As Your Lieutenant
I don't own Bleach
The next morning I woke up in Toshiro's room. I rolled onto my side and looked out the window it was still early.The sun wasn't even up yet this was early even for me.I looked over at Toshiro who just started to snore. I couldn't help the small smile that came to my lips. I rolled away from him pulling the blanket off me as got up. That was when I realized that I was still naked and that my lower half of my body hurt.
"That wasn't a dream them" I stated to myself
I thought back to what happened last night.
Flash back
I was in his arms and he kissed me. I felt my hands run into his air as he pulled me tighter to him. The next thing I know we flashed stepped into his or our bed room. I pulled away and walked as far away from him as I could.
"Toshiro" I sighed "I don't know about this. I mean we've just kissed I don't know if this is such a good idea"
"Do you know how long I've wanted to kiss you" He asked me "Years Momo...YEARS! How long I've wanted to be with you. I've waited this long I can wait a little longer."
I was at a loss for words. After all I had never know this.
"I almost lost you to Aizen. I'm not about to let you go ever." He sighed"We don't have to do anything all I want to do is hold you when you sleep."
I looked at him lost for words.
"Aizen?" I asked "Do you think that I was sleeping with Aizen?"
"Come on Momo!" He said "The way that you talked about him and the looks whenever he talked to you. I was sure that you had. I guess I was wrong"
"Damn right!"
I turned from him and felt tears roll down my face. I was so sick of crying at this point.I walked to the door and was about to push it open when I felt him place his hand on my shoulder.
"I'm sorry" He said to me "Please stay Momo?"
"Who's asking me" I asked "Toshiro or My captain?"
"Me Toshiro...Not the Captain of the 10th but the man that I am" He said pulling me into a hug"Like I said we don't have to do anything I just..."
The look on his face told me everything. He was in love with me! He may not say it to me but he sure felt it for me. I smiled and nodded into his neck.
"I'll stay" I said
We talked for hours about everything and anything. When we where kids, why he liked watermelon so much and what we thought about.I ended up falling asleep with my head on his chest. I woke up maybe an hour after I had first fallen asleep with a cramp in my neck. I got up and changed into something to sleep in and found that Toshiro wasn't really asleep.
"You drooled on my shoulder" He said with a smile
"Oh...I'm so sorry Captain" I teased "would you like me to find you something new to ware?"
"I think you need to make it up to me."
He sat up and just took off the shirt. He reached out and pulled me to him.
"Oh would you like a kiss" I said "is that how you want me to make it up to you."
As we kissed I tried to put everything that I was feeling into it. I wanted him to know how much I cared about him. I felt him hand on my hip and moving down my thigh when I pulled away from his lips.
"Sorry" He said "I'll stop"
I looked at him and I know it was just the right time.
"No" I said "don't"
end of flash back
I sighed, got dressed and left the room. I walked over to my room and changed into normal cloths for the rukongai. I wanted to get away from all of this I just needed to think. I was so worried that things had messed things up by what happened last night. I walked out of the 10th and headed out I passed a few partied that where still going on. I saw Izuru talking half drunk to his new lieutenant who was more drunk them him. Izuru looked up at me and smiled. I waved and kept on walking not wanting to talk to him.
"Momo wait up" Izuru stated running after me "It's about time you showed up! Where have you been it's like 4 in the morning?"
"Izuru...I mean Captain Kira...I'm sorry" I stated "I got caught up in some work at the 10th. Matsumoto never did her paper work so I had a lot to do."
Izuru looked at me and grabbed a hold of my arm and stopped me.
"Wait...you're glowing!" He stated looking at me with a worried look on his face "I was just joking about you and Captain Hitsugaya!"
"I don't know what you're talking about SIR" I stated
I tried to walk away and he pulled me to him by my arm.
"Momo" He breathed "did you really sleep with..."
"Izuru if you finish that statement I swear that you'll feel the full force of my kido!" I sighed looking up at him "I'm going into to rukongai for a little bit. You know go to the house I grew up in maybe go shopping later on. I was wondering if you wanted to come with me but you're still...never mind. I'll see you later."
I jerked my arm from his hand and walked away. I noticed that Izuru was watching me walk away. I had never seen that look on his face before and he and I fought. But that was a different time. He rushed into the room he was in when I started back on my way. I Must have been really deep in thought because the next thing I know I was almost to the gate. I stopped and really thought about going back and talking to Izuru. After all he was a good friend and he almost looked hurt that I slept with Toshiro.When all of a sudden Matsumoto stopped me.
"Matsumoto" I stated "Why are you always scaring me lately."
"Sorry" She smile "But I have good reason. I had to get to you before you got to the gate."
I looked at her and know then that Izuru had told her that he saw me and what had happened between me and Toshiro. Or what he thought had happened between us that is.
"Well look at our little Momo." Matsumoto stated "She's not little anymore she's a women now...so how was it?"
"I beg you're pardon?" I asked
She laughed and smiled.
"I'm not saying that it happened" I said mater of factually
"Oh it happened I can tell!" She said "Izuru was right!"
With that she pulled me into a hug and kissed my chick.
"I had to stop him from going over to the 10th and trying to kick Toshiro's ass." She smiled "You sure do have a lot of men looking out for you."
"I wounder how Renji is going to take it" I laughed
Matsumoto hugged me again.
"Are you drunk?" I asked
"I'm sober enough for this talk" She said to me "Although now that I think about it why are you out here alone? I mean shouldn't you be in bed with Toshiro?"
I couldn't help but look at her and then looked down at my feet.
"I should be in bed with him" I sighed "But I just need to think. It's all happening way to fast Matrumoto. I told him how I felt yesterday, was then made his lieutenant and he still hasn't told me how he feels well not really. And now here I am the morning after we slept together for the first time...my first time was with Toshiro and I feel...I don't know what I feel."
"I remember my first time" Matsumoto stated with a dreamy look on her face.
I looked at her shocked I always had a feeling but I never know for a fact.
"Who?" I asked
"Gin! And I felt just like you fell. I little confused and maybe even a little guilty. When I was with Gin nothing but us mattered. It was just me and Gin the outside world didn't matter." She said to me "I hope that you feel the some way for him as he feels for you. If anyone is meant to be in this world it is the two of you. Well maybe Renji and Rukia..."
I smiled and thought of Renji and how he used to look when he saw Rukia when we where at school.
"Look Momo I know that this is all new for you" She said with a knowing look "But trust me when I tell you that if you don't get back into that bed things are going to be a lot harder. I know that you love him and I know that he loves you. If you're having any troubles then you should just tell him how you feel and well what you're feeling right now. Running away from him after last night isn't the answer."
I looked at her and nodded my head.
"You're right Matsumoto" I sighed "You seem to always be right. I am trying to run away from what I'm feeling. Thank you for talking to me."
"No problem Momo" She stated "Oh and sometime today go to the 4th and let one of them know that you're...well sleeping with someone. We don't need any children until after the war is over. You don't have to tell them who...although I'm sure that they'll know after all Toshiro hardly left your side when you where in that coma."
I nodded my head and made a face at the thought of running and it made me want to cry but I had to get back the sun was starting to come up. I flashed stepped as much as I could and ran the rest of the way there. I opened to door the 10th and walked into him room. He was still asleep looking very much like the boy I used to come home and see when I wasn't at school. I really had a lot of problems as of late. I breath a sigh and looked at him one more time before I walked into the bathroom. I took off my cloths and turned on the shower. Sex was starting to be a real pain. And now that I've ran all the way here was in a lot of pain. I waited until the water was right and I stepped into the shower. I started to wash the blood from my legs when I felt an arm rap around my waist.
"Why do you captains always sneak up on people." I said with my hand on my chest "would it kill you to just say something when you walk into a room"
"This is more fun" He laughed "The look on your face every time is priceless"
"Good morning Captain Hitsugaya I hope you had a good night."
Toshiro snorted at me and kissed my neck.
"I had a very, very good night Lieutenant Hinamori" He said trying to sound like we where in the office but he couldn't help the laugh that came through. He pulled me into a hug "how was you night?"
"It was very nice" I smiled "I...it was nice"
He looked at red tinted water at my feet and then looked up at me.
"Is that from last night." He asked"Did I hurt you?"
"Yes" I said "I have never been with a man so...can I talk to you about something?"
He nodded his head.
"I feel a little odd about what happened last night." I said with a small voice
"Odd? That wasn't what I was going for..." He sighed "Looks like we need to have a talk about this."
He became Captain Hitsugaya in front of my eyes. The worm look that he had when he looked at me was gone he was Captain of the 10th Toshiro Hitusgaya calm, collected,and cold.
"OK Lieutenant" He said "why do you feel so odd"
I was a little shocked that he wanted to have this talk as Captain and Lieutenant.
"You want to have this talk as my captain?" I sighed
"As you captain" He stated "You should always feel that you can talk to me about anything."
"I lost my virginity to my best friend last night sir"
He looked at me like he had no idea who I was talking about.
"I'm sure you're just confused right now" He said "after all it is a big step to take."
I always wondered how he was able to put his feeling aside like that. I've never been able to put my feeling aside like that.
"I know that sir." I sighed "But that doesn't change how I feel...love him so much but I don't know about him. I feel guilty for everything that happened. For the whole Aizen thing, for the two fights that we had and for not talking to him about this after all I should be able to talk to him anything...after all I've know him just about all my life. but I can't talk to him not right now. I'm worried that when this war get started Azian will go after him because he know how I feel about said person. I don't think I'd live if he was taken from me."
He crossed his arms over his chest and looked me right in the eyes.
"You worry to much about the past Momo" He explained
As he said that his eyes softened and he was Toshiro I always loved it how he was able to go from Captain Hitsugaya to Lil' Shiro in a blink of an eye.
"Don't worry about me and Aizen" He said "I'll kill the bastard and then you never have to worry about him again."
I smiled and looked away from him.
"It's always been you Momo and now that I have you I want to shout it from the roof tops. Last night...I mean..." he tried to get out
"Are you at a loss for words?" I asked
We just looked at each other.
"No" he sighed "I just have no idea what to do. This is all so new to me!"
I turned off the water and stepped out of the shower. I started to dry off and get dressed again.
"Lil' Shiro" I stated "As your lieutenant I will follow any order you give me...But as Momo I love you with every breath I take. Just thought that you should know."
I headed to the door the lead to the bed room and pushed it open.
"I'll see you later OK" I said
"Where are you going?" He asked me
"The 4th" I stated "I did just have sex for the first time and I need to go..."
He smiled and walked over to me and pulled me into a kiss.
"I'll be in office when you get back" He said "Try not to take all day Momo. I have plans for us tonight"
"I'll be back as soon as I can" I smiled
I walked out of the bathroom and into the bedroom. I smiled to myself Matsumoto was right...she always was.