Title: Cold Feet

Pairing: Yusuke/Kurama, Botan/Keiko (eventual)

Summary: A wedding is supposed to be a joyous occasion, but for Yusuke Urameshi it is nothing more than hell. Why can't he just make up his mind about what he really wants?

Disclaimer: If I owned them, I would not be writing about them.

Notes: Thank you to all my lovely readers who have stuck by me from the beginning until now. I thank you for the constructive criticisms as well. We are now back to the present time right when Yusuke and Keiko had finished consummating their marriage. Also, I believe the song is going to be a sort of theme song for this fic. Hope you all enjoy. Please read and review.

Key: Italics are for thoughts as well as emphasis. You'll know which is which.

Honeymoon Horror & Homecoming: Food for thought?

Don't speak.

I know just what you're saying.

So please stop explaining.

Don't tell me 'cause it hurts.

- No Doubt "Don't Speak"

x.x.x.

Minutes turned into hours as Yusuke laid on the couch. Before he knew it, morning had arrived and his darling wife was going to be awake soon. Shuffling about in the blanket he draped around his bits, he decided to call room service only to have the doorbell ring before he made it to the phone. He opened the door and the complimentary breakfast was rolled in happily. Keiko woke up just in time, in the same sort of dress as her husband and blushed. Yusuke had to fake a smile. It was going to be one long honeymoon.

After breakfast was eaten, the newlyweds decided that they should figure out something to do. The hotel that Genkai paid for was actually a resort. She had booked it for three full days and Yusuke wondered if the old hag was trying to punish him for something by making them spend so much time together. He knew he shouldn't act like an ungrateful asshole, but he didn't know what to do anymore. All he kept thinking about was three months ago as well as the things Hiei had implied.

"Yusuke? Are you okay?" Keiko had been trying to get his attention for the past five minutes. Her husband had kept staring at his empty plate like it had done something particularly foul, and she wondered if he hated the food. She poked his nose, finally gaining his attention. "Earth to Yusuke. Did the food upset you or something? You look really unhappy about it."

Yusuke immediately changed his expression and shook his head. "No. I was just thinking is all."

Keiko snuggled closer to him, reveling in the warmth he had provided for her. She couldn't believe that they were finally married and all would be well. She was genuinely happy and couldn't wait to start a life with the man she had loved for so long. "Oh? What were you thinking about? Me, you, and a couple of kids perhaps?" She was just pulling his leg. She had already taken her morning after pill and the two of them hadn't even talked about having kids in a very serious manner, but the look Yusuke gave her was priceless. "I was just kidding, I swear it."

Yusuke frowned. Eventually, he and Keiko would have to take such a leap. He couldn't even see himself raising a litter of little demons, probably just as much of a badass as he was…or even worse. And what would he do when Keiko aged and he remained relatively young? He was a demon, and his ticker was barely ticking as it is. The aging process was extremely slow for him now, how were they supposed to deal with that? He shook his head and stood up.

Keiko was extremely confused now. Her husband was acting stranger than ever, and on their honeymoon no less. What was his deal?

She tugged at his arm. "Yusuke? You know you can talk to me about anything, right? I'm still the same person who was your friend since we were young. Just because we're married doesn't mean you have to distance yourself or think I won't understand. It's just like when I found out when you were a Spirit Detective as well as a demon. I'll always be here to support you…" She pondered about what she just said, hoping that she didn't seem like she was begging. She was just speaking from the heart. Yusuke always felt like he had something to hide form her, but she loved him unconditionally. Any other human woman would have probably turned him away the moment they found out he was delving with the supernatural.

Her partner sighed and walked to the glass doors that gave them a view of their terrace. He had to admire the fact that Genkai gave them a decent room; a suite he believed. He walked outside, leaving the door like an invitation to join him. He leaned over the balustrade marveling at the view from their room. In just 24 hours his life had gone to complete and utter pieces. How was he supposed to live the rest of his life with a beautiful woman like Keiko, feeling like his emotions were a hoax? He bit his lip as his hands balled into fists. Keiko came behind him, wrapping her arms around him. She hoped that maybe the action would serve him better than just a bunch of words.

Yusuke was left cold with her touch. Usually when a person loves another, any bit of contact would make them shiver with delight and leave them desperate and wanting. Usually the person in need would be heated and turn around, clinging to the other like a lifeline. Yusuke did no such thing. He was being held onto but he didn't feel the need to be held. In fact, he almost wanted to slink away from her touch; to reject her. He knew that would hurt her in the deepest way possible, and he shook that thought out of his mind. He would deal with this. He just had to.

"Yusuke…" Keiko relinquished her hold on her husband and moved next to him. She too leaned over the balustrade, looking out into the distance. Yusuke hadn't said anything to her and her thoughts were beginning to grow wild. Was Yusuke having second thoughts about everything now? She winced, imagining Yusuke about to say he his love was a farce and that maybe they should go their separate ways.

Yusuke turned to look at his wife. He reached out to touch her chin and lifted it so her eyes would meet his. He leaned into her to capture her lips with a tender kiss. It was short and sweet. Keiko smiled, feeling as if Yusuke had heard her thoughts and was trying to convince her of otherwise. Yusuke was dying inside, he hated feeling like he had to fake everything. Damn the demon who kissed him and made him quiver with desire. He would find the spark he had once upon a time with Keiko.

A few hours later, the couple had showered and put on bathing suits. They would be staying at the beach of the resort for the rest of the day. It was their first outing as newlyweds and Keiko was shivering with anticipation. She wanted to throw her arms around Yusuke's neck and kiss him until both of their lips were puckered bright pink and a bit sore. She laced her fingers with his and pulled him on their way to the sand. "It's so beautiful out here!" She kept exclaiming over and over again. Yusuke smiled a little to himself, it never really took much for her to be happy. He was glad that she never asked for too much from him; just a bit of attention here and there. He was finally able to give it after he was fired from being Koenma's lackey, but he still kind of missed that adventure.

He would never tell that to Koenma of course. That would make the toddler happy, and Yusuke liked giving him a hard time. Keiko picked two beach chairs beside each other and threw off her towel. She was ready to go in the water and looked expectantly at Yusuke. He motioned for her to go on ahead since the moment he sat down on his chair it started to wobble. He figured he had to fix it and would rather not forget about it by getting the water, lest he sit again and he falls on his butt.

His wife merely shrugged and teetered off to the glistening cerulean waters. She smiled peacefully, taking in the sights and smells of the perimeter and then dived head first in the freezing water. She came back for air, teeth chattering, and her hair plastered to her face. This was a real vacation, she couldn't recall the last time she had been on one, especially with Yusuke. She hoped that they would be doing this again and again till the end of their days. She just wanted a happy marriage.

Was that too much to ask?

Yusuke watched as Keiko swam to the shore and back out into the waters. She looked pretty content while there was a horrific storm brewing inside of him. He wondered if he could get service around here and took out the cell phone he had stashed into his pocket earlier. He knew Keiko would bitch about it if she saw him talking on the phone throughout the honeymoon so he turned it off for most of the time. Besides, it's not like Keiko could see him at this point in time while she was floating like a mermaid in the beach.

He turned in his chair, covering the phone with one ear as he dialed his best friend. He needed some kind of reprieve or else he would lose it. Kuwabara was always going to be there to tell him to calm his shit. At least Yusuke knew that much. A few rings later and Kuwabara's beloved sister Shizuru answered the phone angrily. The moment Yusuke had told her his name, she chuckled and just handed it to her brother. He could hear her putting her elbow into her brother's stomach and the yelps his best friend produced.

"Damn it, Urameshi what the hell are you calling me for? You should be doing Keiko right about now. Ya only got three days of a vacation, spend it with her and not talking to me." Yusuke smiled to himself, good old Kuwabara.

"Yeah, yeah. You say that as if I don't know that. This place is nice and all but I just keep thinking-"

"That's never good territory for us, Urameshi."

"Very funny, asshole. But I've just been thinking a lot about-" He could hear Kuwabara move away from his sister and up to his own room. He could even hear Kuwabara's father holler at him for nearly crashing into him.

"You've been thinking about Kurama and Hiei."

"Not Hiei, just Kurama. Last night shit got really weird while Keiko and I were having sex-"

"I don't want to know about that!" Kuwabara was practically screeching in his ear and Yusuke rolled his eyes.

"I wasn't giving you details, dumbass. Just listen to what I have to say." Kuwabara muttered under his breath but Yusuke was sure he heard something about unnecessary information and that he would like to never have the images of Yusuke and Keiko fogging his mind. "I was with Keiko but my mind kinda drifted off and well…"

"Well…?"

Yusuke squirmed in his seat and then sighed. He couldn't admit something like that to Kuwabara. Best friend or no best friend, he wasn't sure if he should even delve into that territory. His body and mind were triggered by Kurama, that was another reason he was able to even make love to his wife, he had been thinking about another.

That was cheating without even sleeping with someone. Just thinking about screwing another while you're supposed to be screwing the one you love. It was wrong, wasn't it?

Yusuke lost himself in that thought while Kuwabara was shouting his name. His friend was concerned that he had trailed off. He thought maybe he got hit and went unconscious or something. "Sorry Kuwabara. I just called to um…see how you are and stuff. Ha, don't mention what I was um…talking about. It doesn't matter. I'll talk to you some more later, okay?"

"Uramesh, wait-!"

"Bye Kuwabara." Yusuke hung up the phone, throwing it on the towel, and the stuffing it underneath. He cupped his face in his palms. He was screwed beyond all belief. He couldn't even explain to Kuwabara what was really going on.

And to add more injury to insult Keiko had come back from her swim to check to see if he was okay. She gently touched his shoulder, kneeling before him, dripping wet and with doe eyes. "Yusuke…?" He could feel his heart beat gaining speed, not because she had grown to become the most beautiful woman he had ever met, but because he felt guilty. He was just implausibly guilty. His mind should just be focused on her, and damn it that was what he was going to do! He was going to focus on Keiko. All of this thinking was just snagging him and dragging him down. He was not going down without a fight.

He shut off his mind and pulled Keiko up onto his lap. He wrapped her legs around his midsection as he gave her a ferocious kiss. He needed something, but there was none other who should be giving him what he desired. He twisted his tongue with hers, easily possessing her. He knew that Keiko's face was turning an exploding red that he found endearing. Grabbing her hips and hoisting her even closer, her covered breasts rubbed his chest and he could feel Keiko shiver.

They parted for air for a second, and the moment Keiko even tried to ask why, Yusuke's lips covered her own. He wouldn't hear from her these three days. He would just fuck her maliciously if he could help it. He would chase out the thoughts of Kurama. Fuck that redheaded fox for messing with his mind.

x.x.x.

No one can do it better like Keiko.

That's what he kept telling himself as he took their items and pulled her with him. They were going back to their room. He was going to make her scream and writhe with pleasure. He was going to lose himself in his wife for the next three days. No, he wouldn't lose himself, he would drown himself. If drowning himself in Keiko's suffocating love was what it took to rid himself of confusing emotions, then so be it. He wasn't going to live a lie to keep Keiko happy. He was going to just love her and that was it.

I do love her.

Then why did his heart want to say otherwise? Fuck you mind. He jammed the key into the hole and swung it open. The door crashed with a loud thud as they entered and then slammed it back closed. Keiko was pinned to the wall beside it, clothes being torn from her body before she could even fix a sentence of where her husband suddenly got the energy. She clutched desperate with need and release as Yusuke's hips met her own pounding into her.

When did his clothes come off?

She didn't care. He was going so fast, so rough, she couldn't think, she nearly forgot to breathe. It didn't matter anymore. Their suite was paradise! If Yusuke kept giving her this much attention, this much of an ache between her legs…! She never wanted to leave! "I love you!" Keiko's words only made Yusuke go faster, harder, deeper, and Keiko wondered if she could take it.

This is what it was like with a demon! This fire, this sporadic pattern he was delegating, it was amazing. She had never felt anything like it. Her nails made welts onto his back as he continued to thrust, his name a prayer she couldn't stop repeating. The gods must have been having a good day up on high because her demon was like an angel sent to her to save her. This wasn't making love, this was fucking, she was sure of it. It still didn't make it any less thrilling, passionate, and invigorating. She wanted this to go on for hours.

And it did.

From morning, noon, till night. Three days went by in a blur just as Yusuke had wanted it to. He would make Keiko scream until her throat was sore. He would burrow himself inside of his wife until she couldn't close her legs properly and had to lay down giving him a full view. Their breaths were always labored and sweat from the previous days had lingered on their skin making them glisten like they had taken a swim in the cerulean ocean of the resort.

On their final night, they fell asleep in each other's arms exhausted. Yusuke's warmth made Keiko feel safe while Keiko's made Yusuke want to run away. Sex had not calmed the storm one bit. Every time a thought would pop up, he would have Keiko for another go. He knew it was wrong to use her like this. He really thought it would help him! Keiko was sure her husband was just getting his fill of sex in every position he could that he had wanted to try. She hoped he would not tire them out, and then sex would get repetitious, then again, Yusuke was a demon and they always seemed to have new tricks.

In the morning, they were due to leave the resort. Everything had been in the same place as always since they never left their room. Packing was easy, just a few pieces of clothing had to be thrown out or put back into the suitcases. Keiko's legs wobbled as she tried to walk and Yusuke had to hold her steady. Despite the dull ache lingering in her sex, she smiled happily and felt fulfilled to have Yusuke with her.

Getting back home took faster than they had expected. It felt like time had just flown by as they took a taxi. The landscape changed drastically before them, and suddenly they were back in their neighborhood. They paid for the ride and got out of the taxi to find that Botan, Yukina, and Genkai were standing before their home just as surprised as the newlyweds.

Botan approached them first, taking Keiko's suitcase. "We didn't think you'd be home so quick. We've done a lot with the house."

"You didn't throw anything of value out, right? If I find some of my stuff-"

"Shut up dimwit, be happy we even cleaned the damn house. Come on, get inside and see all we've done." Yusuke muttered to himself but followed everyone inside. Yukina gave him a small smile and that's when he found that all of his buddies were in the house for a surprise party. They wanted to congratulate them even further, and the house looked magnificent! The place was spic and span; floors were swept and mopped, and nothing was out of place. They really did a great job.

"I gotta admit, you guys did good."

Botan and Yukina grinned triumphantly, and joined everyone inside of the living room for some fun and games. "Urameshi!" Kuwabara wrapped an arm around his friend, giving him a noogie, and laughing. "Thought we weren't gonna do anything else for ya, huh? The girls cooked this up!" Yusuke grinned, seeing his friend made him feel a hell off a lot better.

And then his good mood sank just like the Titanic. He could spot Kurama and Hiei in the crowd talking amongst themselves and Kuwabara followed his eyes. "They've been here for a while, looking forward to see you. Just behave and it'll all be okay. You and I also gotta talk about that phone-"

"I thought I told you not to bring that up."

"Shove it. You need to talk and I'm here. I'm not gonna let you try and leave me in the dark about this. We're friends remember. Friends talk. So we're gonna talk. But for now, let's just enjoy the party. We can do all that talk stuff tomorrow when things aren't so nutty." Yusuke scowled but he nodded. Kuwabara was going to get his way with this whether Yusuke liked it or not.

"Fine. Guess it's party time then."

He just hoped that Kurama's eye would stop following him for the night.

It's nice to have his eyes on you, doesn't it?

Yusuke cursed his brain thinking such thoughts. He really didn't want to have Kurama being trained on him. Especially since it just made him cling to his wife with a new resolve. Why is that Kurama always came up unexpectedly? It was like he always made you think of him without wanting to and suddenly he appears. That bastard. Yusuke tried to maintain a normal composure but he was sure that Hiei was getting a kick out of reading his ki.

It's going to be a long night.

And it really was. That party was the longest party he had ever been to. And all the while, Kurama's glittering emerald eyes were beckoning him and smiling mischievously. Those eyes held so much knowledge that Yusuke knew he wouldn't be able to fight it sooner or later.

Those eyes were truly drowning him more so than Keiko's love.

Extra notes: Finally, another chapter! I really thank you guys for sticking with me and reading this fic. Sorry if I made any errors. ^^;

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