What next
I don't own Bleach
this is by Momo
I opened my eyes and had no idea how I ended up back in my room. Sleeping had left a fog over my memories and it didn't seem like I was going to remember last night until I woke up fully. So I rolled over and I looked around my room. Everything was as it should be. My room wasn't different at all my zanpakutÅ was where I left it before I left for the party, my uniform was on my desk in the mess that I left it in and closet was still wide open. I still couldn't place it but something was different. I rolled over again and realized that I was naked. I felt myself blush even though I was alone and I pulled the blanket tighter over my body. That woke me up and it all came back like a flood.
Flash back
"Momo..." Toshiro said to me as he tried to get me to look at him "Momo look at me please"
I looked at him I couldn't help it. To tell the truth I really never could say no to that man. I felt my will crumble when I looked into his cold green eyes. I don't know what made me but I reached out and placed my lips on his. I felt him go rigid and then he pull me tighter to him. His kiss changed and it became harder.
"I'm going to do something very stupid Momo." He had said to me as he pulled away from the kiss a look of such passion in his eyes that I know that I would do whatever he wanted from me. "Will you let me?"
"Whatever you want Toshiro" I smiled at him as I gripping his robs like a life line. "Whatever you want."
He pulled me into a kiss that was unlike any kiss he and I had ever had. We didn't fight each other, no we would fight later I was sure of it. But as of right now I just wanted him. I put my arms around his neck and put my finger in his white hair. And with that he pulled me tighter to his body and we flash stepped away
End of flash back
That's right Toshiro and I came back to the 5th last night and then things... well happened. I remembered him kissing me, touching me and holding me like it was the last time he was ever going to do it. And the truth was last night really was the last time for a very long time if ever again. I smiled and blushed again, I sure was shy about my sex life that was true. Hell I was even saying I had a sex life even when I was alone.
I sighed as I thought more about it, Toshiro did say that he was going to do something stupid. And like the fool I am when it comes to him I let him. I should have know that this was where it was going to end up. How like a man Toshiro really had acted. He really had changed from the little boy that would spit his watermelon seeds at me. And thought I know he's a man I really didn't think that he had it in him. I sighed at the memory of last night one more time. After all it really was a nice one. If I wasn't going to get to be with Toshiro for a long time, then at least last night was a nice memory to keep me company.
I sat up knowing that I was alone I had to get dressed and start my day after all. I'm sure that Renji would wonder where I am, that is if he even was awake at the moment and in the office. If not then it would be because he and Rukia had been up very late. I got dressed as fast as I could and did my hair. As I walked to the office I realized that it was really quite and sure enough I found the office to be empty. I sighed with a little relief I didn't want to explain anything to anyone. I wanted to keep it all to myself.
I sat down and started to get right to work. The paper work wasn't all that bad, after all I kept on top of things. I did it happily after all it was all part of the job. and I did it with a smile because it kept my mind off things. Like Toshiro holding my tightly in his arms and whispering that he loved me. The feel of his fingers in my hair as we just laid in the bed side by side. I had to push it out of my mind I had a job to do. I couldn't spend the day remembering last night.
I started back to the paper work I read one and stopped when I realized what I was reading. This was transfer paper work it looked like Rukia was being sent to us. The only reason they would do that is because Renji and Rukia were going to get married. That was a nice thought, that even in this time of war people where still trying to make a normal happy life. I wanted nothing but the best for anyone that could be with the one that they loved the most in this life. It was stuff like this that made me wish that I really could have Toshiro. And I mean really, really have him. I leaned back in my chair and looked out the window and watched the world move by.
"What do I do next?" I said to myself as a cloud went by that looked like a dragon to me and I thought of Toshiro "Do I act as if none of this ever happened?"
As I thought about what had happened I started to feel a little over heated and the room started to spin. So I did the first thing that I could think of I laid my face on the desk it felt cool that's just what I needed. I don't know how long I sat there because at some point the door slid open.
"Did you sleep in the office Momo?" Renji asked walking in the room.
"No sir" I said sitting up "I just got a little over heated that's all."
Renji walked over to me. I felt so small standing next to him (after all I always felt small next to Renji) as he put his hand on my forehead.
"You do feel a little worm." He said as he looked over me "And now that I get a good look at you, you do look a little green. Did you have to much fun last night Momo.?"
I shock my head and gave a small smile.
"Come to think of it the last time I saw you...you where talking to captain Hitsugaya" Renji went on to say "you both looked like you would rather be any place but talking to each other."
"It wasn't a very fun talk" I forced a smile "but other then that you're party was alot of fun, wasn't it."
Renji walked away and sat down at his desk with a sigh.
"Did you do all the paper work?" He asked me with a look of shock "How late am I? What time is it?"
That was the first time I got to look at the time.
"You're not late at all." I smiled at his worried look on his face "I was just up way to early and wanted something to do that's all. By the way would you like me to have a room ready for Rukia or will she be sleeping with you?"
Renji looked at me and then at the pile of paper work. I watched him blush it was always funny to see a man as big as Renji blush.
"Did they really push that through so fast?" Renji laughed "Byakuya sure isn't waisting any time now is he? As far as I know she'll be in my room but I'll ask her tonight at dinner."
I nodded my head and gave a small smiled. I was happy for them, after all they had grown up in hell and then grew apart. As I think about it I think that when Rukia was almost put to death was what started them on the path of finding there way back to each other. It was nice that they where still able to end up together. It gave me hope that maybe just maybe I would find my way back into Tishiro's arms.
"Momo you really do look green" Renji stated "Go get some sleep you look like death."
The truth was I felt bad and I wanted to go back to sleep. I wasn't about to say no to Renji if he was going to let me get a few hours of sleep. I needed my head and headed for the door.
"I can't sleep for to long I have the lieutenants meeting with the old man today" I told him
"Crap" Renji sighed "That means I'm going to be in meetings all day tomorrow. I really do hate that part of being a captain"
I pushed the door open and looked at Renji over my shoulder.
"You know that it was part of being a captain" I stated "It's all part of having the robe and the badge."
"Yeah yeah" he sighed "I'll make sure you're awake in time for the meeting."
"Thanks"
I walked into my room and as soon as I was on my bed I felt like I passed out.
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