Note: I follow more of the manga then the show.

Not my Captain

Chapter 4

I don't own Bleach but if I did I would have this going on.

"Oh Captain Histsugaya" I said "You're back"

I looked at him and his clothing. He was still dressed in the cloths that he wore in the world of the living. I couldn't believe that thought that then crossed my mind I wandered if he was planing to keep it so I could see him in it again. But that wasn't what made me really look at him. It was the look on his face. He looked at me like I had lost my mind. I sat up in his bed and looked at him again he then shoved my zanpakuto in my face like I had done something wrong with it being here.

"What's wrong" I asked "I thought that you'd be glad that I had it."

"Why is it still covered in your blood?" He demanded

"Because I just got it from the 5th tonight" I said getting on my knees reaching for it "I was going to clean it in the morning."

Once again he looked at me like I had lost my mind. I sighed and reached out to take it from him but he pulled it out of my reach.

"You went to the 5th tonight?" He yelled "What where you thinking Momo?"

"That I should get it over with" I said plain as day getting to my feet "I was the 5ths lieutenant after all and I had a lot of my things still there! I'm capable of walking around soul society I don't need a baby sitter Captain Histugaya."

I reached out and yanked my zanpakuto out of his hands and put it with my things. He stood there rooted looking at me like I had just crossed a really big line.

"I think you do need one Momo after all I had to save your life" He stated

When he said that he crossed the line forget that we grew up together, forget that he was the first person I saw when I woke up. It all mattered little to the fact that he just through that into my face.

"I didn't ask you to" I stated "If I wanted your help I would have asked you for it!"

"Just go back to sleep" he ordered me "you and I WILL be talking in the morning."

I was floored he was pulling rank on me. He was ordering me around like i was a member of the 10th. I mean I know that he could pull a little rank he was a Captain and there for of a higher rank but all orders from other captains had to be cleared through the person's Captain. Or in other words Hitsugaya would have had to ask Aizan for me to do something if the old man hadn't ordered it.

"I beg your pardon" I snapped at him

"You herd me" he ordered walking into his closet "go back to sleep you look like hell"

That was it for me. I lost it I was so mad that I wanted to hit him across his white spiky haired head face. I thought that I had come a long way from how I looked the first few days after I woke up. And the fact that he said that crossed the line again. I bent down and picked up my things and marched to the door.

"I do not look like hell" I yelled at him "I've come a long way since you last saw me for your information. It's not my fault that you've been playing around in the world of the living all of this time. Toshiro!"

I know it sounds bad but it felt so good to yell at someone. It felt so good to let it all out and it just look like Captain Hitsugaya was the person that I took it out on.

"Hey" He yelled back "Mind your manners It's CAPTAIN HITSUGAYA!"

"Oh you can take you're title and shove it" I snapped back "You may be a captain but you are NOT MY CAPTAIN!"

It got so cold in that room that I could see my breath. But I didn't care I wanted to get as far away from him and that room as I could. I walked to the door cloths and zanpakuto in hand. I reached over to the door and was about to pull it open when it was frozen shout with a thick layer of ice covering it.

"You're right I'm not your captain" He yelled at me "your captain tried to kill you damn near came close to it too if I hadn't been there you would have died. Why are you being so ungrateful"

"Ungrateful?! Do you want a think you for saving my life?" I Yelled at him

I turned around and bowed to him.

"Thank You Captain Hitsugaya" I stated straighting up "for saving my life. But I am no longer that little girl that would call you lil' Shiro even though I know you hated it. I've never been helpless and you shouldn't treat me as so."

Captain Hitsugaya looked like me saying lil' Shiro made his night. A small smile crossed his lips the second that I said that.

"Just go back to sleep Momo" He sighed at me "Stop fighting me and just do what I say"

I looked at him like he lost his mind and I nudged the door with my said like I was telling him that I wasn't going to do what he wanted I still have no idea why I was being so willful but I didn't want to do what he told me to do.

"I'll fight you all I want" I snapped "unfreeze the damn door I'm going back to the 5th"

Ice formed on the floor when I said that. His hands clenched into fists with white knuckles. He walked at me, he was two maybe one step from being in my face and I did the first thing that came to me mind.

"THRUST" I yelled the kido spell at and he was pushed back to the other wall. I turned to the door "BAKUDO 33 RED FLAME CANNON!"

The door exploded and I started to walk out the door. I was maybe two steps out the door.

"STRIKE!" Captain Hitsugaya yelled at me

I was engulfed in a red light and I couldn't move. He had never used a kido on me before! He hit me the one time but that was because well I was trying to kill him. Something I'm not really proud of. I watched as he walked up to me with a look that I didn't like. He was mad...no he wasn't mad he was pissed. I had never seen him look like that before.

"You want to use kido on me then fine" He stated "But you really should wait to used it until you're at full strength Momo. When was the last time? Before you work up...I'd say right before you went into that comma?"

That felt like a taunt! He walked around me and I felt like I was being being stocked like I was his pray. Why was he looking at me like that? I mean I know that I wasn't being a good soul reaper after all. Getting into a fight with a Captain, yelling at a Captain and then using kido on said Captain. If he wanted to I could be put back into jail for a long time. I didn't think that he was going to but then again all I could tell you was what I thought. I tried to get out of his kido spell but he was right after all I still wasn't at my full strength.

"Let me go Captain Hitsugaya" I demanded

Before I could do anything it fell I looked at him nodded my head in thanks and I started to walk away. I wasn't far when Captain Hitsugaya flashed stepped in front of me with a sigh.

"Get back to the 10th Momo" He ordered me

"Stop ordering me around Hitsugaya" I said softly "You're not my captain. I don't want to be at the 10th if you're going to be there. I shouldn't be able to be there...just let me go"

That was the first time that I let him know that I really felt guilty about everything. His angry look in his eyes softened and he was looking at me with a much softer look. He took a step to me and pulled me into a hug. I wasn't sure of what to do so I tried to push him off of me but he only held me closer to him. For a brief moment I let myself enjoy his arms around me and his smell but I really couldn't enjoy it.

"Please let me go" I said

"Why?" He asked "It looks like you need a hug"

I tried to push him again when I felt a small scar on his chest and I looked up at him.

"Is that from Aizen?" I asked

"Yeah" was all he said

I pulled away from him. I looked down at the ground and felt the tears fall from my eyes. I still have no idea how I can go from pissed to sad like that. I'm sure it's a girl thing. and maybe all the guilt.

"That is why I don't want to be around you" I said "I almost cost you you're life already I can not live with myself if I really did have a hand in your death."

"Stop that Momo" he said "You and I grew up together I'm always going to try to take care of you, protect you and Kill that bastard for you. Nothing you say is ever going to chance that. So just come back to the 10th and go back to sleep. I don't want you alone at the 5th...please I don't want you alone."

I gave a small smile.

"But I was alone the whole time you where gone" I said

"No you where not" He said "Izuru was staying here and keeping any eye on you for me. You where never alone I know your every move Momo. And before you say anything I know you think you don't need a babysitter but I watched you almost die once I don't think that I could do it again."

I let him pull me back to the 10th only because I felt like that If I didn't it would lead to more trouble and another kido fight that I didn't want to deal with. He fixed the door and stood there watching me get back into the bed. I rolled over onto my side not wanting to look at him. My life really was a mess. And it felt like the steps that I took in the time that he was gone where all wiped away.