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This is a chapter that I have been wanting to write since I started this story hope you like it.

BPOV

"There is one" Jasper laughed pointing to an empty car spot.

I pushed the pedal to the floor spotting a ford festiva gunning for the same spot.

"God" Jasper threw his hands in the air "We would have been parked and done if we just took my car"

"No one offered to drive" I was getting a little irritated with his attitude .

"There" he pointed to a car reversing out of a spot.

"See it all worked out in the end" I smiled "right next to the entry".

Once in the centre I had no idea were to go, I didn't go clothes shopping that often and I bought food from a little store off the highway.

"What first?" I asked hoping that Jasper had some idea of were to go.

"I usually get my clothes from a place over here" he said taking my hand and leading me through that crowd.

Why was I holding hands with Jasper? I had a boyfriend, I had Edward but I couldn't let go I felt safe with Jaspers touching me.

"I just need some jeans and shirts" Jasper said letting go of my hand and moving round the store grabbing various and throwing them over his arm. Leaving me standing awkwardly at the entrance.

"Wait aren't you going to try any of that on" .

"Bells I have been the same size for you know how long" he said flashing me his brilliant smile and winking at me. "I am not going to wear Charlies hand me downs for ever"

"But your human now" I whispered "Your going to be gaining and losing weight"

"Are you calling me fat Bella Swan" he pretended to be offended, I hope that he was pretending.

"Well you did eat all the junk food we had in the house"

"Miss" Jasper called the attention of the poor girl that was trying to work her way through the pile of clothes that he had dumped on her.

"Yes" she looked up with a dear in head light look on her face.

"Do you think I am fat?" ow that poor girl she looked him up and went redder than me.

"Stop it! Leave her alone" I said playfully hitting him.

"$765.90 sir" she said trying not to make eye contact.

He pulled out his wallet and handed her a credit card then positioned himself behind and wrapping his arms around my waist.

"Now we see if they have cut off the human" he whispered in my ear.

He smelt so nice different from Edward more alive always changing and he was so soft and warm.

"Thank you Mr" she checked out the name on the card "Cullen".

"They still love me" he grabbed all the bags and made his way to the door.

"That or they haven't gotten around to cancelling your credit card" I joked.

"Ow Stab".

Jasper was the funniest person that I think I have ever met, I never laughed this hard when I was with Edward he was always to concerned with what the people around him thought of his behaviour but Jasper seemed to want to make people happy.

When we were in the supermarket Jasper filled a shopping cart with nothing but junk food.

"You know how I was talking about your waist line" I reminded him.

"Funny Edward never mentioned that you were a comedian" I just poked out my tongue. It was weird Jasper had been mentioning Edward all day and I didn't feel a thing.

"Were is the ice-cream I always wanted to try ice-cream" he was like a child.

"Down the end I think" and he was off, "you can have one tub" I yelled after him.

"Yes mum".

"Bella, fancy meeting you here" Jessica was blocking the aisle with her cart, "got the munchies Bella"

"Hi Jess what are you doing here?" Stupid question stupid question.

"I am shopping, I am making dinner for Mike" she said twirling her hair round her finger.

"Ow you and Mike are dating again" how long ago did that happen.

"Yeah if you weren't such a zombie at school you would have noticed"

"Yeah I have been a bit out of it haven't I"

"More than a bit Bella, you know there are other guys in the world, Edward Cullen isn't the only one" wow bitch.

I was just formulating a witty come back when I felt a pair of arm wrap around my waist.

"One tub" he said placing a tub into the cart "and I found this it looks nice" he said holding up a can.

"Its dog food Jasper" I didn't know if it was another joke or he was being serious, "Do you remember Jessica?"

"Jess this is Jasper" I introduce him starting to get a little self conscience about him having his arms around my waist.

"Yeah Alices boy friend right" she took his hand staring at me.

"Not anymore" he smiled, "hey would you know where to find the fruit?, it has been so long since I tasted an apple"

"Aisle one" Jessica said pointing.

"I'll be right back".

"Wow you didn't waste anytime do you Bella, did you at least wait until they had broken up" with that she turned on her heals and stormed off.

JPOV

The book store seemed to be Bella's favourite we had been in here for hours and she had a whole stack of books hat she wanted to buy. After 20 minutes I had wonder off and left her to look happily in the classic literature section.

Self help I wonder if there was a book for my situation so you're a vampire that's just been turned back into a human this is the book for you in ten easy lesson we can help your second life be the best one so far. Just by following our 1o easy lessons including your food is now cooked, have fun sleeping and that funny feeling in your chest just to name a few. I could really use a book like that.

Military history worth a look world war one, world war two, Ah the American civil war this had always been my favourite subject Edward always liked world war one and Emmett had liked world war two they had both died just before the wars and were both planning to enlist but death got in there way. I had been the only one that had lived thought war in both my life and death so I had a different perspective Edward and Emmett saw war as a glorified way of showing people that you were a hero all I saw was a place were good men died for no reason. The civil war was a particular sore point for me because I apparently fought on the wrong side, the losing side. I never joined the confederate army because I thought that what they were fighting for was right or that the north was wrong, I had never believed in slavery and we were one of the only families in our town that didn't own slaves. I had joined because of my father there was something that I always had to prove to that man and being a military man himself I had always thought that by rising the ranks it would some how prove to him that I was a good son.

I ran my fingers along the spines of the books until I found one that I didn't own Letter from the front: letter from confederate soldiers and their families. opening it I flicked though that pages Jensen Miller he was a young solider that I commanded but had also been my friend I really liked him he was like me he joined the effort to prove something to his family skimming thought it was a letter to his mother flipping the page over there was a paragraph talking about what had happened to him. He had made it home, I always knew that he would you could sometimes tell the ones that were going to make it the ones that were brave enough to fight but brave enough to retreat were always the ones that made it. It was the last sentence that caught my attention.

After the war Jensen made a trip to Hudson Texas were he visited the family of who he called his only true friend in the fight Major Jasper Whitlock (see page 67-76) there he fell in love with Jasper sister Emily Whitlock the two were married and had two boys Jasper and Benjamin Miller as well as three girl Sarah,, Erin and Ashley.

Emily I had remember my mother and father but I didn't remember a sister. Wait page 67 I flipped to the page and found a letter in my hand writing reading it through it was to my mother, I didn't remember writing it though I remember the events that were spoken about in the letter but I don't remember writing it. I flipped through the following pages and there was my mother response and several more letter in my hand writing. I flipped to the paragraph that explained what happened to me.

Major Jasper Whitlock was one of the youngest officer in the confederate army he was listed as missing in action but his body was never recovered. His mother Sarah Whitlock claiming to have seen her son on the streets of Texas fifty years after the war had ended she described him as having aged one day. Sarah died at home surrounded by her friends and family with the hope that her son was still alive and well somewhere in America.

I could feel the tears forming in my eyes but I quickly wiped them away, she had seen me I wonder of I saw her.

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"This is amazing Jasper" Bella sat in the passenger seat of her truck reading over the letters that I had wrote.

"Flip to the end page" I was trying as hard as I could to get her truck up to 60 miles per hour but it wasn't letting me.

"She saw you, the poor women must have thought she was going mad" I looked over and tears were running down her face, quickly I put on the indicator and pulled over to the side of the road.

"She loved you so must" she said wiping the tears from her eyes.

"What's wrong?" I wasn't able to feel her emotions but I had them long enough to know that there was something other than my mothers story that made her cry like that.

"I was so selfish Jasper" she said launching in to another wave of tears.

I pulled her towards me and held her against my chest "No you not you're the most unselfish person I know".

"I wanted to be with Edward I wanted him to change me and I didn't give a damn what it would do to my family to the people that I loved" she pulled away from my chest and looked me in the eye. "Imagine what would have happened to Charlie and my mum if I just disappeared and one day 50 years from now I would be in a shop or on the street and one of them see me"

"Hey" I held her face in both my hands making sure that she was looking at me, "But it didn't happen and that's all that matters you get to see Charlie everyday and just pick up the phone and you can talk to your mum, it is all good" I flashed her a smile. Before I knew what was happening her face had broken free of my hands and she had thrown her arms around me our faces inches away from each other her eyes were staring at my lips, taking what Alice said into account I stopped thinking and moved my lips up to hers.

Hope you like it, I am not good and writing all the kissy mushy stuff I hope it is okay. Please Please tell me what you think. If you would like you can tell me what you would like me to put in future chapters.