Break your little heart Chapter 4: Miserable about Angels, a twilight fanfic

Break your little heart
Chapter 4- Miserable about angels

A party song (the walk of shame)- All time low
Oh, oh, oh oh oh
Oh, oh oh-oh-oh (x2)

I took a walk for the very first time
On the dark side of the dance floor
Lit a match just to heat things up
But I got more than I bargained for

Mixed drinks
Mixed feelings of elation
I should've known
It was a worn-out invitaion

Don't sweat it
Forget it
Everything is a-ok
Just let it
Know that it's
All to find another face
I make you come just to watch you leave
You walk around with my heart on your sleeve
Don't sweat it
It's over now
Our time ran out

Oh, oh, oh oh oh
Oh, oh

I took enough
But I'm giving it up
You didn't have to see thing my way
Nothing more than a casual fuck
Isn't that just how we operate

Let's drink
To feeling of temptation
You and I
Are an over-night sensation

Don't sweat it
Forget it
Everything is a-ok
Just let it
Know that it's
All to find another face
I make you come just to watch you leave
I walk around with your heart on my sleeve
Don't sweat it
It's over now
Our time ran out

I saw the break-lights starting to dim
I feel the tension that's been pulling us in
And then we do it again
So we can feel alright
Falling in love for the night

Our time ran out(x4)(Oh, oh, oh oh oh
Oh, oh oh-oh-oh(x2))

Edward Pov…

"You're fucking miserable," Jasper complained for the millionth time that day.

"Sorry," I replied coldly unable to help my despair.

"What-ever, look the suns out why don't you get out of the house, mum would've had you out the door at six," Jasper said lounging on the couch with his jacket hung over his arm lazily.

"Mums dead," I said turning away from him.

"What's wrong with you," Jasper half yelled sighing and pushing himself from the chair.

"It's that girl you were with at the ball wasn't it?" Jasper said making the connection.

"What girl?" I muttered not looking at him.

"Don't play stupid, I did come home after the ball" Jasper said staring at me.

"What" I said turning to face my brother. My cheeks were pale from the shock of this latest discovery.

"You come home?" I stuttered staring at him with a mixture of horror and shock on my face.

"Yeah wish I didn't now, don't worry I left again. I spent the night at Matt's, I vomited I was so disgusted I mean eww like I wanted to see my little brother do that" Jasper said disgust not only written on his face but mimicked in his tone. I put my head in my hands and thought of her beautiful chocolate brown eyes and full lips.

"Fine let's go," I said standing not even bothering to put a tee-shirt on.

"You mean me as well?" Jasper said bewildered.

"Yeah we dipshit you wanted to go out and I'm coming so…" I trailed off. I didn't swear usually but I was in a foul mood and Jasper seemed to understand because he didn't comment on my language or my out of character day.

"Where are we going then?" he asked casually as I walked into the garage getting my keys as I went.

"Shops, I want a new video game so I can kick your ass at something new," I responded.

I heard him chuckle behind me in response, "Like you could beat me" he said and I could hear the smile in his voice.

I grinned as well, it was easy to get on brotherly competition and with Jasper it was unusually easy and it created a great distraction, because one I got to beat my older brother and two it would erase my thoughts of her or that's what I hoped it would do.

"How about this one?" Jasper asked holding up Halo.

"Nah we own the second which is probably better," I responded and turned my eyes back to the shelves scanning them for a suitable game. Three game shops later we found one or three I should say. We got Nightclub 2, Grand Turismo and Kill Zone.

"You're going down little brother," Jasper taunted.

"That's what you think," I said and then leaving him no chance to dodge I ruffled his hair and dodged out of the way when he swung is arm at me.

"Missed me," I taunted.

I saw Jaspers eyes sparkle and I dodged just before his hand swung at my stomach. I leaped back avoiding it by inches and then I laughed.

"Missed me again," I teased and then I walked round to the driver's side of the Volvo climbed in and started the car.

"You're going down when we get home," Jasper groaned as he got in the car.

"It's not my fault your aims shitty today," I said laughing as I pulled onto the road and almost immediately pulled up at a red light.

"That Bertie Botts has gotten popular," I heard Jasper say and I turned to look.

There were people everywhere and the line was out of the building. Jasper was saying something but I wasn't listening I was staring at a girl that had chocolate brown eyes beautiful brown hair and was wearing a gorgeous dress although I noticed she kept brushing her hands over it as if she was uncomfortable wearing it. She was with that girl that was at the ball, the small one, I couldn't remember her name but she was talking and I could see Bella was clearly not paying attention.

"GO!" Jasper shouted at me and hit me over the back of the head.

I came out of my daze and slammed my foot on the accelerator ignoring the angry honks I was getting. The car launched forward at warp speed and I slammed my foot on the brake clearing my head for a second and then I eased my foot on the acceleration pedal more gently as Jasper shook his head at me and then looked out the window.

The ride home was a daze and Jasper stayed quiet intent on letting me concentrate after me almost accident at the lights. Finally when we got home I chucked the games on the couch.

"Tea or coffee, you pick a game it doesn't matter which," I called.

"Coffee" Jasper called and I walked into the kitchen to make our favored drinks.

Jasper had chosen nightclub 2 and he had already selected his car.

"No fair how come you get the BMW?" I asked.

"I left you the Volvo," he responded taking his coffee and sipping it.

I took the remote and browsed through the cars and finally decided on a Red Chevrolet with 280 horse power.

"Nice choice," Jasper commented as we scrolled threw tracks. We decided on the hardest naturally and the race began.

"You cheated," Jasper said glaring at me.

I shrugged, "You didn't say I couldn't push you into a wall"

He laughed and shook his head. "Rematch no rules," Jasper said and the race began again.

"Not so good when you don't shove aye," Jasper said laughing.

"Well that last turn was complicated," I said smiling.

He laughed and stood up stretching and then yawning.

"You're not seriously tired are you?" I asked amazed.

"Well I plan on an all nighter," He said smirking.

"Shut-up like I wanted to hear that and I don't think that's what Alice had in mind," I muttered.

"Don't worry you're in for one two, after clubbing we'll all be winding down at Alice's,"

He said winking at me. "Fine go sleep, but I'm not waking you up," I told him. He shrugged and walked off to his bedroom.

I sighed as he disappeared behind the door, well there goes that distraction. I sat there for a moment wondering what I could do but in the end I gave up and just stood and walked into Mums old room.

Melinda Deborah Hale was scrawled across the door in gold script and I laughed at the memory of her doing it to shut Jasper up. I opened the door and it creaked, I shuddered at the sound and lightly closed the door behind me before assessing the room.

It hadn't changed much, her bed was unmade and the ancient Piano sat covered in dust and poorly mistreated. After she had died it seemed like a betrayal to play it again even if she left it to me.

I walked over to her bed-side table and stared at the smiling happy faces of Jasper and I. I was smiling to myself as I yet my eyes wander to a picture of her and my mystery father. She was staring at him adoringly but he had left us as soon as he had found her pregnant.

I sighed and against my better judgment sat at the old wooden seat in-front of the ancient Piano. I lifted the case and ran my fingers wordlessly and tunelessly over the ivory keys and suddenly I wanted nothing more than to just play, to write a song full of sorrow and wonder and emotion and to off-load all my feelings into the piano so maybe they wouldn't be as hard to bear.

I let my fingers drift over the keys as I drifted into my head and just thought as I pressed keys and the music flowed through me imbedding in my mind so they were unforgettable.

I thought of Bella the most, of our one night stand and her beautiful eyes and when I'd finished the song I decided it was for her because she was my main inspiration.

I heard a small clao from behind me and turned to see Jasper standing in the door smiling sadly at me. "I-l" I stuttered and quickly closed the Piano embarrassed although I didn't have to be.

"That was good, mum would have loved it," Jasper said smiling and I realized with a jolt of shock he was trying not to cry.

"She would have," I agreed and stood up to stand next to him. He stepped into the hall and I closed the door which creaked in protest.

"It's time to go." Jasper said to me changing the subject.

"Already?" I asked rather glad that I wouldn't have time to dwell on my mother's past and if I wanted I could get plastered and off-load more feeling, I could drift into a sober world where nothing bad ever happens and life goes on like a dream, or a fairy tale.

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I wasn't even dressed up, just loose khaki pants and a button up v neck but somehow I felt watched like I didn't fit in as I sat sipping from an unknown drink. I think it was some type of cocktail or beer or even vodka, Jasper had said it would help and I didn't question it. Jasper sat next to me staring at the door like it was a life-line.

"At least look laid back, there's no need to stare at the bouncer," I muttered under my breath but I knew he could hear me even over the loud music.

The lights were blinding as they flashed and spun but my eyes were adjusted which is why I saw a familiar pair of Brown eyes over the crowd meet mine and I had a feeling that maybe my fairy-tale could come true.

I know this was a fairly boring Chapter, but it was necessary. The club winding down will be in the next chapter : ) finally some excitement I guess : 0 Thank-you Izzy for helping out.

Preview.
The toilet seemed to sway as I vomited into it clutching my stomach and moaning as Edward held my hair out of my face for the second time that month as my stomachs sorry condense spilled out.

I clutched the unwanted test in shame as I stared at three answers all meaning the one thing. I was pregnant with Edwards Child and I had no way of knowing what was to come as I stared blankly at the two smiley faces and the positive sign.

Hoped you enjoyed my chapter anyway and I hope its not to much to ask for a review because I love them they make my day : )
tegan