Title: Cold Feet

Pairing: Yusuke/Kurama, Botan/Keiko (eventual)

Summary: A wedding is supposed to be a joyous occasion, but for Yusuke Urameshi it is nothing more than hell. Why can't he just make up his mind about what he really wants?

Disclaimer: If I owned them, I would not be writing about them.

Notes: So, despite how the story should be linear in a sense…this chapter kicked my ass and decided it was time to be told. So without further ado, please enjoy a flashback chapter. Also, sorry it took forever.

Torturous Flashbacks: 3 Months Prior

Keiko had been running about, planning their wedding for as long as Yusuke could remember. At one point, he couldn't bear to be around anymore women conversing about arrangements, seating placement, decorations, etc. He had to get away from everyone and anyone who was dealing with it, and he decided to leave for the Demon World. At first, Keiko hadn't wanted him to leave because she thought she might need him for those kinds of arrangements and things, but he reassured her saying it wasn't his place to get in the way of how she dreamed her wedding would be like.

Of course, it was all because he didn't care how the wedding turned out, as long as it happened in a semi-normal fashion. By that of course, he meant that no one would come and attack them in the middle of the proceedings, and that Yusuke would have to go around and kick some ass. He shook his mind of those kinds of thoughts, hoping he didn't just wish those things on himself and prepared for his depart to his own beloved territory.

Enki, the King of the Demon World, had not fully stripped anyone of their power. He was of course, the King, but those who had much property became the Lords of the Demon World and were still considered of high noble stature. Yusuke, being the inheritor of Raizen's estate, was one of these respected Lords. His countenance said nothing of that, but the land he owned made up for that. And despite him being rather brash and crude, many still loved him for even thinking of the tournament deciding the next king.

Yusuke had arrived to his land, and his vizier, Hokushin filled him on the happenings of the Demon World as well as his estate. He had found out that his companion, Kurama, was somewhere in the Demon World as well, more than likely around Yomi. Yusuke had asked Hokushin to send a letter to Yomi, asking if his friend could meet with him for dinner, and hopes that it would not be stealing him away. Yusuke had asked Kurama once about the relationship the two had now, and he didn't want to embarrass himself by thinking of it again.

He knew that the two of them had gotten quite physical these days. He just didn't want to get wrapped up in the thoughts of Yomi and Kurama together, sharing any physical contact other than fighting in battle. He didn't want to think of the two of them fighting for dominance and the things that two men could do to each other. No, he would not let his thoughts go astray with such things. It didn't matter if Kurama was the best looking man he had ever laid eyes on either. He would not be thinking those thoughts. He had to slap himself in order to completely stop.

A few days later, Yomi had responded explaining that Kurama would be on his way over soon, eager to meet with his companion. Yomi also sent him some congratulations on being wedded to a human girl, but Yusuke didn't know if he should take that as an insult or not. He thought long and hard about it, but decided that it was probably fine, and that it would not matter what the hell Yomi had thought anyway. It's not like he was ever going to set his sights on being in the Human Realm.

The day after, Kurama had arrived, and Yusuke embraced him in a manly manner of course. It had felt like forever since he had last seen him, and he noticed that the Demon World had given him a vibrancy that he had never noticed before. He wondered if Kurama truly felt at home here now, but he didn't know if he wanted to ask. It might lead him down the path of things he really didn't want to know. He kept his mouth shut, and brought him to one of his chambers so they could chat.

"Kurama, you've been doing well here. I knew you weren't back at home, but I kind of didn't really think you'd be here either."

"I claim being here as a business trip, and none are opposed to it. My family are quite taken with me working."

Yusuke laughed, "Of course they are. You've always been one of those kinds of guys who worked hard no matter what. Always was the best son you could be and whatnot. Don't you ever just try and take a break?"

"Would you not say that being here with you is 'taking a break', Yusuke?" Kurama was teasing him, and Yusuke knew it. Those emerald eyes held onto some sort of amusement and Yusuke was enamored by that look. Hokushin had brought them some more of the strongest wine they had in the area, and they continued to drink as they had chatted. Most of their topics were nonsensical and even varied to the mundane, but it felt like they were making up for some lost time. Yusuke wondered why being around Kurama was always so refreshing, like if he really did keep grounded in some way.

The wine had finally hit him after a few hours of the two of them sitting around and chatting. He could even see the flush that was coloring Kurama's cheeks. They had been conversing about Yusuke's wedding that would be happening in a few months, and Yusuke had made some joke about the reception and wishing that they had this wine to give to the party. If they ever managed to sneak it in, Koenma would probably have a fit, and his father would give him more than just spankings.

"I still want to see exactly how hard Koenma gets hit when he does something wrong. I can't imagine being a toddler for too many centuries, don't you guys feel the strain of being a damned baby for so long?"

Kurama couldn't keep the chuckles from bubbling out of his throat. The wine was really getting to him. How could he have drank so much without even noticing? There was something about being around Yusuke that made him want to be a bit more wild, like the old times, but he shouldn't. He knew what would happen if he was ever as brash as his friend across from him; he would completely lose himself and try and wrap his legs around that muscular body. He blushed at the thought, and shook his head. He was hoping to clear the arousing thoughts that were starting to cloud his mind. No, you are supposed to be more mature and can compose yourself. At least, that was what he told himself.

He looked over at his companion who was gazing at him curiously, the alcohol had taken effect and he could see that Yusuke's eyes were hazy. He had laid down with his arm behind his head, and the lazy grin that made Kurama want to kiss him. Kurama, forgetting every single bit of his wits, had started to crawl on all fours and moved around to Yusuke. He looked even more feral to Yusuke, who could only watch him, and he felt the tingle of his body beginning to warm. What was going on? Was the wine really that strong that he was imagining Kurama coming on to him?

He barely had any time to ask himself that question as Kurama had crawled on top of him. He straddled Yusuke's waist and leaned above him, waiting to fully attack him. He was ready, he had been waiting for something like this for so long. All he needed was Yusuke to comply; nothing else had mattered at that moment. It was only the two of them in a chamber being filled with the arousal of two drunken men.

"Kurama…" That was all that the fox demon needed to press his lips on the others, and slip his tongue in. to silence any protests before they began. Their lips matched and their tongues danced furiously. Both were pulling hair, and ripping at each other's garments. They hadn't made it to the pants and underwear, but Yusuke did grind his hips with Kurama's, just enough for the two of them feel each other's arousal. That was all Yusuke needed to full get his wits about him and push the other off.

"What…what the fuck are we doing?" He licked his lips and stood. His hair was tousled and his friend was on the floor. His heartbeat was erratic and he couldn't believe his blood was pulsating as it was. He clutched at his chest, looking down at Kurama. "What the fuck." That was all he could keep repeating as Kurama finally got up, wishing that he could console the other.

He shook his head, feeling completely hurt. "The wine. It was just the wine, Yusuke. Let us forget about what has transpired. We weren't thinking clearly. My mind is still a haze, and I am trying to fight the clouds that are fogging my mind."

Yusuke had backed himself into a wall. One hand was clutched at his chest and the other was holding the cool wall. His temperature was going down, but the heat in his groin had remained. His heartbeat was finally slowing, but his breath was still shallow. Had he really just kissed Kurama? He had been debating for some time about doing something like that, but now that it had actually happened, what was he supposed to think? What was he supposed to do? And that look that Kurama was giving him. That was just heartbreaking. Fuck.

"I suppose I should take my leave. It was…good to see you, Yusuke. I wish you all the best."

He was leaving? He could not just leave with what just happened. He was going to be one his best men for crying out loud! As Kurama turned, Yusuke broke away from the wall and caught his wrist. "You are not leaving me."

"Things can happen if I impose on you any longer."

"Don't do this to me." He was starting to whine, this was getting out of hand.

"I am not doing anything, Yusuke. I am merely saving us from anything happening."

"But we already kissed."

"It was a mistake."

"I want another one."

"No."

"Why?" Yusuke was beginning to get desperate. He was still in a haze of lust, and his body was protesting of him making it stop. He was horny, but not just for anyone or anything, but for his friend, the fox demon.

"You are getting married to a human girl, Yusuke. You do not want to break any promises to her, you do not want to cheat."

"And if I do?" Desperation was evident in his tongue. He vaguely wondered if he was becoming a whore.

"You don't. Release me." Kurama finally looked at him with hardened emerald eyes. They glittered with something, and Yusuke wondered if his friend would even cry. He dropped Kurama's arm as if he were being burned and the other had left the room. He was going to spend the night in Yusuke's land, but he would not be anywhere near the Lord.

Yusuke's heart hurt. It felt like it was breaking into a million pieces, and just as Raizen's stomach had once shook the land, Yusuke's cry of agony of was doing the same. What could he do now but marry Keiko? He had promised to live a long life with the woman. Yearnings for his friend would not be a good reason to just drop everything and leave her for. He had been with her through thick and thin. He knew he loved her, but he was never really sure if he was in love with her. It didn't matter, she was in love with him and he would do everything in his power to make her happy. He would even sacrifice his own happiness for hers.

Three months ago, Yusuke made a decision. He was going to marry Keiko, whether he liked it or not. Three months later, he fulfilled his decision. His feelings for Kurama had not yet changed, he was still lusting after him. And now the game truly begins.

Extra notes: Chapter seems a bit shorter. I shall try to make the next one longer and get it out as quick as possible. Hope you all liked it. 3