AN:/ This chapter will be done in Jacob's POV please R&R. As usual some characters belong to SM. To see what the watcher looks like go to my profile page for a picture of her. Enjoy!

Chapter 2

I woke up before my alarm went off as usual. I rolled over looking out the window. It was another overcast morning. It didn't usually bother me but today it did for some reason. I felt disconnected and sad. As if something was missing, yet there just out of reach. It made me ache inside.

I rolled over on my back and sighed. As if I didn't know why.

I wasn't sure how long this nagging feeling had been present, it was usually in the back of my mind. Like a splinter under the skin that irritated you but you just couldn't get at it, like a forgotten memory there on the peripheral , just out of reach.

Lately it had become much worse, making me edgy and tired. None of the usual adrenalin pumping things were working to relieve it either. Not shifting, not sex, not my extreme sports.

At first when it had gotten worse I had thought that I was just missing Grace, though to be honest, in the back of my mind I had doubted it, I had never missed her with such an intensity before, but I could think of no other explanation.

It almost felt like my hormones were out of control. Like I needed to touch something, but Grace had only slightly relieved the feeling. It was like I needed a hit of some drug and anything else just eased the need but never satisfied it. It made me feel like I was going crazy if I went to long without trying to relieve it.

It kind of scared me. A month ago I had let it go a bit too long and it had been incredibly hard to not be rough with Grace. I mean she was tough, being a shape shifter like me, but I could still hurt her.

I had caught myself getting rougher, pushing harder and harder into her trying to get rid of something that just wouldn't abate. I had caught myself in time and eased up. Sam loved me like his own son but he'd still kill me if I hurt is daughter, and I would let him.

I forced myself up out of bed and headed for the shower. I so did not want to face this day. Going back to high school, but I had agreed and I was honestly happy to help. I just didn't like what I had to do in order to be helpful. My youngest brother Holden had just had his first change last week so I along with my two other brothers Layton and Soren were going to watch out for him and make sure he stayed in control. It was always hard being around so many humans after the first change with the heightened senses and everything.

We were all much too old for high school, especially Layton at forty-eight, But thanks to my mom's side of the family we all looked about eighteen, only our height made us noticeable.

With my parents not aging and their ability to….reproduce I had twelve siblings. No I'm not kidding they'd been busy to say the least. There was Noah, Layton, Irie (the first girl), Dante, Teagan (the second girl), Ryland, Me, Soren, Zion, William (after my grandfather)and Ava the twins, Kayden, and Holden.

My siblings and I didn't do the whole repeating high school thing like my grandparents and aunts and uncles did. We went once and that was it then straight on to college and since we didn't age we moved around a lot. My parents wanted us to have a normal life, well as much as possible.

We'd just gotten back from our yearly vacation. Since there were so many of us we couldn't live together any more but we always lived close usually only a couple of hours run away from each other, which basically was a couple of states and we always spent every November and December in forks with the rest of the pack. So every year for three months we traveled. My great grandparents, my grandparents, aunts, uncles, siblings, and my parents. Usually to just a few places outside of the country sometimes staying no more than a week somewhere. It was always fun though. We always posed as college kids on summer break.

Right now my parents were away on their…..however manyth honeymoon, but my grandparents would be here Wednesday so that was a plus and they were bringing Jasper and Alice. It had only been a week since I had seen them but I still missed them. I was extremely close to my grandfather not that I called him that I called him Edward it was just simpler that way.

I finished getting dressed and stood in the middle of my room. I wasn't sure how long I stood there. I had been doing that a lot lately, zoning out. I wasn't sure where I went or why I did it. I felt like I was waiting for something.

The door burst open. I felt a growl building and clenched my jaw pushing it down. My hands trembled. It was only Holden.

His smile faltered. "Are you okay?"

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Repeating it's only Holden over again and again in my head.

I managed a small smile. "Fine. Sorry. You just startled me."

He took a long hard look at me giving me the smallest of smiles. "Ok…breakfast is ready."

He wasn't buying it, but he wasn't prying either that was a plus.

I nodded. "I'll be down in a sec." he nodded, took one last look at me and headed down stairs.

I took a couple of deep breathes. I snarled at myself in frustration. I seriously felt like a wanted to cry. I was so uptight. I needed a release, but I had no idea what kind I needed. Nothing seemed to help. Maybe I'd talk to Edward. I hated talking about feelings. I inwardly cringed at the very idea. Besides Edward wasn't the one I wanted I wanted my father but he wasn't back for almost another two weeks. It would have to wait. Jasper would feel my mood but he wouldn't say anything to anyone.

I grabbed my back pack from the desk and made a mental note to go for a run every night this week. Grace was coming to visit this weekend and I needed to loosen up before she got here. I took another breath and headed downstairs to join the others for breakfast.

There were only four of us in the house right now. It was kind of nice having so much space but kind of lonely to when you were so use to having a full house.

I could do this. I would make it through this week. I would get over whatever this….thing was and life would continue as normal.

I hoped.