Break your little heart Chapter 8: when grief calls, a twilight fanfic

Break your little heart
Chapter 7- when grief calls

Worlds apart- twenty twenty

Driving out, we're heading somewhere new
Top down, we're onto something
Straight roads and skies are crystal blue
Don't know where we're going

'Cos you and me were meant to be
Were meant to be together
But you and I will never be the same

This is our way, this is our life
Just one chance to make it right
This is our dream, and all I see
Is a place for you and me
If you need somebody, I'm somebody
For you to hold on tight
This is our life, but we're just worlds apart

Walking down a dead end street at night
Head down, I'm going under
We tried and failed to make it right
Don't know where we're going

'Cos you and me were meant to be
Were meant to be together
But you and I were just too much the same

We're just world's apart

Running round in circles with these voices in my head
Wishing I was someone else instead

This is our way, this is our life
Just one chance to make it right

Bella Pov.
I sat alone in my/Alice's room thinking of the best way to talk to Alice when my phone rang. I picked it up not even bothering to check the ID. I was expecting a call from Edward so I gathered it would be him especially since Alice was out with jasper. I wondered briefly whether something was going on there and made a mental note to ask her.

"Hey Edward" I said brightly into the phone but Edward wasn't the one who replied.

"Bella who's Edward?" Jacob asked me in a strange voice, it was funny he sounded almost jealous but the anger in his voice was unmistakable.

"A friend," I said recoiling at the voice. It was so familiar, and yet so strange hearing it again after all this time.

"I've missed you so mu-" Jacob started to say.

"What do you want?" I asked bluntly.

"Leah and I were a mistake I need you," he said and I heard his tone and knew Leah had dumped him, funny how hurt a guys ego could get, so much that they came back running.

"What to possessive for her, No Jake, it's finished I don't need you, not anymore." I said coldly.

"Bella you don't mean that, you and me all the way babe," he said and I heard for the first time a jerk speaking and not the Jake I knew that had played with me since child-hood like Ali.

"I don't love you and I want you to leave me alone and stay the hell away from me," I shouted in a sudden burst of rage. I hung up and the glared at the phone like it was its fault. I flung it at the wall and had the satisfaction of watching it snap.

I didn't know where my anger was coming from but I had the urge to hit something as my anger consumed me boiling over as I took it out on anything around me. I screamed and hit the bed sinking to the floor crying.

I was home alone so nobody was there to comfort me. I starred at my phone which lay broken, snapped in two and cried harder. I sat their crying for ages and when the doorbell rang I figured it was Alice, having locked herself out. I walked blindly down the stairs tears still streaming down my face as a bawled my eyes out.

I heard another knock and sighed. "Someone's impatient," I muttered and then reaching the door I pulled it open with unnecessary force.

His bronze hair was windblown and his eyes were frantic as he took me in. "Bella are you OK?" he said and then stepped inside and hugged me.

"No," I moaned into him not returning his hug just limply standing in his arms. Edward closed the door and stood back looking at me like I'd been through a war ( which technically that's probably what it looked like seeming I'd just woken up had the worst call and had a fit and started crying for no reason).

"Oh Bella," he sighed looking at me.

I stepped out of his arms and left him standing there giving him the option to follow me or the option to leave. I was still hiccupping my tears had ceased and my sobbing was only quiet. I grabbed a tissue and headed into Alice's room, Edward trailing behind me in concern.

I sat on the floor and blew my nose leaning against the bed as I watched Edward take in my horrid state and the phone that was Brocken and the dint in the wall where it had hit.

"Nice throw," he said smiling as he slid down to sit beside me. I hiccupped in response and wiped my nose again.

"So what happened?" He asked.

This was my chance to tell him but my throat caught up and instead I told him about Jacob and how he'd hurt me emotionally and then finally about the phone call. Edward's hands where clenching and unclenching when I was telling him I noticed but it didn't matter he was next to me, the father of my child. (Well he didn't know that but that's beside's the point).

"So what are you doing here?" I asked trying to pull myself together. I grabbed another tissue and blew into it, it was an ugly noise and I couldn't help but think god Bella I bet that's attractive. I scolded myself for it but the thought had been there.

"You didn't answer I rang a couple of times it didn't even ring so I panicked," he admitted sheepishly running his hand through his hair but his green eyes never left mine.

"Aren't you sweet," I tried to joke but it came out more serious than I had expected. He grinned at me and I saw watched his eyes run over me. I shivered but it had nothing to do with the cold, at least I don't think it did.

"When I saw you Jesus Bella, you look like hell and I presumed the worst I mean what girl has messy hair when it's like 1 o'clock?" Edward said, he tried to make a joke of it but his voice was deadly serious.

"A sick one who just got out of bed had the shittiest phone call and then had prince charming try to knock down the door," I said making light of it and exaggerating his knocking. He laughed and I smiled despite myself.

"Does that mean I can rescue you?" he asked.

"Nope," I said and grinned.

"Come on you made me so worried I came all this way just to see if you were alright," he said still grinning.

"I can't go anywhere I'm still sick," I said.

"And you look fine, kinda," he said.

"Sound fine," I corrected.

"Whatever," he mumbled.

"Please, go on, if you get sick I'll bring you straight back here," he said earnestly looking me straight in the eye. I caved as soon as I looked into them and he knew it.

"But," I protested but he wouldn't have it. I scrawled a note for Ali and her parents and left letting Edward lead me out.

"Where are we going?" I exclaimed for the millionth time as I watched trees turn bushes and houses turn to blocks of land as we got further out of town. We were going in the opposite direction from Seattle and I seriously had no idea where we were going.

"Wait is where you kill me," I joked as I tried to be serious.

"Ha-ha," he said dryly but I could see the small smile playing at his lips.

"Just checking," I said lightly as I turned to face the window again watching the bland landscape zoom past.

"Wanna play a game?" Edward asked turning from the road to look at me.

"Look at the road," I said turning to look for him.

"And what game do you have in mind?" I asked biting my lip, (it was an annoying habit).

"How about twenty questions?" he said and I could hear the curiosity in his voice.

"Alright," I agreed reluctantly.

"I'll go first," he said after a pause and then the game began.

"Are you serious?" Edward exclaimed.

"Shut-up," I muttered blushing. The game of twenty questions had been abandoned for family stories and mine were rather embarrassing.

"What about you then, didn't you ever have a parent to take embarrassing photos or films?" I asked him smiling but as soon as I said it the smile was gone from him and I saw him retreating into himself.

"Don't worry about it, it's alright," I said quickly and after that it was silent for a while. I wondered what was so bad about his past and finally he spoke although it was through tight lips.

"She died a couple of years ago and dad took off a while ago," he said and I blinked at him in surprise.

"That's really sad," I said smiling sympathetically at him.

He gave a shaky laugh and I thought he had entered hysteria.

"What?" I asked.

"You didn't say sorry or anything like I expected you to, the only sympathy you showed was through a smile and I guess I'm grateful, I hate sympathy. But why didn't you?" he asked.

Oh I thought in relief. "I don't see a point in apologizing for something out of your hand, something you can't control and there's really no point you can't change it, it wasn't anyone's fault so…" I trailed off and wondered if I had of apologized.

"I agree," he said and we rode in a comfortable silence the rest of the way, at peace with each other at least for a moment and I enjoyed it while it lasted because as soon as I told Edward I was pregnant I thought he might run as well.

The restaurant we arrived at was small and cozy and it looked like just any other business, it wasn't fancy or over pricey it was just nice and relaxing, like they weren't trying to overdo it they were trying to make it homey and comforting.

"I love it," I said before I'd even gone inside. Edward raised an eyebrow at me in wonder and I shrugged opening the door.

"I always come here It reminds me of home," he said and I grinned at him motioning him to hurry into the warmth of the restraint.

"Aren't I supposed to open the door for you?" he asked. I shrugged and motioned him in. Sighing he gave in but he made sure he beat me to my chair and he pulled it out for me. I pouted at him and he laughed taking his seat across from me.

A waiter with long blonde hair and blue eyes with the skin colour of a desert princess came up to us and took our orders and I wished I could be as pretty as her instead of plain boring features to have something exotic.

"What are you thinking?" Edward asked looking at me intently.

"Nothing," I murmured as I turned my attention back to Edward. He didn't look like he believed it but he didn't push it instead he smiled and we started talking and I felt that the night couldn't be more perfect. I looked down at my stomach and glared at it knowing very well that I'd have to tell Edward sooner or later but I couldn't face it not yet not when this night seemed perfect.

"Bella," Edward said clicking and smiling.

"What?" I said blinking.

"You're so spacey," he said.

"Sorry," I mumbled looking down and feeling the familiar heat colour my cheeks an embarrassing brilliant pink.

Edward chuckled softly. "You're cute when you blush," he said and I looked up to see him grinning.

"I think you've said that before," I mumbled my cheeks colouring further.

A different waiter brought back the food, a male that looked around 24 and I paled realizing who it was. It was Jacobs friend Paul and he looked 24 but he wasn't he was only about 16.

"Bella," he said smiling at me. I stared at him in shock.

"Pa- Paul," I finally managed.

"Jake misses you, you should come hang again I'm sure he'd welcome you back and you wouldn't have to date that," he said jerking his head in Edwards direction.

"Jakes an asshole and you can tell him to go to hell," I said coldly and as he placed the food on the table and left neither Edward nor I said a word. And only later I realized I hadn't denied that I was dating Edward and neither had he.

"Tell me everything," Alice said practically bouncing up and down on her bed.

"Arr," I mumbled putting down my keys and walking into her room smiling a little despite myself.

"We had dinner the end," I said.

"You need to tell him you know," she said sobering.

"I know but every time I try I get all chocked up," I said. "I don't know how to tell him, I mean what if he runs off I'll be left raising a child on my own," I moaned.

"It wouldn't be so bad, I'd help you," Alice said looking at the window.

"You can have the baby after it's born," I said suddenly and I saw her eyes widen in surprise. I hadn't meant to tell her like that but it had just slipped out.

"No Bella that's," she said and then shook her head and stood walking out of the room and slamming the door behind her.

Alice POV

How could I have considered it I scolded myself as I slammed the front door and headed to Jaspers.

"He would understand, but how could I tell him without letting him now Bella's pregnant. I started crying as I drove and in the end I pulled over because I couldn't see where I was going.

The tears splashed across my face as a fumed over Bella's stupidity and over her offer. She was ignorant to try and give her child to me and it was even worse that she had offered without even telling Edward, what if Edward hadn't run, what if he'd wanted the kid and I knew he cared about Bella, he wouldn't run and I knew it.

I seethed as Bella's offer went in circles threw my mind, it was sick and the sickest part was I considered it. My best friend had used me, I told her my deepest want and she tried to give me her child just because I wanted one, it was negligence a mother is supposed to love her child not turn to give it away.

I cried harder as the clock ticked on and I decided to keep driving, to let my anger out and when I got home I would tell Bella, it was hopeless I had no idea what to say to Bella.

I decided to go to Jasper's anyway. My tears slowed until I was only hiccupping and when I finally arrived at Jaspers and Edwards house id stopped completely although I could feel how my eyes were puffy and I knew I looked extremely unattractive.

I got out of the car slowly, contemplating turning back and just ignoring Bella but I felt like I needed to hurt something and it would be easy to just let it slip hat she was pregnant.

I walked to the door and knocked loudly until I heard a muffled thump and I heard Edward call "Coming."

I felt butterflies flitter through my stomach as I thought of what I could say but come up blank.

"Can I help?" Edward started but then seeing it was me he grinned.

"Jasper's out ill call him if you like," he said.

"Can I come in?" I asked and he motioned for me to enter. I went into his living room, Edward trailing behind me. I spotted a few pictures and walked over to the shelf looking at them. I could feel his eyes on me so I turned.

"I have something to tell you," I said looking into his eyes.

"I'm listening," he said and I took in a deep breath and in an instant I'd made my decision.

Will she tell? Will she not? I haven't decided yet : )
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so far you guys are learning to Alice spilling the secret and Edward confronting Bella .

Sorry I haven't updated in ages I thought I sent the email tthree weeks ago to izzy to edit but I didn't opps :S and then the computer was taken from me… that didn't end well so I hope you enjoed this update : )
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tegan

Preview.
I splashed water over my face and watched my makeup smudge, It didn't seem important to look nice when you felt so depressed. In an instant I understood why Bella didn't care, because she had no confidence. That was my job to have confidence enough for both of us. I sighed and without thinking punched the mirror and as pain splintered through my fingers I welcomed it

Im not sure if that will defiantly be in it in those words but it most probably will be in it XD