Break your little heart
Chapter 10- fussy complications
Baby were invincible rocket to the moon.
I see you
And I'm waiting to make my move
But i'm scared
And I know that you've got
Better things to do
I'll touch your hand
And I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
It's cliche I know
But baby it's the price we pay
To get the things we've wanted
And get the things we've left behind
It's what you've wanted
What you needed
What you've always dreamt about
Don't take another step
Don't breathe another breath
Unless you're coming back to me
I'm trusting you
And I'm taking the long way home
I'm leaving
And it's not because of you
Will you just hold me tight
And never let me go?
I know this whole thing's wrong
But baby, we're invincible
If I could take these words
And fill them up with air
I'd fly you to the stars
So we can disappear
If I could take your heart
And keep it close to me
I swear it will not break
I swear it will not bleed
And I believe
Just anything you say
If you would tell me to get lost
I'd ask "how far away?"
And now it's getting late
And I can't keep my eyes open
My heart's open for you
I'm trusting you
And I'm taking the long way home
I'm leaving
And it's not because of you
Will you just hold me tight
And never let me go?
I know this whole thing's wrong
But baby, we're invincible
Will you just hold me tight
And never let me go?
I know this whole thing's wrong
But baby, we're invincible
Will you just hold me tight (I see you)
And never let me go? (I'm waiting to make my move)
I know this whole thing's wrong (But I'm scared and I know)
But baby, we're invincible (That you've got better things to do)
I'm trusting you (If I could take these words)
And I'm taking the long way home (And fill them up with air)
I'm leaving (I'd fly you to the stars)
And it's not because of you (So we can disappear)
Will you just hold me tight (If I could take your heart)
And never let me go (And keep it close to me)
I know this whole thing's wrong (I swear it will not break)
But baby, we're invincible (I swear it will not bleed)
It had been a week since Bella had gotten out of hospital so naturally we were all fussing over her, well Alice was. Bella had convinced me that after being kept in hospital for a few days then coming home and being babied was simply barbaric and that we should all leave her alone, so naturally Alice did the only thing she knew, the complete opposite of what Bella wanted.
Carlisle had said she'd gone into shock and because she was feeling so much emotion and so much stress it had been an overload when we were fighting and shed gone into shock or something.
I still believed it was my fault, I knew it was my fault so I had to make it up to her somehow. Carlisle was amazed that she hadn't gone over the cliff and frankly I didn't care how amazing it was, just the fact that she didn't is enough to send me into an overwhelming relief.
I sat in the window seat soaking up the sun while Bella was in bed glaring at Alice as she threw different outfits out of the wardrobe. I gave Bella a sympathetic look as she huffed in annoyance and crossed her arms.
"Don't be impatient Bella, I know what I'm looking for I just have to find it," Alice said happily.
"It wouldn't be so hard if you let me dress myself I mean I'm not that fashionable but give me some credit I don't look like a dag when I dress myself," Bella said moodily.
"Ah here it is and didn't you sleep well?" she added a few minutes later. Bella continued to glare wordlessly at her friend and I couldn't help but snicker.
"Don't," she warned without even blinking in my direction.
"Sorry," I muttered turning to stare out the window to stop myself from laughing at her expression.
"Oh fine," she caved. "Get it out of your system," she said and looked at me in exasperation.
I laughed and didn't stop for a good five minutes. By the end I was choking and clutching my stomach from the pain. I looked up and saw Alice giving me a look of disgust and Bella was glaring at me.
"What?" I said, well choked. She shook her head and turned back to Alice who had grabbed her newly made outfit and laid it across the floor.
"No way," Bella said at the same time I said
"Perfect you'll look great". She glared at me but I only shrugged.
"Thank you Edward," Alice said with fake brightness. I had no idea what was up her ass but something was causing her sudden grumpy-ness
"Shut up," I heard Bella mutter under her breath. I snickered and turned to look out the window again. My eyes were closed as I rested my head against the window and let the warmth flow through me. My eyes opened a peek so I could still see what was going on, Bella's expressions were cute and I loved watching her. She was fascinating, she didn't see herself clearly tho, I had no idea why she was afterall beautiful.
"Go change and shower," Alice commanded pointing to the bathroom. Bella screwed up her face, walked over to her cupboard and grabbed a pair of loose black jeans and a white tank top with a navy blue Mickey and Mini mouse jumper.
"Bella, you don't want to hurt my feelings do you?" Alice said faking sadness. Bella looked torn as she tried to make her decision.
"You play dirty," I said and opened my eyes fully. Bella still looking torn turned to me and then to Alice and then back again.
"You'll look lovely, Alice was just saying you'd hurt her feelings," I said. Finally Bella seemed to make her decision, she poked out her tongue at Alice childishly and walked into the bathroom, closing the door and with a subtle click locked the door.
"Isn't she just so grateful," Alice muttered. "Oh well she can wear it tomorrow" Alice sighed.
A sudden idea hit me and I smiled to myself.
"What are you grinning at lover boy?" Alice said in exasperation.
"Lover boy?" I said turning my face up at the name.
"You're in love with Bella silly," she said.
"Whatever," I muttered.
"So what are you smiling at," Alice asked.
"Can you get Bella to wear something comfy and nice, like that outfit there," I said motioning towards the outfit before continuing, "Ill be here at 7 to pick her up make sure she's ready and don't tell her anything" I asked.
Alice looked at me and crossed her arms pretending to ponder what id said but I could see the gleam in her eyes that she thought my idea was good. "You know what this means," she asked me.
"What?" I asked.
"Shopping" she squealed.
"No Alice, no shopping," Bella said walking in.
"Fine," Alice said.
"Get out," she said after a minute.
"Pardon," Bella exclaimed.
"Not you, me," I said smiling and without another word I left, planning my night with Bella.
Bella pov.
"Are you sure?" I asked again.
"Yeah," Alice said smiling.
I held the jacket undecidedly in my hands. "I don't need Edward to give me his jacket Alice," I said again.
"But it would be cute," She disagreed.
"I already have one of his jackets," I muttered.
"Fine wear the jacket and go look in the mirror already," Alice said. I tossed the jacket onto her bed and had the satisfaction of seeing Alice looked shocked before I obediently went and stood in-front of her full length mirror.
"Wow," I muttered blinking at my reflection in wonder.
"Wow indeed," Alice said walking up to me and grabbing my hand so I could twirl around. I laughed taking her hand and ending the turn looking back at myself in the mirror.
I had on black jag jeans that were tight but not uncomfortable and a dark purple t-shirt cut loosely across my chest in a kind of one shoulder thing. The top was tight around the bottom making it poof up to make it look looser and the long sleeve cuffs were tight as well. The top had black lines across it diagonally and it looked amazing. (If someone knows how to put up a link could you tell me and I'll put the pic up because the top isn't as disgusting as it sounds its actually pretty cool.)
My makeup was light and barely noticeable and my hair hung in loose curls down my shoulders. Alice allowed me to wear flats and I chose a purple and black plaid pair that I'd got in a sale in Williams. The purple and black was a little faded and worn out but the silver buckle that cut across the toe was still shiny and it completed the outfit with style.
Alice handed me an oversized black handbag in which I shoved the black jacket into before putting my wallet and phone in and then I let Ali led me downstairs.
"Where are we going this time, because last time you took me out and our destination was a surprise I ended up in hospital," I asked trying to play it to my advantage.
"We aren't going anywhere, you are and I have no idea," Alice sang happily. I stared suspiciously at her.
"But you said that Edward and us were going somewhere," I said.
"I said you and Edward were going somewhere, I'm not coming with you," she said with a grin and then the door bell rung. I stepped forward to get it but Alice shooed me off telling me to stand in the lounge room.
She walked over to the door and I heard them talking, instead of staying put I walked over and when I saw Edward I didn't have to try for a smile, it just came naturally. "You look stunning Bella" he said.
Alice sighed. "Have fun and I'll be up when you get home," she said cheerfully before heading back up the stairs without even a backwards glance in Edwards direction.
"Thanks, you clean up pretty nice yourself" I said meaning it.
Edward was wearing jeans and a loose button up t-shirt complete with boots. I grinned at him and stepped out into the cold night shivering a bit at the temperature change. I closed the door behind me and let Edward led me to his car which was parked down the driveway.
"You look cold," he commented shrugging off his jacket.
"Keep it I've got one in my bag," I said with a smile.
"I thought Alice wouldn't let you bring one," he admitted.
I laughed "And why would I listen? It's freezing out," I muttered climbing into his shiny silver Volvo.
"So where are we going?" I asked a moment later.
"It's a surprise," he said.
"I hate surprises," I muttered.
"I thought considering the way we met wasn't that great we could start over," Edward asked.
"Hmm," I mumbled wondering why my heart went all fluttery. "In that case" I said. "I'm Bella Swan kind sir and I would like to know what a kind gentleman is doing taking someone they've just met on a surprise gathering to get to know one another, destination unknown." I said with a grin.
"Edward, my lady and the destinations is still a surprise but nice try," he said chancing a quick glance in my direction. I made an overly dramatic click and said "damn, it was worth a shot" loudly.
By the time we reached Forks borderline I was extremely curious especially when we didn't take the usual turn that took us to Seattle. Edward pulled up at a small Italian restraint that looked adorable. It was small and homey looking and I couldn't help but smile with pleasure as he led me inside the small restraint.
"It's beautiful," I said smiling at him.
"You haven't met the waitresses yet, there divine," he said grinning. I smacked his arm playfully as we laughed. "Joking Bella" he said when I tried to stop laughing so I could glare at him. This just caused me to laugh harder.
Turns out Edward wasn't joking though, the waitress that was assigned to us was rather intimidating. She had short curly blonde hair with big green eyes and she used her tallness as an advantage and flirted to her heart's content. The only thing that kept my self esteem intact was the fact Edward completely ignored her which was kinda funny. Edward ordered a kebab with the lot and homus and teriyaki source and I ordered a ceaser salad with coke.
Alice POV
I watched as Bella and Edward walked out the door and smiled to myself when I saw Edward start to slip of his jacket for Bella despite Bella already having one.
When they drove away and were out of sight, I wandered into the kitchen and stared opening all the cupboards for a trace of something I wanted to eat. I finally settled on a hot pocket and while waiting for it to cook and ran up stairs and grabbed my sketch book and iPod.
The microwave started beeping just as I stepped into the kitchen. I tossed my things on the counter and went over to retrieve my food.
I sat on a stool with my knife and fork in hand as I stared at the blank page of my sketch book the rested in front of me. I had to start my school project soon and I sighed glumly as I thought of Bella squirming as I tried to persuade her to help me.
I had to design an outfit for her then she had to wear it and show the class and the Fashion designer coming to mark them, I was hoping to get either a scholarship or a job out of it so I knew it was important.
After I finished my food I was still blank for idea's I sat tapping my pen distractedly. I'd never had such a mind blank before but I just couldn't think of something that Bella would wear at school when she had her bump, everyone would know immediately.
I had to find a way to create a t-shirt or dress that makes it look like its puffy like that instead of tight and everyone knowing Bella's story. I looked out the window and noticed it was dark, well darker than it had been.
I stood up and decided to take a break but it was short lived when I heard the doorbell not moments before I sat down on my bed. I sighed and ran back downstairs.
"Coming!" I shouted as the doorbell rang again empathizing my visitors impatience. I looked at the clock in the kitchen as I walked past and swore under my breath. It was nearly 11pm why on earth would someone visit me at this hour.
I opened the door Jasper stood there, one side of his mouth pulled up into a smile. My heart did a flip as I saw him there.
I smiled at him politely and motioned for him to come inside still speechless.
"Hi, sorry to bother you so late I was just bored and wondered if you wanted to watch a movie together or something, I hired some." He said holding up his hand where three movies lay.
"Cool, I was just doing my homework," I admitted.
Jasper chuckled softly as he followed me into the living room. "Umm do you know how to use the surround sound and everything? I can make popcorn while you set up?" I suggested.
He nodded. "Sure".
Within about ten minutes I was sitting shoulder to shoulder with Jasper as we huddled together watching the new Nightmare on Elm Street.
By the end of the movie my eyes were dropping as I tried to stay awake. I was leaning on jasper's shoulder but he didn't seem to mind.
"Alice, you awake?" he asked brushing my hair out of my face.
"Yeah, only just tho," I mumbled. He chuckled softly. God he was gorgeous I thought. Jasper smiled softly down at me as I stared at him a moment before yawning widely.
"Lets get you upstairs," he muttered helping me up. I slipped and fell into him and we both tumbled down landing on the floor with a crash. I was fully awake in a moment as I apologized but he just laughed.
He was pinning me into the floor and it was painful but as I met his eyes I forgot my pain and it was just him and me. Jasper landed towards me but I wasn't thinking my mind was screaming at me and suddenly I thought of a design.
"I know!" I said and grinned widely.
Jasper snapped out of his train of thoughts and apologized getting up careful not to squish me and then he helped me up again. As soon as I was up I bolted into the kitchen sat down and drew a sketch of a cocktail dress that was made of a stretchy material to allow for bulging bellies.
I heard jasper walk in behind me and promptly ignored him sketching so fast I could barely contain my excitement. When I was done I held it up to Jasper.
He smiled, "That would suit Bella, it's an amazing sketch is that your project, the one you'll make and you had a mind blank on?' he asked.
"Yep you were my inspiration," I said grinning as I looked down at my finished work. Jasper grinned back at me, "Glad I could help"
There was an awkward pause while I waited for Jasper to continue but he didn't so with a sigh I grabbed his hand.
"Where are we-?"
"To watch another movie of course."
Jasper Pov
Alice was passed out on my lap by the 2nd movie and carefully I moved over trying not to wake her. I thought I'd just let myself out but as I turned to face her she looked so tiny and innocent on the over sized couch I decided id take her to her room. I'd seen it before I just hoped I got the right room.
Gently I scooped her up into my arms and carried her upstairs. I got the first turn wrong but after opening up a door that lead to a bathroom I figured I'd gone wrong. On my third attempt I got the door right and gently I laid Alice down pulling the covers up and smiling as she snuggled deeper into the warmth.
Gently I leaned down and kissed her forehead. "I think I love you Alice Cullen, but I guess you'll never know that. I'm too shy," I whispered staring at my sleeping angel.
"Sleep well my Alice," I whispered and left.
"Jasper," I heard someone mumble but I figured it was my imagination, getting carried away from me as usual when I was with Alice.
Bella pov
I sipped my coke while Edward talked, so far it seemed all I had done was listen but I liked it that way, it was good to know more about Edward. He stopped abruptly and seemed to be arguing with himself.
"Spit it out, whatever it is or I'll go mad with curiosity" I said grinning.
"Umm Bella, when we were talking the other day, on the-" Edward said.
"Talking," I scoffed interrupting him.
He sighed. "Well when I was shouting at you the other day, and you looked so scared, so fragile and then when you went into shock," he continued.
"Edward where is this going?" I asked staring into his green eyes.
"Please Bella, just let me get this out," he whispered looking down.
"When you went into shock I realized how close to the cliff you were, if you had of taken even the slightest step back I wouldn't of just lost you, but the little girl your carrying as well and…" He was still looking down helplessly.
"Boy, Little boy," I whispered so softly that I didn't think he'd heard me. His head snapped up.
"Mothers instinct," I said feeling my face grow warm as a pink blush creep over my face.
"We'll see," Edward muttered under his breath with a small smile playing with his lips.
"So" I started to say.
"Bella I'm not done," Edward said in exasperation. "Well like I said, I realized something; I was so angry with myself, so afraid and worried about you. Look what I'm trying to say is, Bella I think I love you," he said.
I think I love you, his words echoed in my head; my mind was backtracking and replaying those words over and over trying to find the mistake in them.
My mind wasn't functioning and all I could do was open my mouth and let out a small gasp.
Sorry I haven't updated in ages there has been issues with the files, I have the next 3 chapters almost ready and ill update them as soon as possible!
Thanks for reading
Tegan xx