but I wasn't so sure of what was going on.

"Well, I am here to help you get ready for school," she stated as if I should know what is going on. "Edward had set your alarm this early to…..well……to make sure you had enough time to wake up after last night accident."

"Alice, I hardly slept as it was, I am more worried about Edward than my own health at this moment."

"Oh, I thought that you would be able to sleep well with the lullaby playing all night long."

"So, Edward heard the CD player playing on his way home then," I asked questionability even though I should have already known the answer. "But I did not see him when I looked out the window."

"Yes, he was standing a hundred yards away from your house when he heard it start playing and also the soft sobs coming from you. He told me last night, when he got home."

"Is he alright?" I seemed to question Alice without noticing that I was doing so. "How is Jasper, doing?"

"Jasper……he is alright for right now. Though he is beating himself up for almost……well you know. He has been talking about going away for a while just for a month or two," Alice said somberly. "I will be going with him, if he does go, but he isn't sure yet."

"Alice, it is not his fault at all. I was the stupid one to get the paper cut. I should have been more careful," I mentioned trying to cheer her up a bit. "What about Edward?"

"I'm fine," said a new voice that I would recognize anywhere in the world. There he was, standing in the door frame and looking just as amazing as ever. Though, Edward looked different then before. His eyes were not black with red around them; which meant he had already hunted during the night. "How did you sleep?" Edward asked though it really did not seem like a question.

"Fine," I lied enough though I know he probably overheard everything that has already been said.

By this time, it was already 8:20 and I still was not even dressed for school. Alice gave Edward a look that probably meant that she will handle this. He muttered something that sounded like, "I will be down at the car," and took off. Alice quickly found the clothes that she got for me back last year. Throw them on me, grab my hand, and pulled me through the house and into the front sit of the silver Volvo that Edward owns. Yes, today will be one of those days, because we told to school in complete and total silence.